Pi Gasu | Damned If We Do, Dead If We Don't
Pairing - jungkook x reader
Genre - smut, angst, E2L, vampire!jungkook
Word Count - 6.5k
Donating blood for Jungkook is physically draining you, in more ways than one. Warnings: swearing, mentions of blood, needles and masturbation, jk & oc argue, light violence
SERIES MASTERLIST
Itâs Tuesday, youâre mindlessly tapping a blunt pencil against the desk between your fingers, feeling uninspired and drained. In more ways than one. Donating blood for Jungkook has changed from a fortnightly occurrence to a minimum of twice a week. Truthfully you donât know how much longer you can keep this lifestyle up, while your bank account has never looked healthier your body feels the complete opposite.
Youâre sick. Feeling constantly light-headed and drowsy, similar to last year when you had a nasty chest infection, even getting out of bed is a daily struggle. But with every donation comes a tonne of money, money youâve been sending straight to your mother to cover the cost of Eddieâs medical bills. Jungkook doesnât know truly how desperate you are for the money, heâs never asked and it would be fair to assume he doesnât care â as long as youâre donating.
Your relationship with the vampire in question is equally as unstable as your blood pressure. He invites you over, you get yourself off in front of him while he's chained to the bed he has to replace every time you go there â giving that he breaks at least two of the bed posts each time you go, thrashing around like a handsome shark attempting to be freed. Once youâre finished you head up to his kitchen, donate and leave. The two of you donât speak between your sinful, morally grey rendezvous, only amplifying your confusion toward the situation. Amplifying your confusion toward him.
College work can wait, you decide you need a nap before youâre capable of conjuring any coherent thoughts. Itâs been a while since you felt this ill, your entire body is heavy and weak, simultaneously burning hot and shivering. Maybe itâs the flu? Youâre Googling your symptoms when the weight of sleep drags you into unconsciousness, succumbing to slumber quicker than you thought humanly possible.
It's the knocking sound on your front door that wakes you a few hours later, actually, when your eyes flutter open with a lot of effort you register itâs dark outside. Youâve been out cold for at least six hours. Tired footsteps drag on the floorboards as you make your way to the door, using the peephole to ensure youâre not going to be drained of blood as soon as you unlock it. Thank god, itâs just Yoongi.
He's standing on the other side of the door with arms folded over his chest, brows raised and an unimpressed-looking expression. You sigh, unhooking the chain before you greet your next door neighbour. Youâre not exactly dressed for company right now, having fallen asleep in nothing beyond an old, oversized Twilight t-shirt you wear to mostly dye your hair. Oh the irony.
âHeyâŠâ You croak, throat feeling full of glass shards and head banging louder than thunder itself when you open the door.
Yoongiâs features shift to concern instantly, he uncrosses his arms and softens his profile into something almost caring when he speaks. âAre you okayâŠ? You look⊠Are you sick?â
âMhm, think itâs the flu.â You admit with a cough to backup your claim, covering your mouth, âDonât get too close to me, whatâs up?â
âI-, I uh-, I came for the lasagne dish backâŠâ Yoongi runs a slender finger through his long brunette hair, pushing it away from his gentle features. âDo you have any medicine? You look really sickâŠâ
At this you offer him a reassuring smile, âIâll be fine. Hang on Iâll go get the dish for you, probably best you donât come insideâŠâ You trail off to nothing while searching your cupboard for the dish in question, but much to your surprise Yoongi follows you inside, closing the door behind him all while he ignores your pleas. âNo seriously!â You turn to face him with wide eyes, well, as wide as your eyes can physically get with the weight of the flu resting on your lids, âI donât want you to get sick, go wait outside!â
âY/N itâs just the flu, Iâll be okay.â Yoongi chuckles, veiny hands finding your kettle on the countertop before flicking it to boil, âGo sit down, Iâll make you some tea.â
âYoongiââ
âSit. Down.â He emphasises his words with a low, assertive tone, pointing to the sofa with raised brows. âAre you always this stubborn?â A small smile briefly tugs the corners of his pink lips, until the kettle flicks back off signalling the waterâs boiled and he heads over to your small, makeshift hot drinks station.
