#vomititupnonstop

I feel guilty.

Hold my face and beat my body. Kiss me and choke me when I don't open my mouth. I'm yours, right? Do whatever you want with me. Please? Please please please..

I'm paranoid. My own mental health is at stake? I'm scared now. I don't know what's going on..

I'm making you worse just accept it and break up with me. No, I don't mean that. Don't break up with me. Just treat me like shit, I deserve it, anyway

I hate interacting with your friends. I'm too jealous to even keep talking, I go mute and I just listen. Listen in hatred and guilt. Guilt because they didn't do anything wrong to warrant my jealousy, and hatred because they've known you longer. The fact that I'm not matching with only you makes me upset, too. I can't voice that anywhere else or else you'll get upset.

To be fair, I post on here because my lover doesn't check it, and probably never will. It'll be easy to say what's on my mind. It wouldn't care enough to check it, I think.

Do you want my input, or do you want to do whatever you want? I'm tired of empty promises, so don't promise me anything you know you can't keep, okay?

You tell me to eat everyday, but when I tell you to eat it's "I'm not hungry" "I don't wanna". I know you're going to break your promise, so why even say you'll keep it?