Dusk - p3 - Evenfall
Vampire AU pairing - OT7 x reader , BTS x reader word count - 6.6k+ summary -Â Wednesday passes by in a blur of awkward encounters and bookstore visits. One thing you can be sure of-- nothing is as it seems in Forks, WA. Especially where the Kims are involved. The upcoming Friday party looms over your head like a raincloud. warnings - cussing , dissociation / mild panic attack Dusk Masterlist
The weather is shit on Wednesday, so you offer to drive the girls again because your car is most suited for the onslaught of water.Â
Victoria sits in the passenger seat, scrolling on her phone absentmindedly. Naomi sits behind you, eyes on her notes and brows scrunched as Rachel drones on and on about the âdude in artâ whoâd taken Victoriaâs place as her partner.Â
âFor the millionth time, his nameâs Jason,â Victoria sighs, clicking her phone screen off and rolling her eyes.Â
âDoesnât matter,â Rachel hums, âat least Jason had the stones to be my partner.âÂ
âYou werenât taking the assignment seriously at all, Rachel.âÂ
âProfessor Modez told us to let our hands work faster than our brains.âÂ
Victoria snaps her mouth shut, and you work hard not to laugh at the possible comebacks she had in her arsenal.
âSo,â you start, âJason⊠are you like, into him?âÂ
Rachel scoffs loudly, shaking her head rapidly, âGod no. I just appreciated that he was willing to partner up.âÂ
Victoria shoots you a look of exhaustion before facing out the passenger window, her expression changing from annoyance to bewilderment. âJesus, how rich are they?âÂ
You crane your neck to see who, or what, sheâs looking at as you pull into the campus parking lot.Â
âSheesh, that must be a new one,â Rachel whispers. âA Royce? Really?âÂ
Itâs a nice car. Expensive. You can tell just from your quick glance-over.Â
You pull into a spot diagonally where the âfucking Rolls-Royce Wraith,â as Rachel so adequately put it, is parked, and watch as Namjoon steps out of the driverâs seat. Yoongi (you think) exits the passenger side as a BMW pulls up next to them, and the rest of the Kims, minus Taehyung, step out of the vehicle as Seokjin shuts off the engine.
âWow,â Rachel sighs. âMust be nice.âÂ
You shake your head and shut your engine off, decidedly not gawking at the cars, and Kims, parked across from you. âLetâs just get to class.âÂ
âSure thing,â Victoria answers, following after you with Naomi and Rachel close behind.
âA fucking Wraith, Vic,â Rachel whispers, and you huff out a breath.
With Wednesday mirroring your Monday schedule, you start the day with intro. to drama once more.
You run a few minutes late, having been caught up in conversation with Victoria, so by the time the bell rings to signal the beginning of the day, youâre stuck in the closest empty seat to the door- on the side of Jungkook that Seokjin isnât occupying. Your only other immediate option? The empty seat on the other side of Kim Seokjin. Did no one sit next to these guys ever? Really?Â
The differences between the two Kims are there, but itâs the similarities that captivate you during the beginning of class. Their movements are completed before you have time to register theyâre happening, precise-Â like Jiminâs had been with the charcoal the day prior- and too smooth for how cramped the desks are. Thereâs a beauty to the way they move, an inhuman beauty.Â
âTaehyung will be upset he missed this,â Jungkook says under his breath, clearly directing the comment to Seokjin as Professor Phillips speaks about Shakespeare between the rows of desks.Â
âHeâs probably watching French Films at home while he⊠gets better,â Seokjin replies quietly.Â
The pause was pointed, but you try your best to seem unfazed, schooling your features into those of someone paying their utmost attention to their professor, yet you can still feel the drop of the side of your mouth at the comment.Â
âToday, my star pupils, weâll be running through some lines from Hamlet and Romeo and Juliet.â The class is a mix of groans and excited chatter, âListen up, listen up⊠youâll be working in groups of three. Run through the lines on the papers in front of you a few times, get comfortable with them, and pick your favorite. Weâll do some quick demonstrations before class is out,â he waits for the groans to die down this time, âand then Iâll clue you all in on your major assignment for this semester.âÂ
You pick up the papers in front of you, moving to stand, when Jungkook clears his throat from next to you.Â
âYou could work with us,â he offers.Â
Your eyes land on his, wide and confused, âWhat about your brother?âÂ
âMy brother?â Jungkook responds, equally confused, before realization dawns. âOh, Taehyung?âÂ
You nod, catching Seokjinâs head shaking out of the corner of your eyes. âYeah. Him.â
âHeâs sick. We can always partner up with him later,â Jungkook smiles. âYou can at least work with us today⊠only if you want to, of course.âÂ
The way he says it feels almost like a challenge, and your heart stammers when you lift your eyes to meet Jungkookâs, finding that Seokjin is already staring you down from his side. Like he knows your answer.
