I don't think this picture could have resurfaced at a more perfect point in my life. A lot of you have no clue what's going on in my day to day life and that's by choice of my family and I. But I have a very hard decision to make and have been contemplating for the past 18days. I received life changing news on January 1st, (no one freak out everything will be ok), sent my whole world into a spiral that I want so desperately to escape. On one hand you have your heart and mind set on a goal and what you expect to happen because you have been preparing for the moment for a while now to then get smacked by life and potentially not do any of the above..at least not in the timing you wanted. But on the other hand you want to do right by your family and what's best for them, because family first forever and always. I don't want to resent anyone including myself in the decision I have to make, but again it is MY decision and no matter the factors I have to do what's best for........and this is where I am stumped because the happiness and what's best for my family..I don't think it adds up to what's best for me or my happiness..so what do you do????? Be selfish and leave when they all need you or be selfless and hate yourself when it's all said and done.. Signed, a wandering, tired, confused mind..