You smile back, âAre you?â
Yoongi doesnât look at you, too focussed on searching for tea, âIâm not gonna ask you again, sit down. You look terrible.â He murmurs, picking out your favourite mug straight away.
âYou didnât ask me to begin with.â You mumble in defeat, finally doing as he says and sitting on the sofa in front of the television. A large, cotton-candy pink blanket is haphazardly thrown onto your frame and the weight of it almost knocks you clean out. When you glare at your unexpected guest heâs grinning ear-to-ear, peeling his gaze away from you.
âShit, is this rose thorn?â Yoongi gestures to your momâs homemade tea bags, immediately rinsing his hands below the cold tap after touching it. Though he doesnât look to be in any discomfort.
âI donât know what she puts in there⊠My mom makes her own tea, she sent me some not long ago.â You hum, mindlessly flicking through the Netflix selection, internal organs knotting with shame when you scroll through the âRecommended For Youâ section:
The Vampire Diaries, The Twilight Collection, The Lost Boys, and one that catches you off-guard so much so that laughter bubbles in your throat, Vampires Suck.
Correct Netflix, vampires do suck. It's refreshing to be at home in your modest apartment with blush pink and mustard furnishings for a change. It's bright, light and homely. The complete opposite to Euphoria's dark seductive overall aesthetic. But even Euphoria is tame in comparison to the hidden sex dungeon in Jungkook's otherwise seemingly normal home. You frown, wondering if the vampire has even noticed you haven't reached out in a couple days. Probably not.
âSounds like momâs very paranoid.â Yoongi mutters, choosing to give you a green tea instead. As well as a bottle of water. He places both onto the white coffee table in front of you and before you have time to question him he speaks again, âWhen did you last eat?â
You sigh, âSeriously Yoongi Iâm fine, thank you butââ
âY/N.â He cuts you off, âDo you have any idea what I do for a living?â
âNoâŠâ You admit sheepishly, unable to hold his strong, judgemental eye-contact that's unwavering despite choppy brunette locks tickling his almond-shaped eyes. âI donât know anything about you, actually.â
Yoongi nods in response, slowly, âExactly. Trust me, youâre sick. I bet youâre burning up right now-â You donât have a second to think before the back of his large hand is on your clammy forehead, heâs frowning when he pulls away, âShit, youâre really sick. Iâll pick up some medicine for you tomorrow.â
âWhat do you do for a living?â Curiosity takes over, heart racing in your chest when Yoongiâs adjusting the blanket over your body, tucking every part of you beneath it apart from your bare ankles and feet.
âKeep your feet out, itâll help regulate your temperature.â Heâs completely focussed on making sure youâre comfortable, itâs when his hands graze the swell of your ass over the blanket that you clear your throat uncomfortably and he keeps talking, you assume it's his way of overcoming the sudden awkwardness, âIâm a medical journalist, used to be a paramedic before that.â
âOh really? Iâm a nursing student.â You smile, a genuine smile despite the ache in your body and pounding in your brain⊠Itâs nice to have something in common. âHow come you switched from being a paramedic to a medical journalist if you donât mind me asking?â
At this Yoongi shrugs, eyes his expression almost bored-looking, âI helped a lot of people but it was never satisfying enough for me⊠Now I expose the people who donât help others. Medical malpractice is something Iâm passionate about, was an easy decision to make.â
âHmmmâŠâ You nod along with his words, seemingly impressed that he followed his passions and is still helping people by exposing the wrong-doings of others, âThatâs really interesting.â
âSo,â Yoongi stands in front of the television holding his hips, winning him your complete focus. Heâs wearing acid-wash blue jeans, a white t shirt and a grey oversized cardigan today and once again, you canât help but notice how he doesnât seem out of place standing in your apartment. âDo you have any soup?â
The next four days are filled with Yoongi coming over and taking care of you, bringing you comfort food and medicine or even just his company. You learn that heâs a very sweet guy, though his external walls are tough and hard to penetrate â on the inside heâs much gentler than youâd expect, much more. Itâs day five of riding out the confirmed flu when once again Yoongi is standing in your kitchen area, having just tucked you up on the sofa.