âFine.âÂ
âAlright then.â Jungkook smirks.Â
Seokjin laughs lightly, the sound musical and bright, and taps the ends of his bunched papers against the desk to straighten them.Â
It was awkward at first, what with the brief glances you thought you caught Jungkook shooting towards the vacant seat opposite Seokjin (heâd always had his eyes right back on you or Jin the moment youâd thought you finally caught him) and the feeling of Kim Seokjin monitoring you for the entirety of the exercise.
And itâs not that that made you feel small, or lesser, or childish in any sense. You just felt more aware somehow. Of yourself and of the short distance between you and the youngest and oldest Kim. Aware of how the space curls tighter than it may be around the three of you. Aware of their stillness when theyâre not running the lines prompted, or adjusting their posture after youâve already done so twice.
Youâre aware that you sit straighter. That your mind liquifies the few odd times that Jungkook decides to offer you a knowing smile and flip his stupid fucking lip ring he loves so much with his tongue when he catches you looking. And Seokjin-- yeah, he watches you. Says his lines with such carefree perfection that you find yourself hoping to see him fuck up, if only once.
An hour (and some odd Hamlet scenes) later, you start at the slight tap to your shoe, stifling your yip of surprise as you meet Jungkookâs crooked smirk. âYour turn,â he whispers.Â
You offer a weak smile in apology, nodding your head as you shift into your Ophelia voice,Â
âGood my lord,Â
How does your Honor for this many a day?âÂ
Jungkookâs answering line is rehearsed with precision and the sort of emotion some professional actors can only dream of one day displaying.Â
âDoesnât excelling at everything get boring?â you ask him after settling back in your seats. Thankfully, your group had not been among the three chosen to demonstrate before the class.
âJealous?â He asks, eyebrow raised.
âOf acting? No. Never been my forte. The drawing, maybe,â you nod, referencing the shared art class from the previous day. âBut not acting⊠I just- I canât imagine itâs very thrilling to not have goals to work to because youâre already so perfect at everything.â You explain.Â
Jungkook offers a small shrug, âMaybe sometimes. Iâve also had time to practice.âÂ
âRight,â you laugh dryly. âBecause Iâm supposed to believe youâre not just gifted?âÂ
His eyebrow raises again, and he motions for you to continue.Â
âYou donât act like youâve had to work for it. The talent. Itâs like you just have it. Naturally, or whatever.âÂ
Jungkook shakes his head, a small smile tugging at the corner of his mouth, âor whatever,â he whispers to himself.Â
âSo youâre not an artist?â Seokjin asks from Jungkookâs opposite side.Â
You sputter a laugh, âuh, no. Not exactly.â You jam a thumb Jungkookâs way, âhe can attest to that.âÂ
âIt wasnât awful,â he tries to reason.
âDonât gas me up. It was atrocious,â you shake your head, meeting Seokjinâs eyes, âI drew Jimin completely wrong. He looked like he was going through anaphylaxis on my paper.â
âSome might call that an improvement where Jiminâs concerned,â Seokjin smiles.
âYeah?âÂ
Jungkook shifts into your space slowly, the smell of him- cherries and frosted pine- hits you like a train. âJin and Jimin bicker a lot,â he explains.
âWe do not,â Jin snaps quickly and quietly, folding his papers neatly into his notebook as Professor Phillips winds down the class. The major assessment, you learn, is getting in groups of four and performing an entire act from a play of your choosing.Â
âTheyâre bickering currently. Heâs touchy on it, clearly,â Jungkook smirks, leaning over to press a reassuring hand against Jinâs shoulder. âItâs okay, Jin. Namjoon will mediate later, like always, and Iâm sure Jimin will give your earbuds back to you.âÂ
Jin narrows his eyes at Jungkook, but whispers in a tone that borders on concerned, âI donât even know why he takes them. Itâs gross. He has his own.â
âSimple. Yours are more expensive,â Jungkook smirks, turning to Professor Phillips before he nears your table.Â
Noting the way that Jungkook and Jin busy themselves with checking their phones and chatting quietly amongst each other, you turn to your professor.Â
âWe didnât have time to catch up yesterday after class,â Professor Phillips smiles, nodding his head in acknowledgment at Jungkook when he looks between the two of you. âOn how the class went,â Phillips explains at your confused stare.
