May 27, 2015
When I'm hi
I just think about our fake future and if youre real about everything. Because I really love you and it makes me literally depressed to be without you. Its hard to be happy when I always wish you were there bc youre all I really care about making proud. I didnt really feel that and I'm sorry I was too fucked up to invest in initially. I have a lot of things I didnt tell you that would have given you a better idea of why I act the way I do. I have to stop before I start crying more on this white tee. I'm way too lazy to change these days I can't even look at myself naked without seeing you. This is why I its catch 22 with bud. Because it gets me away from the reality of losing you but puts me into the fantasy of being with you.
