#vic mcqueen

I miss NOS4A2.

When you catch a few NOS4A2 reruns on AMC tonight and it rekindles what flame that grew dim the past couple of months due to real life stress.  When it flares that deeply rooted ship between Charlie and Victoria despite it’s toxicity. The need once again rising at a all time high. Completely consuming my thoughts. You weep that there isn’t enough fanfiction out there that ship the two. That no matter how much you crave the fluff during Charlie’s calmer and better half, you also want the sadistic nature that lurks beneath which manifests subtly as this perfect stereotype for vampiric romance : The possession, the horror and gore that could run rampant. You curse yourself for not playing the more monstrous Charlie more often, like what we get glimpses of in season 2 of the television show, with his mind unhinged. That despite favoring the Charlie in season one before his first demise - the one that seems closer to book in my personal opinion.  You still love and adore his transcending sinister nature that corrupts him during the second season and wish to explore it more often than not. Honestly, there are quite a few things I regret that I had not turned to in some of my threads. I keep saying I want more gore, obscene horror and visceral elements that withstand in the plot’s roots.  But I also desire that gothic romance that is so deliberately under toned it leaves you wantoned within it’s wake. Or at least the small fragments we get wind of in both novel and show. Ah, when not many people ship your OTP .. the struggles you endure. Lmao !

i saw a naked mole rat today and my first thought was elderly charlie manx 🤧