The pounding in your head has dulled, the aching of your joints and muscles has lessened. You still donât feel 100% but youâre a hell of a lot better than you were, and itâs all because of Yoongi. Itâs strange, one minute you didnât know much about him and the next it was as though youâd known him forever. Heâs scanning the contents of your cupboard with pinched brows, but youâre way more focussed on how his slender fingers trace patterns on the cupboard door while he searches for what he wants.
âShit, no green tea left.â He sighs exasperatedly, âI think Iâve got some at my placeâŠâ
Youâre smiling, attempting to show indifference when Yoongi closes the cabinet door and zones in on your face. You cough, looking away, âWhatâs wrong with my momâs homemade stuff? It tastes nice, you should try it.â
âNo can do,â Yoongi chuckles, slipping his shoes back on to head out into the hall and back to his apartment, âMy roommate is allergic to rose thorn.â
You frown, prodding the inside of your cheek with your tongue to showcase your confusion, âBut your roommate wonât be the one drinking itâŠ?â
âNot directly, no.â Yoongi sighs, brushing fingers through his long brunette hair. Today heâs wearing an all-black outfit consisting of a very tight fitted t shirt and loose baggy jeans, all tied together with a leather jacket thatâs currently hung up on your coat stand. âBut you can never be too careful where allergies are concerned. Iâll be right back.â
After ninety minutes of waiting for Yoongi to come back to your place the drowsiness of the medication is in full swing and you drift off to sleep on the sofa. Itâs an unknown amount of time later when you feel your limp body being shifted around, until your head is resting on something warm with a beating heart and thereâs an arm loosely draped over your waist. The familiar woody scent of Yoongiâs cologne is the last thing you pick up on before you fall back to sleep, completely oblivious to your surroundings save for the comforting hold of your next door neighbour.
-
It's been a week since Jungkook last heard from you, if he had a heart it would be yearning for you to reach out to him right now. This is the longest the two of you have gone with zero contact since the night you met, even his employees Jimin and Namjoon havenât seen you around your college campus or your neighbourhood. Which is unusual to say the least considering theyâve memorised your scent and know where you live. Itâs like youâve disappeared.
The only thing that has stopped Jungkook from directly reaching out to you himself is his pride, that and the fact Jimin and Taehyung have grown suspicious of his recent behaviour. Itâs not that heâs in love with you or anything, vampires arenât capable of such humane complexities. But heâs addicted to you, to the taste of you, to the sight of you, the scent of you. Everything about you lingers in his soulless being like an ache, he misses you. He misses your blood.
Heâs due to run out of your donations any day now, giving that heâs being rationing himself to one test-tube per day of the euphoric rush your blood provides. He has three tubes left, and the fact he hasnât heard a single peep from you in a week makes him feel⊠Well thatâs just it, you make him feel.
Sitting alone in a private dance room at Euphoria he dials your number, wanting to schedule another⊠meeting with you as soon as possible. Itâs when a voice he didnât expect to hear answers, whispered and smug, that Jungkook stops breathing.
âHello?â Itâs a guy speaking, sounding every bit arrogant which ignites a fire of fury inside the vampire.
âWhereâs Y/N.â Jungkook bites, immediately sitting up right on the leather sofa, almost crushing his cell phone in his strong grip. âWho the fuck is this?â
âSheâs sleeping.â
Jungkookâs fangs double in length when his question is ignored, angering him further, âWho the fuck are you and why do you have Y/Nâs phone?â He spits venomously, nostrils flared and eyes wide, rounded yet still fierce. His voice is bleeding with unsaid threats, anyone in their right mind would be terrified of him in this moment.
