#ventttttttt

stressed calling out of work bc of my one boss im a bit terrified of. feel like im in trouble even though i shouldnt be -> end up thinking abt that one uber trip i had bc thought about if im asked about why i didnt just use uber and kind of realizing how weirdbad it was how i was asked about [inappropriate] out of nowhere after being told i was cute and if i had a boyfriend. get all sick feeling abt it -> have a tiny RSD moment after being asked to do smth (masked successfully) but feel like shit towards myself for the RSD occurring in the first place bc it is a normal request + feeling it shouldntve needed to be said and i shouldve just known to do it in the first place -> nap -> wake up -> overhear someone in the house on a phonecall and imediately feel nervous and try to avoid listening to any of it by focusing on music in my head bc it does not feel like i should be overhearing that -> calm down finally. open discord -> unexpected friendly dm from ex that ive been avoiding for a long time -> respond in a cordial/friendly/silly but brief way and then close discord and pretend that didnt happen -> feel like complete and utter shit but also avoid doing anything because i literally cannot exist at all right now or else it will be noticed and bad things will happen, surely, because i am bad