#vomit ---

I just realized I forgot to talk about this after it happened a couple days ago. Basically I was smoking a blunt outside w/ Oli’s dad and I was standing by a fence just chillin’.

I’m texting Oli’s partner about some shit that happened to my boyfriend (their best friend) and it’s starting to get to me a bit like I felt my muscles twitching and my vision started to darken around the edges in waves. That’s pretty normal for us though and happens like 5-50 times a day like just from getting up and shit so I ignored it.

Some time went by and I had built up some emotions like I was just generally very upset and I was writing out a message that was kinda sensitive about the incident and the darkening came back and it didn’t wave in a bit and go out like normal. Nope. It waved in and got worse and worse until my whole vision was black. That’s not too abnormal either but when I started to collapse I was like oh shit this is bad.

So I feel myself begin to fall but it doesn’t really register. I don’t remember anything but I’m kinda aware time passed and it was very scary and agonizing tbh. Like I remember just feeling raw panic and I was making some noise when I got conciousness back but I couldn’t make out what.

I come to and Oli’s father is crouched over me and he’s asking his mom if he should call an ambulance and my foot is caught and twisted in the fence I was standing by. So I sit up and he’s asking me what happened and I’m like idk and he’s like wtf do you mean and I’m like idk I was over there and now I’m here and there was like weird suffering in the middle that like existed out of time and like I’m trying to tell him I’m fine but I can’t because whoops gotta puke so I just kept doing that uncontrollably for about 3 minutes while they got me a rag so I could get the taste out so I could stop.

When I did stop I grabbed the phone I dropped and told Oli’s partner what happened and asked Oliver’s dad for the deets. Apparently my eyes were rolled back and open and I was making “get away from me noises” and that went on for about 10-15 seconds.