I'm not going to let my heart make decisions anymore.
A heart doesn't have a conscious or a subconscious. A heart is just an organ that pumps blood so you can live. A heart doesn't control how you feel. Your mind does. Your mind processes what you see, what you think, how you feel, and your heart is just the reaction to it. If you see someone you like, your mind processes it, your mind tells you that THAT is the person, then your heart pumps quickly because you're nervous.
"I love you with all my heart" ? bullshit.
Don't tell me you love me with your heart if your mind tells you otherwise. Because your brain is the most important organ that will differentiate you from anyone else. It creates the person you are because of the experiences you've had. It tells you when to go, when to stop, how to act, who to love...
You feel heart break because your mind is not yet adapted to change. Your mind told you to love someone and one day..their mind tells them not to love you anymore; so your mind is shocked because it worked so hard to continue to love them and care for them.
So what are you left with in the end? A broken heart and a mind that's damage by the pain they caused.
My mind turned my heartbreak into anger and hatred and that's the worst way to adapt to change. but whatevs, fuck love and all its perks.
