Hey girl!!! I was just wondering if I could get a Joaquin x Reader fic where Joaquin gets caught in an explosion and gets temporary amnesia?
I absolutely adored writing this fic. Thank you so much for you request, Rowan!
The Heart Always Remembers
You met Joaquin Torres on the first day of basic training. The moment the squad assignments were read out, your names were called back-to-backâTorres, then yours. A nod passed between youâbrief, professional, curious. No handshake. No words. Just a shared look that said, All right. Letâs do this. From the very first drillâthe first scramble through knee-deep mud, boots sloshing, voices cracking with effort as the drill sergeant barkedâsomething locked into place. You didnât need a learning curve. No awkward trial runs, no figuring each other out.Â
While others stumbled over timing or left gaps in formation, you and Joaquin moved like twin currents in the same stream. You covered each otherâs blind spots without hesitation. Backed each other in hand-to-hand combat, even when paired with opponents twice your size. You pivoted in sync during live-fire exercises like youâd choreographed the whole thing in advance. You didnât speak. You didnât have to. It didnât take long for people to notice.
âInstructors kept watching us,â Joaquin once murmured to you, after lights-out, both of you wide awake and staring at the ceiling of the barracks. âLike they were trying to figure out the cheat code.â
Your squad noticed too. At first, it was side-eyes and whispers. Nothing direct, nothing hostileâjust the kind of wary curiosity people get when they canât explain what theyâre seeing. One guy, Powers, tried to break the tension during downtime.
âSo⌠you two like psychic or something?â he joked, trying to keep it light. You just shrugged, and Joaquin didnât even look up from cleaning his rifle.
Another time, after a particularly brutal obstacle course that ended with the two of you dragging half the squad to the finish line, someone muttered, âTheyâve gotta be cheating.â No one replied, but the air got tight for a moment. You were still catching your breath, mud streaked up your arms, lungs burning. You heard itâfelt it, more than anything. The weight of accusation dressed up as sarcasm. The kind of comment that didnât need to be serious to sting.
Your eyes flicked up. Joaquinâs jaw flexed, subtle but sharp. He didnât say anything either. Just stood there beside you, breathing hard, fists still half-clenched. His gaze didnât even shift toward the guy who said itâbut you knew him well enough by now to read the shift in his stance. He was pissed, but he wouldnât rise to it.
That was the thing about the two of you: you didnât waste your breath on people who couldnât keep up. You didnât need to defend what youâd already proven in sweat, bruises, and hours. Still, your pinky twitched by instinct nudging his pinky, like a quiet prod. Let it go, it said. Weâve got bigger things to prove.
Without looking down, Joaquin hooked his pinky with yours, just for a second, just enough. Then he let go, exhaled slowly, and took a step forward. You followed without a word, side by side as always, leaving the tension behind in your wake. Because the truth was, it didnât matter what they said. You werenât here to impress anybody. You were here to surviveâand do it together.
There were bets, theories. Rumors that maybe youâd trained together before enlisting. That maybe youâd grown up in the same town. Shared a childhood. Shared more. But every time someone asked, you both gave the same answer: Nope. Met on day one.
Still, it didnât make sense to anyone how you always seemed to anticipate each otherâs moves, how you never needed to speak. Even in chaos, even under pressure, your rhythm stayed intact. And that confused people. Sometimes confusion looks like admiration. Sometimes, it looks like resentment.
There was a stretch where a few squad-mates tried to break the pattern. They tried to insert themselves into the formation during drills, edge their way between you two during tactical exercises. It didnât work. It never worked and not because you pushed them out, but because it was like your bodies and instincts rejected the interference. The timing collapsed; the symmetry vanished.
You werenât cold about it, just focusedâand focus earned results. You passed every exam, every simulation, with scores that made even the instructors squint. If there was a partner exercise, your names were locked in before the sergeant even called them.
During group tasks, everyone started looking at you two first waiting to see how youâd move, what call youâd make, how youâd fall into formation. Respect didnât come overnight. It came slowly, quietly. The jokes thinned out. The jabs stopped. One by one, your squad-mates stopped trying to figure you out and started trusting you insteadâstarted following your lead.
By the end of month two, no one asked anymore why it worked. They just made room for it. Because whatever this wasâwhatever you and Joaquin hadâit got results. And in basic, that was the only thing that really mattered. No one knew how to counter it.
