#update2013

I can't pin point what I want to do. My mind paints an incomplete sketch of an idea of where i could take my life. But nothing is clear.  I wouldn't say I'm waiting for something to just appear,but maybe rather point me in the right direction. My main focus is to be comfortable and happy. Current job, doesn't give me the pleasure of satisfaction. As much money as i can make , and take from strangers...at the end of the day...i feel drained ...and low..&lower. I live comfortably though. I suppose that's nice. But i want more than whats in front of me, and that has nothing to do with money. Until something shifts, I will continue lying to my body & part-mind of mine...that i need this bullshit.