#uscgf

Never expected myself to still be in contact with rhn. :’) Recently started talking with him and found out that he said ‘time will tell’ because he genuinely, sincerely wanted to give it a go but then a part of him was so hurt from his previous relationship he didn’t want to try again. Honestly, I understand where he’s coming from but I really did love him eh. I really did, I tried so hard for him, it’s different form how I treated mirul. I love going through Os with him, it was good to have someone with me all the time, encouraging me and pushing me. Today, I called him and asked him for motivation and he said, “if you want to photo of us, work hard. then I’ll send you.” and I'm like “bruh, you can’t score for econs one. like legit, h2 econs sucks.” and he said “I believe you can do it de, I know you can. Jiayous okay!” I'm like.... wow. same rhn. My insides melt T^T I hope that even when I low-key try for him rn, he’ll se the effort and it’ll reciprocate. Like I really want him to know I mean no harm and I genuinely love(d) him. :-)

Ryan, you’re so confusing. Few days back we were having on/off cold wars and now we’re fine and you seem like you care more. I’m not sure, when I want to give up, you’re putting in effort. Then when we get too used to it, things change, you start going back to the old you and I get annoyed and it’s just a vicious cycle. Your birthday’s coming, I’m still considering whether to end the friendship or not actually. I really hope you really do care and you’re not like what SS/Hershey said. Sigh, can you... show a bit so that I can tell my friends what I truly mean when you care? :( I really like you, too much man.