In combat sims, you swept through rooms like a storm, without a word spoken. You traded weapons mid-fight without looking. Communicated in eye contact and shoulder nudges. When one of you went down during training, the other made it their mission to carry both of you across the finish line.
It didnât take long for instructors to start using you as examples.
âMove like The Ghost.â
âCover your six like they do.â
âTrain until youâre even half as coordinated as The Ghost.â
One of them, Staff Sergeant Morales, said it loud enough for the entire class to hear after a brutal room-clearing exercise: âIf I had ten more just like them, I could win a war with my damn eyes closed.â He didnât say it like a compliment. He said it like a warning. Some recruits hated it. Others watched in awe. Instructors admired it. Leaders feared it. Regardless, no one stayed indifferent for long.
The bond followed you into active duty. By the time you deployed, people knew to look for you two together. You sat next to each other on transport flights. Shared gear. Shared rations. Picked up each otherâs slack without being asked. He knew how you took your coffee; you knew how to spot when he was hiding an injury. Your squad placed betsâfirst on whoâd screw up and break formation (neither of you ever did), and later, on when youâd finally cave and admit you were in love.
You pretended to be annoyed by it, but the truth was ⌠they werenât wrong. It wasnât loud. It wasnât dramatic. It was a quiet understanding that grew over late-night fire watches and adrenaline-soaked post-mission come-downs. You looked at him and felt steady. Looked at you and saw home. Joaquin never said it outright, not at first. He didnât have to because you just knew.
So when the explosion hitâwhen the world erupted in fire and dust and you watched Joaquin vanish under a collapsing roof topâit felt like someone had ripped the oxygen from your lungs. You didnât think. You ran. You ran through fire, through shouts, through people trying to hold you back. You found him crumpled under half a collapsed wall, suit blackened and wings mangled, blood streaming from a gash across his forehead. You dropped to your knees, shaking hands pressed to his pulse point.
Joaquinâs heart was still beating but barely. You whispered his name over and over. When they carried him off in the evac chopper, your hands were still stained red from holding him together. You were too stunned to move, and your two best friends had to quite literally drag you after Joaquin towards safety.
Joaquin spent three days in a medically induced coma. You sat by his bedside the entire time. You didnât leave except to wash off the ash in the ensuite bathroom. You didnât sleep except in 30-minute intervals. Every beep of the monitor, every shift of his fingers, every flicker of breathâyou memorized it all.
Until finally, on the third morning, his eyes fluttered open. You surged forward in the chair beside his bed, your heart catching in your throat. But the second he looked at youâtruly looked at youâyou knew something was wrong. Joaquin didnât smile. He didnât reach for you. He blinked slowly and said, in a hoarse, confused voice:
âÂżDĂłnde estoyâŚ?â Joaquin croaked, his eyes panning the room. Your breath caught. And thenâbarely audible, like it cost him everything to sayââWho⌠who are you?â
The words hit harder than the blast had. Harder than the moment you saw him fall. Three words. Who are you? They split something open in your chest.
Youâd prepared for wounds, for rehab, for months of physical therapy. Youâd braced yourself for the nightmares, for the scars, for helping him heal. But not this. Not him waking up and looking at you like a stranger. Not the emptiness in his voice where your name shouldâve been. You gripped the edge of the bed, knuckles white, willing yourself not to cryânot yet. Not when he was alive. He was here. He was here with you, even if he didnât remember you, even if he didnât remember The Ghost Formation.
Before you could speakâbefore you could shape the reassurance that had been burning in your chest for three endless daysâJoaquinâs face crumpled. His breathing hitched, shallow and uneven, chest rising too fast.
âI donâtââ he rasped, eyes darting around the room like he didnât recognize any of it. âI donât know where I am. I donâtâwhy canât I rememberââ
His hands trembled. His voice cracked.
âIâmâIâm scared,â he gasped, the words tearing out of him between labored breaths. âWhy canât I remember anything?â
You were crawling into his bed in seconds, legs hanging off the side, torso hovering over his, hands hovering just above his armsâclose enough to comfort, not close enough to overwhelm.
âHeyâhey, itâs okay,â you said, voice low and steady, the way you used to talk to him in the field when the adrenaline got too loud. âYouâre safe. Breathe with me, okay?â
Joaquinâs eyes found yours againâwide and wet now, tears slipping down his cheeks. A fresh ache bloomed in your chest, but you pushed it down. Swallowed it. Because this wasnât about you.
