#verbalizing

when lady lamb said ‘it was a fragile thing and i goddamn dropped it’ and ‘this is my loss of love, my loss of limb’ and ‘absence makes my heart grow hollow’ and ‘i still need your love, i still need your teeth around my organs’

You'd think for someone who can write quite eloquently I'd be able to verbalize just the same But I can't I can type these words all day long, twisting and manipulating them into submission But when I speak it's their turn My tongue stumbles over my brain and no one understands But I can't explain Typing and writing mean erasing and adjusting Verbalizing is permanent you only get so many do overs I'm struggling to find my words because my heart and my brain are at an impasse with my tongue But what kind of a reason is that in the real world? I speak and I can see the questions forming in their eyes I speak again and the questions are replaced by confusion and impatience I stutter and frustration is rising I excuse myself I silence myself