âOh,â your brows furrow, âI didnât know I was supposed to get with you on that.âÂ
âYou werenât,â he replies swiftly, âNot supposed to, at least. I just wanted to check in on you, since I know your dad.â
You tense a little at that bit of information being tossed out without warning. Itâs not that itâs incriminating for your professor to know your father, because itâs not, but maybe thereâs a kernel of you that didnât want your classmates knowing you had, albeit loose, ties to a member of staff. Jungkook clears his throat softly to the side of you, and youâre unsure of whether it was an attempt to end the conversation or to just let you know he was still there. Regardless, Phillips pays him no mind, instead keeping his attention on you.Â
Thankfully, no other students are concerned about your encounter. Most had filed out, and the few stragglers were either striking up conversations with each other to avoid heading to their next class or playing on their phones like Jin and Jungkook appeared to still be doing.Â
âYesterday went fine,â you tell Professor Phillips tightly, plastering a nice smile on your face. âToday went fine, too.âÂ
âAnd this class?âÂ
âItâs been good so far,â you tell him, trying to ignore the mental preening your words seem to do to his ego. Men.
âGlad to hear it,â he smiles, âif you need anything at all, you can always stop by and ask. Iâd love to help in whatever ways I can.âÂ
Gross.
âThanks, Professor Phillips,â you say, emphasizing the title. He offers you another smile before heading back towards his desk.Â
Your nails bite into your palms as you stand up, bookbag slung over your shoulder.Â
âThanks for letting me partner with you guys today,â you tell the two Kims before stalking out of the room. You choose to ignore the look Jin shot your way, the way he seemed almost apologetic.
10:05 do u think iâll get suspended or kicked out if i drink on campus
The near-instant bubbles that pop up on the text thread between you and Victoria reveal that sheâd gotten your message right away. Your shoulders relax a bit as you stalk towards the breezeways that will lead you to your astronomy class.Â
10:06 serious question? prob kicked out. idk that they do the whole fool me once fool me twice fool me three times bullshit here. too small for ppl to be acting like delinquentsÂ
You react to her text with a crying emoji before opening the door to your next class.Â
Itâs almost full due to your late departure from drama. You sigh as you settle into a chair close to the exit, pulling out your notebook and trying to ignore the look of concern on Namjoonâs face from across the room as you recalibrate. He frowns, small but there, before pulling out his phone.Â
Whatever.Â
Professor Jones doesnât encroach on your personal space. Doesnât ask you how your previous day went, or hint that she knows any of your family members (because she doesnât) in the presence of your classmates. She just does her job. Like an instructor should, a small part of you echoes.
You find that you genuinely enjoy the time spent in her classroom. And even though Namjoon was nice enough the day prior, you also find yourself appreciating the space between the two of you. You liked learning, and you could admit that doing so had been proven perhaps a tad difficult when the Kims were surrounding you.Â
Professor Jones ends the lecture with questions you clearly cannot answer here and now. Spiral galaxies, elliptical galaxies, and irregular galaxies all seem the same to you. The sun will eventually die. Andromeda will merge with the Milky Way. The cosmos is a wondrous, vast thing. And you were just a blip in its existence. Small. Inconsequential. Not an insult, just fact.Â
You peer down at your phone as people start filtering out of the room, replying to the group text between you and the three others to reassure them that yes, you would still be driving everyone home.Â
âYou all good?âÂ
You donât have to look up to know itâs Namjoon asking you the question. Partially because his voice stands out, but also partially due to the simple fact that youâd spoken with none of the other students in the class.Â
âDonât you have a squabble to be refereeing?âÂ
âWhat?âÂ
The tone of his voice has you looking up at him. Heâd put on a pair of glasses at some point during the lecture, and youâre stunned by them because they look good. Namjoon stiffens slightly, almost as if heâd caught on to your wandering thoughts, so you shove them away with fervor before meeting his eyes again.Â
âJimin stole Jinâs earbuds or something.âÂ
âAgain?âÂ
You laugh, âsupposedly so.âÂ
âHe has his own,â Namjoon says with a shake of his head.Â
âTheyâre not expensive enough,â you offer Jungkookâs earlier reasoning, and Namjoon suppresses a wide smile with a small one. Youâd be lying if you claimed not to be disappointed in his doing so.Â
âThanks for the heads up,â he says softly. âBut seriously, you good?âÂ
âIâm good,â you nod, adding after a moment, âitâs just been a long morning.âÂ
Namjoon accepts your answer with a nod of his own, but doesnât press the matter.