âI didnât steal her phone if thatâs what youâre implyingâŠâ The voice laughs sadistically, still remaining quiet and albeit unphased by Jungkookâs tone, âSheâs here, sheâs asleep on me right nowââ
âWho the fuck are you?!â Jungkook growls, rushing to his feet, the leather sofa he was sitting on moments before flying back and crashing against the ground, smashing to pieces. His chest is heaving up and down, breathing ragged and mind clouded by the idea of you cosying up next to someone. âAre you in her apartment?! Iâll see you there in fiveââ
âGood luck with that,â The man sighs, bored-sounding as though this is the most mundane conversation heâs ever had, âPlace is drowning in rose thorns.â
Jungkookâs features drop until no emotion remains, âA hunter.â
âNot exactly,â The man audibly shifts, a low delicate hum can be heard in the background and Jungkookâs chest tightens, he knows thatâs your voice, âBut you donât belong in Y/Nâs world. Stay away from her.â
âStay away from her?! You think Iââ
The call ends, pissing Jungkook off to the point where heâs launching his cell at a wall-length mirror that stands opposite him, smashing it to pieces. He catches sight of his reflection, his profile is tense and seething, equal parts disgusted and angry. His favourite leopard print shirt barely covers his chest, the top four buttons undone at least exposing his taught dewy skin. Tied with black slacks and bare feet, the club hasnât opened yet and he knows he has to calm down and screw on his business head before customers arrive. But thatâs going to be somewhat impossible now.
Who the fuck is in your apartment?! That guy is probably poisoning you with rose thorn. Jungkookâs entire body stiffens, fuck this, why does he care so much?! If you want to fuck around with menâ, no. He canât even bring himself to think about you being intimate with anyone else. Not that heâs fucked you, heâs never even kissed you because every time he entertains the mere thought of it the smell of your blood floods his senses and all he can think about is killing you.
Kissing a human, a few months ago he wouldâve felt physically ill at the thought. But now? Kissing you is something Jungkook wishes he had the strength execute properly.
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As soon as the flu passes you find yourself standing outside the familiar door adorned with a golden â97â on the front. You havenât been to Jungkookâs place in almost two weeks now, you havenât communicated with him at all but this conversation is something that has to be done face to face. You want out. Out of the donations, away from the vampires.
Itâs nothing personal, thereâs no bad blood between you and Jungkook but frankly you canât keep doing this. For whatever reason your blood is special, you understand that, well at the very least youâve accepted it. And Jungkook wants to know why, rightfully so â itâs just the constant donating is taking a toll on your body, you still donât feel completely recovered from the flu and there are new aches and pains in your limbs every day. Youâve been to the doctor, mostly because Yoongi forced you to go to the doctor, and they confirmed your bloodwork is all over the place.
You have low iron, borderline no B12, your haemoglobin levels are dangerously under what medical professionals deem to be normal. Truthfully youâre exhausted, the mere thought of gifting any more blood to Jungkook makes your knees buckle under your weight. You feel weak, you feel tired. Which is precisely why youâre standing at Jungkookâs front door, wearing a rich burgundy off-the-shoulder sweater and black skinny jeans, tied together with a pair of black military style boots.
The dark front door swings open before youâve even had the chance to knock, revealing Jungkookâs wide doe-like eyes shocked and confused to see you here. You swallow, having forgotten how⊠ethereal he is.
Today heâs wearing a fancy white shirt with plentiful ruffles gathering at the front of his chest, the first to buttons undone and revealing his tattooed dewy skin. The trousers he wears are similar to yours, black and tight fitting, except his are made completely of leather and shine beneath the November moonlight. Itâs not a moment later when Jungkookâs features drop into a tight scowl, thick dark brows furrowed and nostrils flared.
âWhat are you doing here?â His voice is threatening, a little dangerous and lacking any trace of concern.
Awkwardly shifting your weight between your legs you sigh, looking him dead in his faintly stained crimson red eyes, âCan I come in?â
Rather than verbally responding he steps to one side, granting you access to his home. Itâs still surprising to you how not gothic and creepy this place is, instead itâs homely and warm. At least this level of the house is, what lies in his basement is far from homelyâŠ
You slip onto a barstool in the kitchen, noting how Jungkook is keeping a large distance between your bodies. Right. Heâs not tied up this time, heâs probably resisting the urge to kill you right now.
