ā i miss your lips. ā Fade Solas B)))))) haunting ellie in her dreams~~~
heās always just out of reach, a shadow in the corner of her eye that disappears when she turns to see him. fingers outstretched, turning on her heel like maybe this timeĀ heāll be accessible. like maybe this time, her dreams wonāt be cruel. that he wonāt be cruel. but no -- never there. never here. never hers.
and he talks to her even less than he lets her see him. it doesnāt matter that ellie has screamed, has begged, has threatened and cried and run herself hoarse in a place where losing her voice is in her head, and sheās never wished for things to stop more than she does now, where she sits cross legged on the forest floor that has become almost a second home to her. eyes closed -- she doesnāt look anymore. knows it wonāt matter. doesnāt reach for him. tries to pretend his presence isnāt real. isnāt there.
to her credit, sheās become so disillusioned with her new state of longing that his voice, barely a breath on the dreamstate wind, does not startle her as it might have once. it circles her, settles heavily on her shoulders, but she does not let the strike of pain hit her heart. just inhales softly, her head lowering slightly in resignation. she does not feel he deserves a response, but she could never ignore him, even if the words she wants to say wonāt form, even if she canāt muster the anger she desires to give him.
instead, just as soft, just as airy, she lets her sadness carry across the dream that connects them from wherever he is, lets her promise to keep waiting lay on her tongue.Ā ātheyāre yours when youāre ready to have them again.ā