#weirddictionary

もう 一回 mou ikkai I was in a pool trying to swim but always ends up drowning, in despair And I realized no one, nobody knows how I got there. For a while I stopped breathing, staring down if I reached its full depth My mind keeps thinking I should give up, but my gut feels like I should look up… And so I did both… I released a sigh and let my arms fall, My body rotated itself Felt like I’m sinking in my bed - I guess this is it… I opened my eyes and saw clouds and clear blue skies My body relaxed - suddenly I was floating, starting life again. #WeirdDictionary #text 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘺 ᵗʰᵃⁿᵏˢ ᵗᵒ ˢ¹ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢ² ᵒᶠ ᴰᶦᶜᵏᶦⁿˢᵒⁿ https://www.instagram.com/p/CY3VOrQviqi/?utm_medium=tumblr

skeptical, adj. ‪Take your time, people you meet may not be someone you’ll grow old with, what’s important is the happiness you share with each other and the people around you. ‬ #WeirdDictionary #text https://www.instagram.com/p/B8vLYmAnOfU/?igshid=1126hcixfajvo

tears, n. (pl.) How precious are they? How many have you poured before the year ended? How many have you poured when the year started? How many times did you, just to fall asleep? How many times did you, just to convince yourself? How many times did you, just to feel the reality? How many people have you become brave enough to show this sign of weakness? How many people did you let see your strength? Whether sorrow or joy Whether pain or relief We can neither measure them through laughter nor tears. #WeirdDictionary #text https://www.instagram.com/p/B8MZwd7HCjU/?igshid=1lul5tvo0a9wg

Marble Sunday, n. First off, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Today’s February 2, 2021. Everyone at work’s been joking around how it was January 48 last week, we also have a document that’s stamped January 36. Can you believe that?! Additional 5 days on the first month of the year. The longest January just passed, a lot’s happened - and we survived this.... For sure I will also survive today. I am Steph and I’ve been avoiding marble Sunday for quite some time now. So yea.. I’m always always always grateful for new mornings. All the snooze time I can get and still be early for work - thanks to Angkas. But most especially, the time when I can move my fingers, open and close them and reach for my phone to snooze alarm lol no...to check the time...it’s always a problem, waking up. Can I stand up, can I move my leg, are my shoulders tight yes they are always..., I am already tired by the moment I wake up - this is what Lupus does to my body. But I try, I always try because nobody will do it for me. I wouldn’t be able to eat all the food that I want if I won’t fight this battle that I’m always in first thing in the morning. For my work mates, friends, roommates Kevin, Cedric, and Fhebie; my mom, Roxanne, and most especially my Sunday family, I am very thankful. Every day is a blessed day, not only when we achieve something, not only when we help others but most especially when we win our own hidden battles. Thank you and have a blessed week! Sunday 15:09 01Feb20 #WeirdDictionary #text #TagalogTesting #Sundays #churchArc https://www.instagram.com/p/B8DRfaknPvx/?igshid=e9yga8wy24de

rise, int. v. Traumas that happened in our life are really hard to escape. I am frightened of speaking to people, to a crowd - what more a trauma you experienced from a dear friend? Shit ton of panic attacks are building inside me since yesterday. But I will stop thinking that people are the same, I will stop thinking that I will be laughed at for having this kind of weakness, I will stop thinking that some person has power over me and let myself down. #WeirdDictionary #text https://www.instagram.com/p/B8DHQ9gHq6F/?igshid=ju2723lkkor9

sublimate, v. We were taught to write using our right hand – when we write better using our left We were told to always smile; Just nod and say ‘yes’ We were told to respect the elders; Not minding whether they pinch our butt or stare lustfully at our fully clothed body We were told to read the bible; Mind the scriptures, maybe memorize them But not telling us that we need to live like that omnipotent guy above. #WeirdDictionary #text #WordOfTheDay We are the metaphor – not everything is about us, but for God. To stand between the threshold of heaven and earth – whatever it is for you, whatever it is that you would want to do to live, revisit the things that makes you alive, that pushes you to create things. Reflect the goodness of God in this world, access your inner humanity. How do you share yourself to others? #Sundays #churchArc https://www.instagram.com/p/B7yUyeXnksk/?igshid=ujz1c0ryo03

antsy, adj. ‪My anxious self always gets me to places hours too early..‬ ‪Helps me contemplate, rest, and chill for a while...‬ #WeirdDictionary #text https://www.instagram.com/p/B5r_Rohn51i/?igshid=4zgl6tw3jhpf

strong, adj. She is strong. She IS strong. She is strong, but. She is strong yet she loves so deeply She is strong but she cries She is strong yet she is emotional She is strong, in spite of her so-called weaknesses. She loves with all her heart Giving all she can Embracing vulnerability Clinging to a love she would cherish ‘til end. She tears up and cries alone in her room All night, when everyone is asleep With her pillow as her only comfort She cries herself to sleep. She holds on to hope To the tiniest possibilities To positivity She does not let go too easily. She is strong, She IS definitely strong But she still needs to be hugged, To be cared for so deeply, and To be loved truthfully. #WeirdDictionary #text https://www.instagram.com/p/B5cSymMnHsY/?igshid=19kgfihwxtb2y