#warmnes

For first time in years, I don’t feel any black hole inside me, filled to the brim with nothing but a sense of void making me feel like I exist but perhaps it is all a delusion . I want to run in the fields now and not curl up against a cream wall in a room possessed with my silence, my chest wants to be engulfed in your embrace , your arms gripping away any remains of the dingy loneliness in my little heart. 

I shout your name inside my mind when i miss you terribly - sometimes just after you have kissed me and had to go and other times when we haven't seen each other from an eternity and life is a skeleton.

In these cold autumns , all that exist for me now is you,