#virgils posts

We lived in shadows... The darker corners of Thomas’ mind. 

We skulked around the long corridors of the mind palace and twisted around the happier memories.  The Duke would come up with some ridiculously stupid idea, Deceit was always good at telling Thomas everything was fine, that nothing bad would come of it. then there was me who would proceed to panic, what if someone did find out. Then it would be ok Deceit would tell them it wasn’t Thomas. It was my job to watch Thomas’ back while he did something bad, not that he ever did anything too terrible. Nothing you wouldn’t expect from your typical kid.

Oh but what if they found out, Thomas you’d be in so much trouble...

  Everything will be fine, we tell them it was just an accident and we’ll get away free. 

Go on, just toss it off the counter, your brother doesn’t deserve it

Oh but he’ll hate you for it Thomas! He’ll know you did it on purpose

So we tell him that it was an accident, we use that brilliant acting and cry and make a fuss and make it believable! 

..... Together we... were awful... 

Ever since I came to the others, with keeping Thomas, Roman, Patton and Logan safe... The others... They seemed to go away for a while. I should have known they’d come back. No one is perfect happy pappy.. not even Patton.  With them coming back to the surface, showing their faces, I’m worried that.... That things are going to get a whole lot worse.  If these guys impersonate us so easily, what’s to stop them shoving us down and not letting us talk to Thomas when he needs us, leading him astray and giving him bad advice he might hurt someone or himself or worse!!

I....  What if we aren’t strong enough to stop them? What if I’m not strong enough to protect Thomas... from them

Its out there…. Those of you who saw the new video know the truth You can all start hating me now….

There’s a sense of dread in his stomach again. He hasn’t eaten today so it could be that but he knows his gut instinct better than any other.  Something bad is about to happen... He can’t shake it, not at all...  And then there it was... Broad and clear

SOON

“Evening guys, gals and none binary pals. As we all know I’m... anxious. To put it lightly, uhm... sorry I just- I could use some advice.

-Virgil” 

They’re all gone... It’s just me left and I’m not sure how long I’ll be able to last

please... if you’re able to see this..

please...send help

Hes been on the stairs all day, alone to himself, and sat contemplating everything that’s happened, trying to figure out how to stop all this and return things to normal. Hes been stressing poor Thomas out so much but he has to figure out something! He has to! Plus Logan is vastly over working him right now, things aren’t great at all! His train of thought is abruptly stopped when he feels a presence before hearing them, eyes slowly raising up to glare at Impurity. 

“Feeling Anxious are we?” “What do you want?” Virgil’s tone is sharp and cold, almost a snarl, hes in no mood to talk to any of the dark sides right now after all the mess they’ve been causing. “Ow. Rude. I came to see how my favorite lil dark side is doing” “Spare me the insults.” Virgil’s hand curled into a fist. Fight or flight? Fight or flight? “Tsh fine be like that. And here I was wanting to be nice”  Virgil grit his teeth and slowly stood, shifting to the bottom of the stairs. “What do you want Impurity?” “I just wanted a chat. Is that so bad?” “…..” “You’ve been causing Thomas a lot of stress today, Anxiety. Don’t you think its time to knock it off? Go back to your little hole in the wall?” “I’m fine thanks” “Yeah sure you are, tense shoulders darker eye shadow, jaw clenched, fists curled. Totally fine” “Just leave me alone” he tried turning away from him and heading upstairs or even to just sink out but as he did Impurity was right in front of him sat on the steps. He jumped and stepped back glaring darker at him. “Funny isn’t it… All this stress… All you’re doing is annoying the others with your overreacting. Like Thomas said. Chill out” “When did he-” Virgil was stopped in his question as Impurity held up a phone displaying Thomas’ tweet about Virgil needing to chill a bit. Virgil’s entire body posture sank along with a feeling of dread. Strike one.

“Bit much ain’t it if Thomas is having to tweet about you to tell you to knock it off? Besides, hes trying to get some work done, or did you neglect Logic’s efforts to stay strong while the rest of you fall apart?” “I was just trying to h-” “Help? Cute. But you couldn’t help yourself out of a wet paper bag! Probably get scared about the dark, freak out and cry. You’d have to get daddy to save you huh?” “Sh..shut up” “Me? Shut up? There you are being rude again. Really you’re like this all the time no wonder the others HATE you” “They don’t hate me” “No? You know how they really feel Anxiety. You wouldn’t be so doubtful about them if there wasn’t nothing to doubt. No smoke without fire right?” “Y..you’re.. You’re wrong!” “Am I? Your anxiety has never been wrong before now has it.” The hood came up over Virgils head as he tried to block Impurity out. Strike two. 

 “Leave me alone!” “Alone? Yeah.. Cos that’s where you belong isn’t it. You ditched us for them and now they couldn’t care less about you. Now you don’t have either of us. Do you really think Deceit is being friendly to you? Getting you ice cream? Telling you truths through lies? The mans a MASTER of DECEIT.. What do you honestly expect? Or did you forget he was about to bite you a while back?” “I….” Impurity was hard to ignore when everything hit so hard at home. He had to get out of here. He quickly sank out of the living room and back to the mind palace, back to his room back to- “Wow…. Rude. Really Anxiety, ditching out in the middle of a conversation? Didn’t Daddy teach you anything about manners? Wheres your sense of morality?” Impurity almost laughed, sprawled out on Virgils’ bed, arms behind his head casually. He got up through to circle in on the former dark side like a prowling predator circling prey. “Not here is he? None of them ever will be” There was a hiss from the corner of the room as Virgil’s little shadow cat tried to defend him. All it took was a snap of the fingers and it dissipated into nothing. Virgil’s heart stopped for a moment. “St..stop it! Get out! GET OUT OF MY ROOM!” His voice hit that low deep growl, echoing all around the room in sync with the crash of thunder somewhere beyond the walls.  “Fine… You want to be alone go ahead. Its what you deserve after all the mess you’ve caused, you think this is truly our fault? If you hadn’t started that tornado a while back none of this would have happened. YOU started this Anxiety, its YOUR fault.” He watched as Virgil dropped to his knees. Strike three. 

Impurity sank out with a smirk on his face as another crack of thunder rang out echoing throughout the entire mind palace.  Mission accomplished.