day 54
since this projects end is only days away, this evening i said goodbye to the 2 other guys that i have spent some time with on my summer vacation. Mr. FY & have had quite an interesting summer... spent a lot of time talking via Skype & not even playing within the game anymore. When i mention this to him he tells me to stop trying to focus the lens on the camera and just enjoy the scenery. yet he tells me that he does not know if he can handle the fact of me leaving and decides it may be in his best interest to stop talking to me before i end this project. he prefers to do the walking away rather than being walked away from.... which is of course his prerogative. to be honest i am more disappointed with his care &/or concern for how we will spend our last time together... as RC has set the bar pretty high...but perhaps i should not compare. pushing all of those thoughts aside... i decide to join him in the place & way he chooses for us... he enjoys going to clubs with live performers & being the center of attention on the dance floor... so we dance seperatly for awhile... distractedly chatting here & there...obviously he is multitasking...as i am guilty of doing on many occasions but try to be in the moment since i know it will be our last. AE & i have talked & spent time together infrequently ...mostly we chat, flirt & dance...he is a pretty talented erotic writer as well... he joins me for one last dance & wishes me well...telling me confidently that i will come back again someday... i find it amusing that i am now romantacizing the end of this project with a hint of unexpected sensitivity.
