#v.misc

It was a rhetorical comment; Xu’s cigarette was all the response that could have been expected. No matter how old she grew, there were things that never changed. This was one of them: the batches upon batches of the dead returned from whatever they fell. Even the ages were the same. War favored the young. The valuable. It made it more staggering when they came home in boxes, used and abused. The only real difference was that these souls were paid for. Bought. Sold.

Helga long ago had steeled her to the emotions this all caused. Now she only viewed it with cynicism.

“People want there to be more meaning to it. Give romance to death, as if they didn’t send each and every one of them out to come back like this. The viewing and the pageantry around it all... it’s phonographic. It’s self-serving. And the living just look on, feeling so good about doing nothing until it’s too late, waiting to be in the position that they can be celebrated because the system chewed them up and spat them out.”

Hyne, she wanted a cigarette.

Xu’s deadpan offer almost made Helga laugh. She had been working freelance for so long, and it took her little vanishing act to draw the attention of the Establishment. But she knew how much Garden paid; she could see the appeal, especially for those escaping being poor. As much as things changed, they certainly did stay the same. It would be lying to say that the idea had not crossed her mind a few times.

How would Seifer take it?

“Wish I could say that was my decision alone to make,” she admitted, turning her gaze away from the procession of flag-covered caskets. “But it’s not. Seifer would have to know... and I doubt he’s going to let me out of his sight for the next five years after my little stunt.

“Not to mention I’d need to review the contract thoroughly. Being independent can be lucrative.” Said the woman who just worked for years for nothing because of blackmail. Don’t consider it. Don’t think it. Not for one single moment.

She reached up and began to fidget with her braid. Helga Sinclair was thinking.

TAHST TWEET WAS FUCKCING RIGHT IM GONNA KILL MSYSLF I SWERA TO ALL THAT IS GOOD IN THIS WORLD I CANNSOT WITH THIS GAME IM LSOING MY MIND

YORUE FUCKING TELLING ME THAT THEGAME IVE BEEN PLAYING FOR OVER A YEAR HAD THESE FUCKINGE ASTER EGGS IN AND IM JUST NOW FINDINGS OUT?!?! TDO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW ACTUALLY REVOLUTIONARY THIS IS FOR ME?

GOOD FUCKING GODDDDDD UGHHH i eman its not Like any new information really BUT THIS IS HUGE FOR ME OK. all of orby's thoughts from before and after the existence of player. They Clarify on why they disappear when you exist the store witht hem. Im Killing mys

calling cashier interesting too GODD ive always interpreted his and orby's dynamic as somewhat indifferent. like they dont really care about each other all that much but shit; this changes some things. Orby not wanting to intentionally overload him and actually giving a fuck about his wellbeing (although tbf i dont thinj the same can be said for snackcore but whatever these two games arent meant to be related anyways)

and just UGHHHDWAAWW. their last and second to last note. calling out to kyu before breaking down. god. you cannot YOU CANNOT with me man.

its the fact that their notes didnt even work. that the only reason why kyu ever joined was because of the sheer corruption the state of the game was in at this time. the notes (the 5 initial ones) didnt do shit for this world other than to save cashier and thats only IF we paid or chose to give them attention

and its not just that either. by the time we the audiences view these extra notes we arent the player anymore. we are watching cashier and dummy view these notes for themselves. its not us but them that get to understand why the random orb in the store was there, why all of this is happening. these are the answers for US, but we as a player will never get to know in the story because we are gone

worst fucking part is that these two bitches dont even GET IT!!!! they didnt see the five other, arguably more important notes that WE did during the gameplay. i mean if anything this would probably and most likely provide them some form of clarity, but its not a lot. like if kyu had to explain what was happening to their world at the very end, then yeah i doubt these notes ever did anything. probably made their existence all the more confusing in hindsight

dumb stupid little idiots aka my ocs. i say they are dumb stupid little idiots because they dont have brains, and they cant even use the one conjoined free floating neuron they have since it died from not being used. idiots

blue and yellow abstract spiral - lolly