âMy friends were fawning over your car this morning,â you tell him when he lingers near your desk. He steps gracefully out of your way as you stand up and gather your things.Â
âIâve had it for a bit,â Namjoon says with what sounds like embarrassment. âI only drove it this morning because the others wouldnât stop arguing about who was driving.âÂ
âAh,â you tip your head. âEgos.âÂ
âSomething like that,â he chuckles. The sound is low, and bordering on pretty. âJungkook just got his car, so he jumps at the opportunity whenever itâs offered. I think the others end up wanting to drive theirs just to annoy him⊠or to avoid his speeding.âÂ
âEven Taehyung?âÂ
Namjoon tenses at the mention of Taehyung, but recovers so quickly you wonder if youâd seen it. âEven Tae.â Heâs silent for a moment before continuing, âI heard about your run-in with him yesterday. Iâm sorry about that.âÂ
âNo need,â you wave off his apology.Â
âTaehyung isnât usually soâŠâ he trails off.Â
âDickish?â You offer the word from Victoriaâs dictionary.
He laughs fully as you guys exit the classroom, âSure, dickish. But really, heâs a good guy. Heâs just going through some stuff at the moment.âÂ
âMmm,â you nod. âI didnât think it was something I did, for what itâs worth,â a lie, but there was truth behind it. You hadnât done anything wrong. You just ran into the guy accidentally. From the display at the assembly and drama afterwards, youâd assumed Taehyungâs distaste for you ran deeper than your stumble.Â
âGood. It wasnât.â
âJin said Taehyungâs getting better?â
âYeah, heâs got the stomach flu.âÂ
âThat sucks. I didnât know that was getting passed around right now. I hope I donât get it.â You shiver, remembering the short physical contact you shared with Taehyung.
âVaccinated?â
âDuh.âÂ
âThat helps,â Namjoon smirks.
âDoesnât mean I want to spend the next two days on the bathroom floor,â you grimace.
âThat does sound pretty miserable.â He replies as you near the parking lot. âYour roommates will take care of you if you get sick, right?âÂ
âAt least two of them.âÂ
âThe other?âÂ
âNot so much,â you sigh.
You try to avoid the three sets of eyes that burn holes into your head from your car as you descend the steps to the lot⊠and the additional five sets that come from the two luxury cars across the way. From the way Namjoon shifts his balance (gracefully, mind you) from one foot to the other, you can tell heâs doing the same.Â
âWell, if you get sick, Iâm sorry.â Namjoon offers kindly, âBut I have a feeling you wonât.âÂ
âI admire the optimism,â you exhale. âThanks for checking on me,â you add awkwardly, âI donât really know people here.âÂ
âItâs no problem, really.â He reassures you. âSee you in class?âÂ
âYeah,â you nod, âsee you.âÂ
âKim fucking Namjoon, Victoria!âÂ
âI heard you the first ten times, Rachel.â Victoria groans.Â
âIâm right here,â you whisper, signaling to turn out of the parking lot. âLike, literally right here. Am I invisible? A ghost?âÂ
Naomi shakes her head from the passenger seat, offering you a weak smile and a mouthed sorry.
âI just donât get it.â Rachel sighs.Â
âAnyways,â Victoria drawls, eyes locking onto yours in the rearview as she ends the conversation with Rachel. âI need to go to the bookstore before it closes tonight. You wanna go?âÂ
âAbsolutely,â you nod.Â
âOooh, can I tag along? Iâve been meaning to get the new ACOTAR book.â Naomi perks up.Â
âSure thing, we can take my car now that the weather is behaving.â Victoria smiles.Â
âWhat about me?â Rachel asks.Â
âYou want to go to the bookstore?â Victoria gapes.
âWell, yeah? I do read, you know.â
âYeah?âÂ
âListen, I get that Iâm a bitch, but I can enjoy reading, too. The two things arenât mutually exclusive. A bitch can read.âÂ
Despite your feelings regarding Rachel, you laugh. And the others do, too.Â
âThe new ACOTAR is good, by the way,â Rachel tells Naomi before popping her earbuds in and leaning back in her seat.Â
âTodayâs weird.â Naomiâs words settle into the space of the car, and you can only offer her a nod before you turn on the radio and axe any possibility of the girls furthering in their questioning on Namjoon Kim.
The bookstore is quiet and warm, the shelves line the walls to the ceiling, and are stocked full of books, both new and used.Â
Your eye catches on a few, and you do a quick check of your bank account before allowing yourself to grab three of the five that caught your fancy, one of which youâve read before but have yet to own. Naomi and Rachel are both standing near the Sarah J Maas corner, eyeing Throne of Glass novels with intense interest, whilst you and Victoria stand near the coffee and hot chocolate maker thatâs neighboring the register counter.Â
âItâs free, right?â You ask as Vic pours some of the hot chocolate mix into her hot water.Â
âYep,â she nods. âItâs a huge selling point here.âÂ
You chew on your bottom lip before pouring your own cup. Stirring the mix in with one of the little plastic stirrers, you turn to your friend, almost dropping your cup when you notice Jimin standing near the historical section of the shop with Jin. Neither of them appears wounded, so you assume Namjoon had done his job of mediator well enough.
