#various vanja

"DNI if you're a problematic proshipper!"

GIRL, I have NorIce listed as one of my favourite ships in my "About me" section, 👏 clear 👏 as 👏 day. If you want to avoid the things you hate and avoid certain people, you have to put the effort into making sure! You can't make demands and then expect everyone else to do your work for you!

Absolutely wild.

When I first returned, everything felt wonderful. New people! Hello! Wanna be friends? Yay! New people! Nice people!

Then obviously I had to navigate away from blogs that post That Thing That Triggers Me, and I think I've managed to get that under control, but it left me a little 🙂.

And then I learned about some drama happening. I tried to join a community but I was immediately approached by the mods who told me to not post TurkIce in that server/community. Okay, good to know. I left that server for unrelated reasons. Then I discovered that I'd been blocked by another artist, and it's like, sure, okay, I've never spoken to you, but you block whoever you want, it's your blog and experience.

Then I find out some drama behind the scenes and I learn the names of users here who harass people for their ships and writing and art, and it's all so awful and I hate it, I hate it so much, I want it to stop but all I can do is block people. And that should be enough, but it isn't. One of those harassers is a really good artist and I keep seeing their art shared and I want to tell people to not share the art of someone who harasses people, but I also really don't want to be that person. I don't want to be that person. And it's eating me up inside.

I don't know how long I'm going to be able to handle all this before I have a breakdown. I hope I'm able to find more joy than misery in the fandom. I really want to exchange fun things with other people, but sometimes I think I'm better off doing my own thing without other people. I don't want to do my own thing without other people.