#valentinatag!

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no bc people are genuinely starting to wonder if we’re actually friends bcos all we do is just calling each other gay slurs on main 💔 anyway facetime me when you miss me pookie

what l especially love about Guilty Conscience-and we've talked about this—is how morally grey the characters feel. like, you can't completely condone their actions (especially Ellie's, from that little sliver of her past you let us see), but you also can't fully hate them either. even if the majority of people would say "cheating is wrong" (which, yes-it is), there's something really invisible about the line you're walking when writing characters who do bad things out of love. and the way you write it makes it feel so good to read. it's addictive. It's layered. it's real.

that's really hard to pull off, especially when the characters aren't OCs—Ellie and Dina are already beloved, already have personalities we're attached to, and yet you make them feel new while keeping them familiar. that takes skill.

the Riley storyline KILLED me, by the way. like... girl. be serious. im devastated.

honestly, what I admire most about your writing is how naturally it flows. there's this effortless rhythm to it, this honesty, and that's something I truly look up to. what inspires me so much about you—as a writer and as a friend—is that you're always coming up with something wild and brilliant. you're always cooking. always plotting. you have so much drive and so much love for what you do, and that radiates in your work. it motivates me. and I just really, really love being your friend because of that. hope you're having an incredible day, my sweet izzie. ilysm <333333

p.s: learn ur damn verbs 🙄

IT IS 7AM AND I AM YET TO EVEN BLINK ANYTHING REMOTELY CLOSE TO SLEEP. BUT THIS MESSAGE. OH IM SICK.

I really enjoy writing these characters, their morally gray-ness is really interesting to explore, especially because it’s flawed and it’s realistic. When i came up with this idea i was sure i wanted to make this a very two-toned plot, with who is right and who is wrong. originally it was going to be reader not knowing about ellie’s wife, and Dina being this perfect partner to ellie, but then i thought - where’s the fun in that? So when i started playing with the idea of Dina (my girl whom i adore.) being this sort of like captor to ellie, this control freak it then justified Ellies actions just a tad bit more than some hot stripper. Then i came up with the whole premise of reader knowing ellie was married, not explicitly about Dina, but shes aware Ellie is not single, And i really enjoyed it. The idea of reader being completely innocent and not knowing wasn’t really something i was a fan off from the get go i cant lie. I enjoy the fact that shes compliant, and that no matter how hard she fights her guilty conscience she will go back to ellie, esp for some reasons we will see in chapter 3 ;)

Would you believe me if i told you that adding riley’s death was on a complete whim. the chapter was supposed to end on that “I love you” from ellie, but i wasn’t really rocking with it. i felt like adding riley’s death added more complications to our situation, it proved that this life was so heavily contrasted from her reckless, wild personality that anyone else would be surprised to see she works in an office. would Riley condone cheating? fucks no. but she would much encourage self discovery. its also just extra lore because if I’m writing ellie, best believe she wont be happy.

Thank you so much for this glaze vale! you noticing all this about my writing means more than you will ever know.

now. ellie loves reader so much it’s stupid. she is in a position i would literally never want to be in. she is going through hell, but at the same time? i feel so bad for reader because she obviously FELL AGAIN and she’s so real for fucking her after months without seeing her. she’s so real for that. i would fall into ellie’s arms after months of no contact like it’s NOTHING. she could run me over with her car and i would THANK HER. guilty conscience ellie run me over with a car 30 times i do NOT care.

and when they decided to GO TO ELLIE’S HOUSE? WITH THE WIFE? CALLIE PLEASE NO. i was throwing up. but okay okay okay. i hope ellie and reader get back together but like… later. after ellie spends time alone and rethinks her entire existence.

also. SHE PAID FOR READER’S SCHOOL? sorry? are we gonna talk about that in the epilogue? hello???? like i want reader to have a good future but also, i don’t know if i want them together. i want dina lonely, ellie lonely, reader lonely, and callie with a crown, a throne, and knighted by king charles himself because THAT is a friend. that’s my warrior princess. i would’ve killed to see callie vs dina fists out on the sidewalk with the neighbors watching like it’s pay-per-view. god.

also after ellie poured the wine, i wanted wine too. i hate you for that.

anyway, you’re an insane writer. some lines actually made me scream. the pacing? amazing. the feelings? insane. THAT SMUT WAS CRAZY. the car reunion sex had no business being that hot. i’m sweating just thinking about it.

i love you izzy you’re the best writer ever you faggot cunt hoe dyke okay bye ♾️💕♾️💕 LOVE IZZIE FROM INFINITY TO INFINITYYYY

YOURE THE FIRST PERSON TO MENTION THE SPYYYYYYY.. LIKE HOW DID U GUYS NOT CLOCK BIANCA BEING A TRAITOR ORRRRRRR??!?!!? SHES THE EVILEST OF EM ALL.

Val this is literally a chapter in itself, i love it.

Reader gets too much hate for my liking which is so funny because it’s lowkey deserved but like thats my baby who just wants to be loved.. shes innocent your honour.. val law says so.. like gc Ellie could quite literally [REDACTED] me and i would still..nvm, lets move on.

Those girls (Callie and reader) were so fucking insane and ANNOYING for that.. like whatttt are you fucking doing bro do you need a slap in the face rn??? Do you DESIREEEE A FADE???? Like im crying why would they do that what is their problem. Me acting like i didnt come up with and write that..

CALLIE IS REALLY THEEEE FRIEND EVER. She would catch a million fades, take a shot to the head, commit murder, and probably go to prison for reader.. and thats not even an exaggeration. They are quite literally valizzie. If u fuck with reader ur GOING to hear from Callie. My confrontational queen. God bless her. And the Dina fade? She wanted that, she desired that.. but unfortunately she had to be a therapist first.