âItâs not because of that,â Jungkook reads your mind with a whispered scoff, âYou stink of him, thatâs all.â He folds his strong arms over his chest and you have to try not to stare at the bulging muscles flexing and moving beneath the very thin fabric of his shirt. The material is so sheer in fact, that you can see the tattoos that lie beneath.
âHim?â You frown, heart pounding in your chest as the realisation dawns on you â he means Yoongi. âOh⊠Yeah, my neighbour has been looking after me⊠Iâve been sick. Thatâs actually why I came overâŠâ You swallow again, mouth suddenly feeling very dry when Jungkook makes his way over to you in a few long strides, until heâs at the opposite side of the kitchen island.
His tattooed hands rest on the marble surface either side of his body, arms straight and stare stuck on you. âYou shouldâve told me you were sick, I couldâve helped you.â Thereâs zero emotion in his tone, no clues as to what heâs feeling etched onto his face, nothing.
âHelped meâŠ?â Your brows are pinched together again, flaunting your confusion, eyes wandering to the swell of the vampireâs shoulder muscles, round and inviting. In an ironic way they almost look biteable, like large succulent pieces of fruit joining his arms to his equally as enticing body. His taught, big, beefyâ
One of Jungkookâs eyebrows raise, the pierced one, his stare is intense and doesnât falter from your for even a second. âCan you stop that?â
âStop what?â You blink at him, a little anxious.
âStop staring at me like that while youâre thinking such obscenities.â He says bluntly, the usual glimmer of flirtation nowhere to be seen.
Heat rushes to your cheeks and you look away quickly, clearing your throat, âSorry.â
âIf you were sick you shouldâve called, youâre a smart girl. Iâm sure you know all about what a drop of my blood can do.â Jungkook cracks his neck, eyes fluttered shut as though heâs actively trying not to look at you. âIâve never let a human feed from me, but if you really were sick I wouldâve made an exception.â
âWhat do you mean if I âreally were sickâ?â You scoff, pursing your lips, âDo you think Iâm lying about being ill? Why on earth would I do that Jungkook?â You shake your head in disbelief, fucking vampires and their stupid sexy brooding faces and thoughts.
Of course he doesnât believe you, probably thinks you spent the week avoiding him to hook up with Yoongi since you âstink of himâ. Sighing, you mirror his movements, planting your hands down onto the countertop, cocking your head to eye him curiously.
âThatâs exactly what I think, actually.â Jungkook looks scary, the tinge of red to his eyes has taken over his whole irises, the once faint stain of colour is now opaque and unmistakably deep ruby. Burning with something indescribable, boring into your soul from across the countertop. âLook me in the eye and tell me he didnât touch you, tell me his scent isnât all over you for the reason I think it is.â
Youâre laughing, the sound empty and absent, âStay out of my head! Are you asking if he touched me, or if he fucked me?â You fold your arms over your chest, subconsciously pushing the swell of your breasts up without trying, âBecause theyâre two very different questions.â
The vampireâs stare darkens, flickering to your chest for a moment so brief it could pass as an accident, âAnd yet the answer is the same for both, isn't it?â
âYouâre right.â You hum, âHe didnât touch me, or fuck me. Are you happy now? Is that what you wanted to hear?â
Silence.
