#ventingbullshitpost

like really? we were supposed to hang out all morning and day to celebrate our three months and what not and i was planning on cooking with him. teaching him how to make pupusas and RIGHT WHEN HE'S HEADING OUT his hungover dad stops him and says he can't go out the whole day cause he wants him to stay home to babysit his younger sister cause everyone else wasn't going to be home.

HIS SISTER'S 14.

LIKE REALLY? BABY SIT?

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maybe hate is too strong of a word but i DO strongly dislike him. this isn't the first time he does a dick move like that. ever since he first kicked em out and lectured ME over stupid shit i lost most of my respect for that man.

if you don't want to talk to me because of the way things turned out, it's fine. that's your decision. i'm actually happy with my life with or without you. it does suck that you at times don't want to be a part of it but i mean, that's not going to break me down, like i said, i'm happy with my life. but if you DO want to be part of it, then do it. stay in my life. you're a great person and a great friend, just know that i'm not going to change things FOR you. so just make up your mind. either you stay or you don't. stop your messing around cause it's just getting annoying and coming off as an asshole.

if you want to be in my past. stay in my past. stop spontaneously coming back and then disappearing on me for weeks again and then blaming it on me.

there's kind off too much going on anyways for me to be wasting my time thinking about you. and how stupid and worthless you've made me feel without knowing it. i think technically this is the second time. first time was saturday.well fine. i know revenge is bad but i mean either way i don't feel like talking to you today so i'm going to go M.I.A. the same way you did. worry you the same way you worried me. and then, here goes the best part, that YOU did. i'll act as if nothing just happened. i don't know if you do that because you don't like to dwell on the past but acting like you just don't give a fuck is worst. dick. ahaa.

hmmm. busy day today either way. so that'll make me going M.I.A. from you easier.

i need to go shower and start getting ready for dance class which i have at 1:30.

get out at 2:45 all gross and sweaty. go change in a bathroom in college. head to the computer LAB to try and do my homework for my second class.

jog for a bit in the track & have a small picnic of fruits (if i even have time)

go to my second class at 5:45PM.

get out at 6:45PM, head back home and get here at around 7:20PM

bake a brownie for Rudy, since it's his birthday and i promised him one, and hope i finish it and have it all set by 8.

have Rudy pick up the brownie. take a shower.

watch movies online or go on netflix until it's 10 and time for me to get my baby brother ready to go to sleep.

go back to watching movies and tumblr until i fall asleep. i'm glad i have dance class. that always gets me tired.

and there you have it. that's my plan for going MIA for the day.

but i'm mad cause your assface never fucking called me or anything.

WHO.

DOES.

THAT.

just says "hey ima message you later cause my dad is being stupid and kicked me out again so ima go to my friends house" and leave it at that. no explanation. no telling me anything. and the worst part. never contacting me afterwards. fuck. you.

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i'll just go eat. shower. put on cozy pjs. get disconnected from everyone and go on netflix and continue watching more arrested development and south park until i eventually go to sleep.

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including how sore i will be for the next two days or so since i don't usually ride bikes. i woke up at like 5:40ish (unintentionally) and couldn't go back to sleep. got ready and rode my bike to selinas and then we all headed out towards cerrritos to tony's house and then to yours and fuck that was when you did your dick move number one. like really? i just fucking rode a bike all the way to your damn house which took me like over an hour and i've never done something like that for someone and THAT WAS YOUR THANK YOU? whatevah. but fuck honestly you pissed me off like three times and gave me infinite amounts of headaches and did one too many dick moves that were honestly not even funny.

maybe i'm just exaggerating but ehh. i guess. oh but don't worry even tho i pushed you away and was cold and mean i'll get over it and once again talk to you like NOTHING HAPPENED.

i think this relationship of ours is moving on way too fucking fast. i've heard honeymoon stages in a relationship last like three months or so. fuck we barely have one month together and that stage keeps on randomly going away and coming back.