Jimin catches your eye just before you turn away and smiles at you, waving his acknowledgment and pointing you out to Jin. Jin, bless him, nods once before refocusing on the books in front of him.
âTheyâre everywhere lately,â Vic whispers, sipping at her flimsy cup. âItâs like you summon them.âÂ
âThatâd be a fucking pointless power,â you shake your head, and Vic laughs. âTheyâre probably just looking for a book for a class or something.âÂ
âMhm,â she nods, but seems unconvinced. âAny of them catch your fancy yet?âÂ
âAre you joking?â You scoff at her, but even to you the sound seems flat and weightless.Â
âItâs just a question,â she smirks, and you catch Jimin looking your way again.Â
âIâm not justifying it with an answer.âÂ
âListen, all Iâm saying is⊠I havenât seen a single Kim look at anyone on campus or back in high school the way they look at you.âÂ
âWeâve been in class for a few days, dude.âÂ
âIâm not claiming it makes sense,â Vic shrugs. âJust want to be transparent with you. I mean, I guess I have only seen you around Jungkook and Jimin. But even Namjoon today? He looked like he was interested with the way he escorted you to your car.âÂ
âOkay, technically, he only walked with me to the lot, and itâs not like that. With any of them.âÂ
âYou sure?âÂ
âOne hundred percent.âÂ
âSo⊠is that why Jiminâs walking over to us now?â She asks with a quirked brow and a sneaky smirk.
You snap your mouth shut and pause stirring your hot chocolate to smile at Jimin as he walks up. Heâs completely relaxed, hands in his jacket pockets, none the wiser to your conversation with Victoria moments prior, but thereâs an aura to him that seems almost cocky when he smiles back at you⊠like heâs caught you in a trap. Up close, he smells faintly clean, something soft and floral that cuts through the aroma of hot chocolate wafting up from your cup.Â
âHey,â he says, voice light, like heâs not interrupting anything at all. His eyes flick briefly to Vic before they settle again on you. âSorry--do you mind if I ask you something?âÂ
Victoriaâs elbow nudges into your side, subtle but intentional. The witch.Â
âDepends,â you reply, brow lifted. âIs it weird?âÂ
Jiminâs lips curve, just slightly, and his eyes crinkle into those half moons that have you wanting to swoon. âI donât think so.âÂ
âThatâs what people who ask weird stuff usually say,â you mutter, but thereâs no bite to your words.
âIâm looking for something new to read,â he continues, like you hadnât said anything at all. âYou seemed⊠decisive earlier.â His gaze drops to the books tucked against your side before running the length of your torso and neck back to your face. âFigured Iâd ask.âÂ
Thereâs something about the way he says it, earlier, that makes your stomach twist faintly.
Victoria hums beside you, far too pleased with herself. You side-eye her, hoping it stings, but not really.Â
âWell,â you start, shifting your weight, âdepends on what youâre into. Fantasy? Romance? Something thatâll emotionally devastate you for no reason?âÂ
âDealerâs choice,â jimin says easily. âWhat would you recommend?âÂ
You narrow your eyes at him slightly, like youâre trying to figure out if this is a trick question. âThat sounds like a setup.âÂ
âItâs not,â he assures you, tone softening just a fraction. âI just want your opinion.âÂ
Your grip tightens slightly around the cup in your hand. Thereâs the feeling again, like heâs not just asking about the damn books in the shop.Â
Victoria clears her throat lightly. âSheâs got good taste,â she offers, casual, like she didnât enjoy every second of this torture. âEven if she wonât admit it.âÂ
You shoot her another withering glare, and she just smiles in response.
âDo you?â Jimin asks, attention never leaving you.Â
âI mean,â you shrug, trying to play it off and end this conversation before it really builds, âI donât pick terrible ones. Not particularly fantastic ones, either.âÂ
âThatâs not what I asked,â he smirks.Â
Thereâs a beat. A small one. But it stretches somehow.Â
You swallow, then glance down at the books between your arm and side, using them as an anchor. âThis oneâs good,â you say, setting your cup on the counter to hold your previous read up slightly. âItâs more character-driven, kinda slow at first, but it picks up. And this--â you tilt another towards him, âthis oneâs supposed to be pure chaos. In a good way,â you amend. âI havenât actually read it yet.âÂ
Jimin leans in to look, closer than necessary, his shoulder almost brushing yours. âChaos,â he repeats, thoughtful. âI can work with that.âÂ
Your breath catches, not noticeably, you hope, but enough that you shift back half a step without meaning to.
He notices. Of course he does.