âLets say for arguments sake he did fuck me⊠What could you do about it?â You scoff, frowning at him when you stand, âYou donât own me Jungkook, stop acting like you do. If I want to fuck my next door neighbour who the hell are you to stop me?! Youâve never even touched me yourselfââ
âHow fucking dare you,â Jungkookâs standing next to you in the blink of an eye, sharp fangs and familiar face bruising dominating his chiselled features. Heâs looking down at you as though youâre everything wrong with the world, as though he despises you to your very core and his voice is equally as disgusted. âShow up at my home, drowning in another manâs cologne and try to pick a fight with me. Are you frustrated because I havenât touched you myself, is that it?â He spits, lowering his head until youâre both nose-to-nose, âYou want me to touch you, donât you? Youâre either very brave, or very foolish.â
Jungkookâs breath is hot on your face but you donât fold, looking up at the familiar monster heâs become with unwavering, strong eye contact, despite the hammering of your heart inside your chest, âAre you jealous that I was with another man?â
âDonât flatter yourself. Of course Iâm not jealous. I donât own you, remember.â He scoffs, wetting his lips. The way his chest is heaving with each and every angry breath he takes is all the confirmation you need to know heâs lying, âThe supplies are in the basement, make your donation and get the fuck out of my house.â
At this you try to push him away, the apple of his shoulder is rock hard beneath your palm when you attempt to move his body away for yours. But of course, as to be expected, he stays exactly where he is. A frustrated sound escapes you, similar to a whine or maybe even a defeated whimper. Whatever description it falls under, it has Jungkook smirking when you step away from him.
âNot so brave now, are we?â He chuckles, eyes raking the spans of your bare shoulders when he swallows.
You stand your ground, âThe reason I came here is to call off our⊠arrangement, whatever you want to call this. Itâs making me sick, my blood work is messed up and frankly I can think of better ways to spend my eveningsââ
âStop seeing him then, problem solved.â Jungkook barks, edging closer, voice louder, âHeâs the one who convinced you to stop this arrangement, isnât he?â
Your mouth falls open in equal parts shock and rightfully placed, albeit a little delayed fear, âN-no⊠Yoongi doesnât even know about what weâre doing⊠I havenât told anyone.â You silently plead with him, nervous of what heâll do to you if he thinks youâre lying, âI need to stop doing this for my healthâŠâ
âI can fix that. I can make you healthy again.â Heâs calm now, the fury behind his eyes softening with each passing moment.
âI donât want to feed from you, Jungkook.â
âThink of it as medicine.â
âExcept itâs not medicine.â You sigh, growing agitated.
âA drop of my blood will rid you of any human illnessââ
âItâll also turn me into a monster!â You blurt, immediately regretting that decision when every hair on your body stands to attention as youâre being hurried downstairs into his basement, faster than you can humanly process.
The familiar scent of warm amber and ginger hits you like a train and in the next breath your back is firmly pressed against a brick wall adorned with leather sex accessories. Paddles, floggers, whips, ball-gags, collars, everything a person can think of is pressing against your back. Tears stab at your vision, clouding it entirely when you catch sight of Jungkookâs strong arms caging your body in either side of your face, keeping you in place.
âYouâd only turn if you died with my blood in your systemâŠâ The calmness, the consideration and purity of Jungkookâs voice surprises you. He doesnât sound mad, he doesnât appear to be anything related to angry. Instead his tone is sincere and offers solace. âAnd youâre an even bigger fool than I thought if you havenât figured this out by nowâŠâ He whispers, lips tracing up your jaw until his fangs are pressed against the shell of your ear, âBut I would never let that happen.â
âIâm s-sorryâŠâ You whisper back, dizzy from his words, âI didnât mean to call you a monsterâŠâ Your breath is shaky, eyes fluttering shut in an attempt to calm yourself down. He's going to fucking kill you down here.
âThatâs exactly what I am Y/N.â Jungkookâs head is still dipped, lips grazing your ear as the words roll off his tongue, sending a hot shiver down your spine that you canât even describe. âBut donât do this, donât stop making donations.â
He pulls his face back on instinct when your eyes open, leaving you staring at each other with open mouths. Your heartrate picks up, until the sound of your pulse is deafening your ears. Your voice is quiet, cautious and calculated when it tumbles from your lips, ââŠJungkook, my health comes first. I can make one final donation but after that youâre gonna have to find someone else to testââ
âExcept there is nobody else. If youâre sick because of me, let me fix it.â Inked fingertips find their way to your bare shoulder, you tense beneath his touch and you register him wetting his pierced lips, his face is less than arms-length away and itâs enough to make you nervous. Heâs not chained up this time, thereâs nothing stopping him from killing you in an instant. âPlease.â
âWhyâŠ?â You exhale.