âI donât know you,â he whispered, voice cracking like it hurt to admit it. âWhy donât I know you?â
âYou do, Quino,â you said gently. âItâs okay if you donât yet. Iâm not going anywhere until you remember me.â
His hands clenched weakly into the blanket. The monitor beeped faster as his breaths became shorter, more panicked. You reached outâslowly, carefullyâand set your hand over his. The touch was electric for both of you. It was warm, solid, and real.
âJust breathe with me,â you whispered. âIn and out. Thatâs all you have to do right now.â
Joaquin listened and followed you. His breaths were ragged at first but became steadier. Then, barely audible but certain enough to break the tension, he repeated, âYouâre here âŚÂ and Iâm okay ⌠Iâm because youâre here.â
As he said it, his fingers twitchedâalmost unconsciouslyâand slowly, he intertwined your fingers. Your thumb instantly traced over his knuckles. His grip was tentative at first, then with growing strength. Joaquin squeezed your hand hard, not letting go. The words trembled out of him again, shaky and unsure, but they were yours. His words were a lifeline thrown across the darkness. You smiled through the tears youâd been holding back. You heard a nurse jog into the room, their steps rushed to a halt when they realized what was happening.
âYes,â you assured him quietly, your fingers tightening gently around his. âIâm here. And Iâm not going anywhere.â
You stayed right there, never breaking eye contact, never letting go of his hand.
âIâve got you,â you told him softly, anchoring both of you with those three words.
You werenât leaving. Even if he didnât remember. Even if he was scared. Even if your name didnât mean anything to himâyet. Somewhere beneath the panic, the confusion, the fear you saw something in his eyes: a flicker. Not quite recognition but undisputed trust. It was instinctive, unexplainableâlike something in him still knew. You held onto that. You held him through the shaking, the tears, the jagged breaths. You would keep holding on until he remembered everything you were. Until he remembered everything you still are.Â
For the rest of the day, nurses came in and out, checking vitals, adjusting equipment, but they never tried to pry you away. Their hearts were breaking for you. And even if they wanted to, they couldnât bring themselves to ask you to step aside. Joaquin didnât let go of your hand for at least an hourânot until one nurse carefully said she needed to place a pulse oximeter on his index finger. He hesitated, fingers curling tighter for a moment as if he was afraid.Â
Then, reluctantly, he let go, but his gaze never left yours. Was he worried youâd be angry? Worried youâd vanish if he loosened his grip?
âItâs okay,â you whispered. You gently placed your hand on his knee, just above the blanket.
That small gesture seemed to settle him as he slowly let the nurse take his hand. You settled onto the bed for the rest of the day; stretched your legs out toward the headboard so you could watch him from near the foot of the bed. Your knees bumped lightly against his in quiet solidarity, an unspoken connection.Â
As visiting hours approached late that evening, the attending doctor stepped in. None of the nurses had the heart to ask you to leaveâthey all knew you didnât want to leave.
âItâs time to leave now that heâs awake,â the doctor said softly.
Your mouth twitched, ready to protest, but deep down, you knew. You should leave. You should give Joaquin the space he needed⌠After all, he didnât remember you. Then, quietly, low and sure, Joaquin spoke:
âShe stays.â
You and the doctor both whipped your heads toward him, mouths open in stunned surprise.
âItâs okay, Quino,â you stammered, your voice shaky. âIâI can leaveâyou need to restââ
But he was firm now: âYou stay.â
Joaquinâs hand reached for yours, but he hesitated. His fingers hovered, confused, unsure if he should bridge the gap again. And then, softly, almost shyly, he said, âYou said weâd watch that movie about the lion fighting his uncle.â
A lump caught in your throat. That memoryâthe movie you both loved, the one youâd promised to watch together as soon as he woke from the comaâwas buried deep beneath the fog. Somehow, it was still there. It was a beacon, a thread back to you. You squeezed his hand, voice thick with emotion.
âIâm here,â you whispered, âand Iâm not going anywhere.â
And for the first time since the explosion, you saw something more than confusion in his eyes. You saw hope. At that moment, the cracked door swung wide as two nurses filed in quickly. One held the TV remote, fingers already tapping to pull up The Lion King online. The other came bearing sheets and pillows, her arms full, setting about making the room more comfortable.