But he doesnât comment.Â
Instead, he straightens, eyes flicking once more over your face before he smiles again, softer this time. âThanks. Iâll trust your judgment.â
âBold move,â you mutter.Â
Victoria snorts quietly into her cup.Â
Jiminâs gaze lingers a second longer than it should. âNot really,â he says. âYou donât seem like someone who recommends things lightly.âÂ
The feeling is there again, like this conversation is about more than simply just books.
âGuess youâll find out,â you reply, forcing a small smile.Â
âI think I will,â he nods, a slight dip of his head, and steps back, the space between you easing in a way that feels almost immediate. Like you hadnât realized how close he was until he wasnât anymore.Â
âIâll let you get back to it,â he adds, glancing back at Victoria briefly. âNice seeing you again.âÂ
Victoria perks up just enough to smile back. âYou too.âÂ
Jimin turns, heading back toward the shelves where Jin still stands, flipping a page he doesnât seem to be reading. And just before Jimin fully disappears down the aisle heâd been standing close to originally with Jin, he glances back. Not at Victoria. At you.Â
Victoria exhales next to you, low and impressed. âYeah,â she murmurs. âThat was totally about books.âÂ
You collect your hot chocolate from the counter and stare down at it in your hands, watching the surface ripple slightly.Â
âShut up.âÂ
But your voice lacks conviction. Victoria says something back, something quick, teasing, but it blurs before it fully lands. The words slide past you like water over glass, distorted and distant.Â
Your fingers tighten again over the paper cup in your hand. The bookstore feels too warm, suddenly. Or maybe youâre just aware of it now. The heat from the cup bleeding into your palm, the faint hum of the overhead lights, the soft shuffle of pages turning somewhere deeper in the aisles. It all presses in at once, like your senses have decided to wake up all at the same time.Â
Your heart stutters. Not fast, not slow⊠just off, a bit.Â
You swallow, but your throat feels dry, which doesnât make sense because you just took a sip. The taste of chocolate lingers, too sweet now, sitting heavy on your tongue. And for a second, just one second, you can still feel it. The space where Jimin had been standing. So close. So aware.Â
You blink, once, twice, forcing your gaze to refocus on the swirling liquid in the cup.
âHey,â Victoriaâs voice cuts in clearer this time, closer.Â
You inhale, slow and deliberate, like youâre reminding your body how to do it properly. The noise of the bookstore filters back in, piece by piece, Naomiâs voice somewhere nearby, Rachel laughing at something, the soft beep of the register. Normal.
âEarth to YN,â Vic murmurs, bumping her shoulder lightly against yours. âYou good?âÂ
âPeachy,â you say with a shake of your head, taking another careful sip of your hot chocolate like it might ground you back into your body. It doesnât. At least not fully.
âMm,â she hums, unconvinced.Â
Before she can say anything else, Naomi and Rachel reappear from around the corner of the aisle, both of them clutching books to their chests like theyâd just robbed the place blind.Â
âGot âem,â Naomi beams, holding up her copy. âThey had, like, three different editions, and I almost lost my mind trying to pick one.âÂ
âSame,â Rachel adds, though her attention is already drifting, eyes narrowing slightly as they flick between you and Victoria. âWhatâd we miss?âÂ
âNothing,â you answer immediately.
âEverything,â Vic says at the same exact time.
Rachelâs head tilts, interest piqued instantly. âOh, now I know thatâs a lie,â she smiles at you, sickly sweet.Â
Naomiâs gaze lingers on you a second longer than necessary, something softer there, curious but not pushy. âWas that Jimin?â She asks gently.Â
You sigh, tossing your hot chocolate into the trash bin next to the aisle. âCan we not do this here?âÂ
Victoria snorts again into her cup.Â
âIâm just asking,â Naomi says, though sheâs clearly already piecing it together. âHe came over, right?âÂ
Rachel perks up like sheâs just been handed a live wire. âWait-- he came over? To you?âÂ
âIt was nothing,â you insist, starting towards the register before they can circle you any further. âHe asked for a book recommendation. Thatâs it.âÂ
âThatâs it,â Victoria echoes under her breath, far too amused.Â
Rachel hurries to keep up with you, nearly bumping into your shoulder. âAnd you just⊠gave one to him? Like a normal person?âÂ
âWhat was I supposed to do, Rachel? Gatekeep literature?â you shoot back, exasperation finally bleeding through your tone.Â
âI donât know,â she shrugs, unfazed. âBe interesting about it.âÂ
Naomi laughs softly behind you, stepping up beside the two of you as the line for the register comes into view. âPretty sure being approached in a bookstore is already interesting enough.âÂ
âThank you,â you mutter, shooting her a grateful look.Â
Rachel crosses her arms, still eyeing you like youâre withholding classified information. âDid he flirt with you?âÂ
âNo.âÂ
Victoria makes a small noise.Â
You cut her a look.Â
âWhat?â she shrugs innocently. âIâm just breathing.âÂ
âYouâre not subtle,â you hiss.Â
âWasnât trying to be.â
The line moves quicker than expected, and before Rachel can dig her claws in any deeper, youâre setting your books down on the counter, Vic getting in line behind you. The cashier smiles politely as she scans them, Naomi and Rachel stepping up beside you to do the same, both still buzzing over their ACOTAR finds. You swipe your friendsâ books from their grasp with ease, motioning for the cashier to scan them as well.