âIf I wanted you dead you would be already, donât you trust me?â His voice is hoarse.
Your breath catches in your throat but you find yourself nodding, âFine⊠But-, Iâm⊠Weâre not going to be like bound forever if I do this, right? If I-, if I drink your...â
At this Jungkookâs gaze deepens with hope, flashing with something a little sinister, âThatâs not how it works. Youâll be restored to full health and your body temperature will burn it off in a couple days. You only need a drop.â
âThatâs it?â You snort, undeniably confused, the media has always made the exchange of vampire blood out to be something akin to injecting heroin. âThatâs all that happens? I donât get addicted or anything?â
âThatâs all that happensâŠâ Jungkook smirks, his fangs extending two inches longer than his other teeth, one hand rolling the sleeve up on his other arm in preparation. âYou have my word.â
You should be frightened, uncomfortable and scared shitless when his fangs pierce the tattooed skin of his wrist, until a tiny amount of blood gathers round his lips and drips from the open-wound. You should be running for the hills, you should be screaming, crying, throwing up or having an anxiety attack from what youâve just witnessed.
But the only emotions coursing through your veins are⊠Curiosity. Bewilderment. Excitement. Is this a good idea? Definitely not. Do you trust Jungkook? You shouldnât. Are you really going to do this?
You are.
Jungkookâs pierced plump lips are stained red, the skin surrounding his mouth tinted pink, youâve never seen his lips look so inviting before. Almost swollen and begging to be kissed. Your gaze flickers back to his eyes, theyâre crimson in colour and glowing beneath the dim lighting in the basement. Heâs⊠beautiful.
âStay still.â His voice is barely audible when he takes two small steps closer to you, his bleeding wrist is forgotten about when he edges even closer, hands finding purchase on the wall youâre pressed against. His scent is intoxicating, heâs staring at you with a gaze full of equal parts desire and uncertainty. âDonât move Y/NâŠâ
âJungkookâŠâ You whisper, subconsciously wetting your own lips in preparation for what you think is about to happen.
âPleaseâŠâ He exhales, swallowing thickly, âStay⊠Exactly how you are.â His eyes close, dark eyelashes dusting the tops of his cheekbones. When his mouth opens again you register that while his fangs are still sharp and unmistakably inhuman, theyâre shorter and less-threatening. His chin starts to tilt towards yours, lips still parted, shallow breaths warming your face.
Slowly his eyes are open again, barely, but his hooded stare is intense enough to make you weak at the knees and win your heart to explode in your chest, âThe unfathomable desire to have you⊠makes me feel human again.â
âJungkook, please-,â Itâs a slender tattooed finger pressing gently to your lips that cuts you off, you know Jungkook is trying his best to keep calm, his features are tight and crumpled with something indescribable. His digit leaves your lips and travels to your chin, angling your face up to meet his.
âDonât move.â He whispers.
âOkayâŠâ
He hushes you, lightly shaking his head, âDonât speak.â
Itâs the sound of your own gasp that fills the silence when Jungkookâs blood-stained lips are a hair away from yours, the coolness of his metal lip ring pressed against your mouth further confirmation this is the closest heâs ever been. You peer up at him through long eyelashes, breath hitching, zoning in on the two tiny face tattoos that sit beneath his eyes.
Divine. Sinner.
âPlease⊠Stay exactly as you are.â He reiterates seriously, with more determination.
And then he kisses you, showing you exactly how kisses are meant to be.
Itâs the way his lips are softly pressed to yours, the metallic yet sweet hint of his blood lingering on them. Itâs how his inked fingers quickly and roughly grip your hips, the hold strong enough to shatter your bones. Itâs the way heâs pressing you harder and harder against the wall, the way youâre already desperate for more but more of what youâre unsure. Itâs the way his fangs graze your lips when his tongue slides into your mouth, accompanied by a drawn-out hushed moan.
