#vampirecrew

I don’t want it

I don’t want the ringing in my ears

Nor the wringing of my heart

I can’t take it. I can’t take fake smiles

To make others more comfortable

The water leaking from my eyes

Stay dry while I’m in public

I don’t want it

I don’t want what this life is,

I don’t want the expectations,

I don’t want to keep letting people

Down because I’m not getting better

Im tired

I’ve been living with a broken mind

Since I was 14 years old. Im 25 now

11 years without a reason for all of this.

Without a clear goal. I’ve tried everything

Self medicating, lines on my skin, 140 on the

Freeway to outrun the memories.

Everything is temporary

I’ve been abandoned, betrayed, heartbroken and

Homesick for a home that doesn’t exist.

I don’t want it