âThatâll be--â the cashier starts, and you tap your card against the reader before she can finish.
Naomi gasps softly. âYou didnât have to do that.âÂ
âI wanted to,â you shrug. âConsider it a âthanks for not interrogating me like a suspectâ bonus.âÂ
Rachel scoffs. âI havenât even started yet.âÂ
âI know,â you sigh. âYours was a bribe.âÂ
Victoria laughs outright at that, grabbing her book and tucking it against her side. âSmart. Preemptive damage control.âÂ
You collect your books, tucking them securely under your arm as you push the door open with a shoulder. The bell above jingles softly, the warm air of the shop giving way to the cool evening outside.
Naomi and Rachel trail behind you, already slipping back into conversation about plotlines and characters, their voices easy and familiar. Victoria nudges your arm again as you step off the curb.
âYouâre not beating the allegations, by the way,â she whispers.Â
âIâm not entertaining them,â you shoot back.
âToo late for that.âÂ
You roll your eyes, tightening your grip on your books as you head toward the car. For a moment, everything feels normal again, just a late evening, a bookstore run, your friendsâ voices filling the space around you. But as you reach for the car door, something pulls at your attention. A feeling more than anything.Â
You glance back.Â
Through the bookstore window, between the tall shelves and soft lighting, you catch a glimpse of him.Â
Jimin.Â
Standing exactly where he'd left you. Already looking at you.
âYN?â Naomi calls, hand halfway to the rear passenger door.Â
âYeah,â you answer quickly, tearing your gaze from the bookstore window and sliding into the passenger seat. âComing.âÂ
The door shuts, sealing you inside the quiet hum of the car as Victoria starts the engine.Â
Warm air, familiar voices. Normal.Â
Your eyes fix straight ahead as Victoria peels out of the parking lot. And pointedly do not look back again.
The apartment greets you with warmth the second you step inside.Â
Itâs immediate, like crossing some invisible threshold. The soft hum of the heater, the faint scent of something Victoria must have sprayed earlier, the low glow of the lamp in the living room casting everything in a golden haze. It feels smaller than it did this morning. Safer.
âShoes,â Naomi reminds gently, toeing hers off by the door.
âRight,â you nod, kicking yours off and nudging them into place with your heel.Â
Rachel disappears into the kitchen almost immediately, already rummaging through cabinets. Victoria follows, calling out something about snacks, and Naomi lingers just long enough to brush your arm lightly as she passes.Â
âYou okay?â she asks, soft enough that it doesnât carry over to eager ears.Â
You nod. âJust tired.âÂ
She studies you for a half second longer, then smiles. âWeâll keep it lowkey tonight.âÂ
âPlease.â
The kitchen quickly fills with a clink of glasses and the rustle of packaging. By the time you drop your bag in your room and come back out, Rachel is already pouring wine into mismatched cups, her earlier edge softened.Â
âStudy night,â she announces, like sheâs hosting something official. âWith benefits.âÂ
âBenefits being?â Vic asks, grabbing a cup and raising a pointed brow.Â
âAlcohol,â Rachel smirks, sliding a cup your way from across the counter.Â
âAh,â you hum, taking it. âAcademic excellence.âÂ
Naomi laughs, settling onto the couch with her books spread neatly in front of her. âIf we fail, we can at least say we tried.âÂ
âSpeak for yourselves,â Rachel says, flopping onto the armchair. âI plan on passing and thriving.âÂ
âYou plan on gossiping,â Victoria corrects, dropping beside Naomi and cracking open her notebook.Â
âMultitasking,â Rachel shoots back.
You settle onto the floor with your back against the couch, your books fanned out in front of you, wine balanced carefully in your hand. The quiet that follows isnât uncomfortable. Itâs easy. Pages flipping, pens scratching, the occasional sigh or muttered complaint filling the space between sips.Â
For a while, it almost feels like nothing happened. Like the day didnât stretch and twist in all the ways it had.Â
Naomi leans over at one point, pointing at something in your notes. âYou missed this part,â she murmurs.Â
âDid I?â you frown, scooting closer.Â
âYeah-- here,â she taps the page youâd been dead-eyeing in your textbook. âIt connects to the next section you started on.âÂ
âGod, Iâm blind,â you mutter, scribbling it down. âThanks.âÂ
âYouâre distracted,â Vic says lightly, not even looking up from her own work.Â
âIâm not distracted,â you argue automatically.