Your head is spinning, arms snaking over Jungkookâs broad shoulders just to keep yourself standing. Your legs are wobbly, your heart thumping, body burning with an indescribable heat that youâve never experienced before. Youâre lost to his kiss, simultaneously damned and saved. Itâs as though two worlds are colliding, maybe itâs heaven and hell. Maybe itâs vampires and humans. Or maybe, itâs nothing more and nothing less than you and Jungkook.
You do more than simply let him kiss you, you kiss him back. Fervently, intently, as though your entire existence depends on it. Itâs Jungkook knocking your legs apart with his thick thigh that wins you to gasp, smiling against his lips triumphantly.
âI canât-,â He exhales with furrowed brows, the words slipping from his lips and straight onto yours with another kiss, a hungrier kiss. âI canât stop, how is this possible?â He murmurs.
âI donât want you to stop.â You emphasise your words with a gentle tug of his hair and something inside Jungkook snaps â He pulls himself to the other side of the basement with a heaving chest, kiss-swollen blood stained lips and wide eyes. Leaving you standing alone, disoriented and yearning.
âYou need to leave.â Jungkook says curtly, looking everywhere in the room except you, completely in disbelief of what just happened. âY/N you need to leave now, I donât want to hurt you.â The way you know he means that sends a pang of something unfamiliar straight to your chest.
âYou wonât.â
âI want to.â He admits, wetting his lips. âI⊠I want to hurt you.â
"What about the donation...?" You ask sheepishly, feeling confused and embarrassed all at once.
Jungkook swallows, he's breathing through his mouth heavily as though he's attempting to calm himself. "You're the one who said you were done donating. Lets part ways here, while we still can." The venom dripping from his tone makes you scoff, makes you angry.
You shake your head, determined legs taking you over to where heâs stood before any rational thoughts can stop you, âNo. You donât get to kiss me like that and pretend it neverââ
Within the blink of an eye he crushes his lips to yours again, the familiar taste of his blood gifting your body a surge of energy. This kiss is different, if the last one were akin to two worlds colliding this one can only be described as two lost, broken hearts exploding and becoming whole. Itâs messy, itâs desperate and loud. Both of you moaning and gasping for air while your tongues explore the otherâs.
It's not until your back slams into the nearest wall, every accessory hung up hurling to the floor as dust clouds rush from the exposed bricks that you register heâs holding you. Your legs wrap round his waist, hands already deep in his raven hair, his hands are squeezing the fat of your ass cheeks with so much force you feel bruised.
âJungkook⊠I want you.â You pant, reattaching your lips to his with more urgency.
He's resting his forehead to yours, peeling away from your lips for just a moment when his dark hooded eyes flutter open, his stare intense and unwavering, completely zoned in on you.
âIf I had a soul it would already be yours.â
Suddenly heâs kissing you with everything he has, with everything he is. All his defences shattering only to be replaced by the lust-fuelled hunger surging both your bodies. With your back firm against the wall thatâs barely standing, bricks tumbling to the ground from how hard youâre pushed against it, your legs snaking his middle keep you in place. Itâs when Jungkook laces his fingers with yours, pinning them above your head that your eyes meet his again.
The satisfaction darkening his chiselled features is unmistakable. As is the relief, the need, the want, lust, desire, desperation and even the hint fear. Itâs as though youâre looking straight into an emotional mirror, everything youâre feeling heâs feeling too. After one final kiss, a kiss so passionate not even Shakespeare himself could describe it, Jungkookâs sharp fangs are pressed to your neck and you gasp.
âYou⊠You need to leave, now.â He rasps, finding the strength to pull away from you and aid your feet to the ground. âLeave.â
This time you donât need telling twice, bruising and wine-coloured veins darken Jungkookâs eyes and youâre painfully reminded of what he is. And what couldâve just happened.
âS-sorry. Iâm sorry.â You scramble up the stairs, hurling yourself out of his home as fast as you can, delirious and uncertain of what the future holds. The only thing on your mind being the sincerity behind Jungkookâs hooded gaze when those heart shattering words left his pierced, welcoming lips.
âIf I had a soul it would already be yours.â
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