#violetvents

I um... i might log off for a bit. Both because I am paranoid my mutuals hate me again, and also because I am having um... dark thoughts

I hope i get to try being a girlfriend again one day. I wasnt very good the first time so I want to try again. Plus I liked being someones.

god covid stole my one chance at feeling normal. I fucked up in high school so I had to wait an extra semester to start uni. I have no uni friends. I never got to try dating and uni romance. Because I spent most of it at home.

cnc/rape kink because it's the only way i would deserve to get fucked: against my will and not for me at all. Just a hole.

Maybe if I was prettier and more confident i would be easier to love

let me pretend that you love me, just for a little longer. please.

I wish I was loved or adored or even just told i... even just told i was loved. it doesn't even need to be real.