#utaite stuff

I don’t know much either, all I know that it’s really sad! Suzumu is believed to have stolen songs from Mafu and now I think Soraru and Mafumafu said it’s true?? And then they want to forgive him I think and come in contact with him….but I’m not sure…and Suzumu was sorta the one who affected Mafu’s depression ;-;;;;;

yeah cries that’s what happened;; soraru recently came forward w/ the story and apparently suzumu didn’t only plagiarize from mafu, but many other people that he claimed to have ‘worked with’. soraru even said that he doesn’t think there’s a single song that suzumu created by himself. in addition what’s really been hitting me hard is mafumafu’s ‘berserk’, which he has said to be an emotional outlet for him. here’s the thing:

アイツに亡き者にされ詩を書いていた Deemed deceased by him, I write a poem 言葉を奪い取られ But with my words snatched away 笑えなくなったんだ I’ve been unable to laugh (translation by matchakame)

an anon on emma’s (destination-of-fate) blog pointed out those lyrics, saying ‘[so he] literally means that...’. this song was also released shortly after suzumu’s retirement, and you can read in mafumafu’s description that he wrote ‘goodnight, suzumu’.

it’s also been said by soraru that suzumu was a pathological liar (see: 1, 2, 3) and he believes that suzumu had some sort of mental illness based on(??) compulsive lying. soraru stated that, “he would lie, [mafumafu and i] would call him out on it, he would apologize, and do it again.”

mafumafu also joked that he ‘would wake up screaming in the middle of the night just thinking about it’, but i honestly just can’t let that little ‘joke’ leave my mind bc he was probably just saying that so we wouldn’t worry;; not to mention mafumafu’s mental health was very bad at the time, and suzumu managed to just make that worse by shattering his trust and hurting him. despite all of what suzumu had done to cause others harm, financially and emotionally, the group that he used to work with (asunya : consists of soraru, lon, suzumu, saine, & macco) still really like him and miss him. but of course, the things he’s done certainly can’t be overlooked.

soraru said hes considering real name + face reveal im deceased

i mean its not actually gonna happen any time soon, maybe never, but hes CONSIDERING and thats something ill take it ill take anything i can get