I just thought a bit.. there is something what I kinn in Zanka and Follo, but at the same time there is a difference.
Zanka and Follo tries to be better. He tries, but he can't as if there is a "line" that cannot be crossed, a limit of possibilities that cannot be crossed (in his own head or in reality?) But in reality he is very good, but there will always be someone better. Follo crossed this line and become much better, as he wanted so much, with all his motivation and determination.
But I don’t even think about trying anymore. Yes, I’m doing something, but I know it will turn out badly in most cases. I don’t see a "line". I see how good people are around me – I don’t even envy them, absolutely; or how they comment on me, and in my thoughts I stop even the thought of surpassing someone or try to do better. Hands down. Attempt failed.
Sorry. I just wanted to talk a little.