You glanced at Joaquin, who was watching them with wide, curious eyes. Before you could say anything, two more nurses appeared, wheeling in a cot. They placed it carefully between Joaquinâs bed and the window, creating a small, cozy space for you to rest. The room, once sterile and tense, softened instantly. It felt less like a hospital room and more like a place where you could start reclaiming your life together.
You settled in next to Joaquin, the familiar opening chords filling the air. As the movie began, you held his hand tightly, ready to rebuild every memory, every promiseâone scene, one smile, one heartbeat at a time.
The doctors called it traumatic retrograde amnesia. They explained it carefully, their voices clinical but tinged with gentle caution. It was likely temporary, they said, but no one could say for sure. The explosion, the crushing force, the head traumaâall mixed with prolonged oxygen deprivationâhad scrambled his memories like a shattered puzzle. The pieces were blurred, missing, scattered beyond recognition.
His long-term memory had been fractured. They warned you not to push him. They warned you to take it slow, to let his brain find its way back on its own terms. You nodded, smiled politely at their advice, but insideâinside you broke. Because when Joaquin looked at you for the first time since wakingâwhen his eyes settled on your faceâyou were a stranger. Not the partner who had moved with him in perfect sync through every mission. Not the friend who had shared every secret, every laughter-filled night beneath endless stars. Not the soulmate who had bled and fought by his side.
None of it was there. Not the spark in his eyes when he looked at you. Not the private grin he reserved just for you after a mission went sideways and you both limped back in one piece. Not the playful bickering or the quiet moments that once said home better than any place ever had. Now, there was only a blank canvas where your history should have been; a raw, untouched surface that stared back at you with no recognition, no anchor.
But stillâyou stayed. You never actually left, not once. You didnât ask to stay. Joaquin never begged the doctor, never pleaded with the nurses. Neither of you had to bring it up at all. It became a quiet, unspoken agreement among everyone involvedâmedical staff, command, even Samâthat you would be there. Youâd stay at least for a few days. No one challenged it. No one wanted to challenge it. Sam showed up the second night with your go-bag slung over one shoulder.Â
He had stuffed your bag with changes of clothes, travel-sized toiletries, your phone charger, and a battered paperback Joaquin had tried to convince you to read a hundred times before. Sam didnât say much. He set the bag on the empty chair beside you, gave your shoulder a squeeze, and left without making you speak.
The nurses began folding extra blankets at the foot of the cot without asking. One of them quietly replaced your coffee with fresh mugs when yours had gone cold. Another started bringing you a second tray at mealtimes, no matter what the hospitalâs policy was.
You slept in half-hour bursts with your head on the edge of Joaquinâs bed, your hand tucked in his. You learned the rhythms of the monitors like lullabies. The quiet hum of the machines, the occasional beep, the steady whoosh of the oxygen lineâall of it became the soundtrack of your new reality. You filled the silence with the pieces of your life heâd forgotten.
You turned on the music you used to dance to in your kitchen. You started with the playlist he made for you after your first joint deployment. It was the one with soft Latin ballads and throwback pop and that ridiculous â80s synth song you used to mock but secretly loved. Joaquin didnât recognize the songs at first; he didnât respond immediately, at least not with words, but his fingers twitched against the sheets now and then, like his body remembered what his mind couldnât.
You wore his favorite hoodieâthe soft one that hit you mid-thigh, sleeves too long. The one he used to say made you look like you'd âstolen his wings and werenât planning on giving them back.â Joaquin didnât say anything about it the first few days, but by day four, his gaze lingered a little longer when he looked at you in it. You told him stories. You recounted all kinds of stories.
Funny stories like the time you accidentally wandered into a drill formation and almost got tackled by a training dummy before Joaquin swooped in with a ridiculous cover story about a âclassified base scavenger hunt.âÂ
Sad stories about family. About missing home. About that one guy in your unit who used to sing lullabies in Tagalog on night watch, just to keep everyone grounded.
And the quiet onesâthe stories you only ever told him. The ones about your childhood. Your fear of heights. Your dreams of opening a tiny bookstore in a coastal town once this lifeâthe military lifeâwas done.
