Oct 14, 2025
honestly I kinda hate how jealous my dysphoria makes me a lotta the time . I see anyone with a pussy and I’m like clawing at the walls of my enclosure like “why isn’t that me”
#op.03.082#vn.06.004#this is why I feel like I wouldn’t be very good at t4t in practice :( I would get really jealous and probably cry and be at a literal#standstill because of how scared I’d be at accidentally penetrating something .#I Know this fear isn’t unfounded because one time I was having sex w someone with a dick for that matter and it grazed up against their#ass and I literally just started crying and freezing up on the spot#and then when there’s a cis guy I get really self conscious about not being able to get pregnant#REALLY self conscious . so honestly like out of all genital arrangements I’m the most attracted to phallo . easily.#which is why I post about it a lot . either that or like an infertile cis guy I guess.#and this isn’t saying I can’t be attracted to someone w a pussy it’s just like . I could never have sex . because I would straight up just#be scared and jealous and on the brink of tears the whole time . :(#Honeslty I’m like . effectively asexual w/o vaginoplasty#one guy one brought me penetrating him up during sexting once and I started shaking and turned my phone off for like 10 mins ………. like even#over text it triggers me