Rachel snorts. You ignore her. Another stretch of quiet passes. Comfortable until it isnât.
âSo,â Rachel starts, far too casually.
You donât look up. âNo.âÂ
âI didnât even say anything yet.âÂ
âYou were going to,â you reply, flipping a page a little harder than necessary.
âI was just going to ask a question.âÂ
âNo.âÂ
Victoria huffs out a laugh, shaking her head.Â
Naomi nudges Rachel lightly with her foot. âMaybe give it a rest?âÂ
âIâm just curious,â Rachel insists, sitting forward. âYou cannot expect me not to be when--âÂ
âWhen what?â you snap, the words sharper than you meant for them to be.Â
The room stills.Â
Rachel blinks at you, clearly caught off guard.Â
You exhale through your nose, dragging a hand through your hair. âItâs nothing, Rachel. Theyâre just people. I had a couple of conversations today. Thatâs it.âÂ
âThatâs not how it looks,â she says, quieter now, but still pushing. âThey donât talk to anyone. Ever. And suddenly--âÂ
âAnd suddenly what?â you cut in, heat rising in your chest before you can stop it. âThey talk to me and itâs some big conspiracy? Maybe theyâre just being nice. Maybe Iâm just there.âÂ
âThatâs not what I--âÂ
âI donât know them,â you continue, the words coming faster now. âI donât care if theyâre hot or rich or whatever else youâre fixating on. Itâs not a thing. There is no âthing.â Can we please just drop it?âÂ
Silence that weighs heavily this time consumes the small space in the living room.Â
Rachelâs mouth presses into a thin line. For a second, it looks like she might argue, push harder, dig deeper. She doesnât.
âFine,â she says instead, standing abruptly and grabbing her cup along with her notebook. âDidnât realize it was that serious.âÂ
Guilt flickers through you, quick and unwelcome.Â
âRachel--âÂ
âIâm going to bed,â she cuts you off, not unkindly, but not warmly either. âIâve got an early morning.âÂ
She disappears down the hall, her door clicking shut a moment later. The quiet that follows is different. Not comfortable. You stare down your notes, the words blurring slightly as your eyes sting.Â
âHey,â Naomi says gently.Â
You swallow. âI didnât mean toâŠâ you trail off.Â
âSheâll be fine,â Victoria offers, softer than her usual tone. âYou didnât say anything wrong.âÂ
âI kind of did,â you mutter.Â
âYou kind of snapped,â Naomi corrects you. âThereâs a difference.âÂ
You huff out a breath, setting your pen down. âI just⊠donât get why it matters so much.âÂ
Victoria shrugs. âBecause itâs weird. And people latch onto weird.âÂ
Naomi tilts her head. âBut that doesnât mean you have to.âÂ
You nod, even if the knot in your chest doesnât fully loosen.Â
Victoria taps your shoulder. âYouâre still coming Friday, right?âÂ
âThe party?â you groan.
âYes, the party,â she grins. âSmall house, college guys, questionable music choices. Itâll be fun.âÂ
Naomi nods eagerly. âWeâll stick together the whole time. Promise.âÂ
You hesitate for a second. Then sigh.Â
âYeah, Iâll go.âÂ
âGood,â Vic beams.
You glance between them, then add, âThe Kims wonât be there, right?âÂ
Vic laughs immediately. âGod, no.âÂ
Naomi shakes her head. âThey donât go to parties. Like, ever.âÂ
âSeriously,â Vic adds. âIâve never seen them at one. Not once.âÂ
Something in your chest settles at that.Â
âOkay,â you murmur, âgood.âÂ
âGood?â Vic echoes, amused.Â
âShut up,â you groan, but thereâs no heat behind it this time.
Naomi smiles, gathering her things. âWe should probably call it soon anyway. Early morning tomorrow for all of us.âÂ
âUgh,â Vic grumbles, finishing off her wine.
You clean up slowly, stacking your books, rinsing out your cup, moving through the motions on autopilot. The apartment quiets again as lights flick off one by one.
By the time you make it to your room, the world feels smaller again.
You change, plug your phone in, and slide beneath the covers after shelving your new books, the familiar weight of your blankets ground you.Â
The events of the day flicker behind your eyes⊠glances, voices, the feeling of being watched, of being known just a little too quickly.Â
You turn onto your side, pulling the blanket higher.
And eventually, with the soft hum of the apartment around you, sleep comes.
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