You called him mi amorânot out of habit, but because it still felt true. At first, he didnât even blink, didnât flinch when you said it. In fact, he didnât respond at all. You thought he didnât react out of pity, afraid of offending you if he showed any negative reaction to the affectionate term. But you kept saying it. You whispered it like a thread tying you back together ⌠and by the end of the first week, it landed.
You said it softlyââBuenas noches, mi amorââand turned to gather your bag. Then you heard it. A breath. A shift. You looked back and found him watching you, eyes softer than youâd seen them since the blast. And then came that slow, crooked smileâthe one that never reached his face unless it was real.
âI⌠think I like when you say that,â he mumbled, voice raspy but honest.
Your heart nearly stopped. Your knees almost caved. It wasnât everything, but it was something. And in this quiet, in-between place where love held steady and memory had gone wandering, something was more than enough. You smiled back, tears in your eyes, and said it againâstronger this time.
âGood,â you murmured, setting on the side of his bed to brush his bangs off his forehead, âbecause Iâm not going anywhere.â
The breakthrough came on a stormy night five weeks after he woke up. You hadnât stayed the night for at least a week, and the nurses agreed to let you spend the night again tonight. Lightning flashed outside the hospital windows, and thunder shook the building. You were curled up on the couch in his room, half-dozing, when you heard him whimper loudly. You bolted up right in seconds. He was sitting up, drenched in sweat, chest heaving.
âJoaquin?â you gasped. You crossed the room in two steps, crawling into his bed.
âI saw you,â he whispered. âIn a dream. We were dancing. You were laughing. We wereâwe were happy. And I thinkââ he swallowed, voice cracking, âI think I loved you.â
âYou still do,â you said, voice breaking. âYou just forgot for a little while.â
He stared at you like the sun had risen in the middle of the night.
âYour name, itâsâŚâ he murmured. You nodded, tears falling freely now. âAnd I called you âvida mĂa,â didnât I?â
âYou still do,â you whispered. âWhenever youâre ready.â
It all came back, little by little after that night. The smell of burnt coffee on your first night deployed. The time you patched up his arm with duct tape and a broken compass. The way your voice sounded in the dark, steady and calm, when everything else fell apart.
Eventually, he remembered your first kissâafter a mission gone sideways, covered in bruises and laughing in disbelief. He remembered whispering that he didnât care if anyone else knew, that you were the only thing that mattered.
And on a quiet morning, months later, he turned to you in the apartment youâd shared long before the explosion, wrapped his arms around your waist, and murmured: âI remember everything.â
You pressed your forehead to his and whispered, âSo do I.â
People still talk about The Ghost Formation. Itâs in after-action reports, highlighted in red ink and circled twice. Instructors still cite it during training sessions, pointing to old footage and whispering to recruits, âThis is what real trust looks like.â Itâs even been immortalized in the rumors that echo through enemy channelsâthose who survived long enough to tell stories of the shadow-pair who moved as one. Who never spoke but always knew. Who cleared rooms like ghosts and left behind nothing but silence and stunned disbelief.
But for you, itâs never just been a nickname. It was never just tactics or coincidence. It was a promise. A vow forged in the dirt of the training field and tempered in the fire of every mission, every shared wound, every look that said Iâve got you without needing to speak. It held strong when everything else fell apart, when the blast hit, when the memories vanished⌠When the boy you loved looked at you with empty eyes and no trace of the thousand moments youâd built together.
Even then, The Ghost Formation held. Because it was never just in his memory. It lived deeperâin his instincts, his bones, the pull of his heart that still knew yours by feel. And now? Now, Joaquin is back and heâs not just breathing and not just surviving. But heâs hereâwith youâeyes clear, smile familiar, arms wrapping around you like they were made for that purpose alone.
You still fight side by side, still fall asleep tangled together on long flights, your heads bumping lightly as the engine hums. You still argue over whose kill count was higher on the last mission, and you still laugh so hard your ribs ache when he does that ridiculous impression of your old drill sergeant. But thereâs a softness now, a stillness.
The kind that comes after weathering the storm and knowing youâve earned every second of peace that follows. Sometimes, late at night, heâll reach for your hand without a word and youâll squeeze backâjust onceâlike always.
The Ghost Formation didnât end in that explosion or in the hospital or when the world tried to shake it loose. It survived because it was never about memory. It was about choice. You chose each other every day in every way that counted. And you still do.











