#unluving

" baby , baby , baby . . . you thought you could replace me with her ? did she even do it for you like me ? ─── when you were inside her , did she make it feel like i do ? "

« fucking my bandmate and best friend is a pretty funny way of saying that you miss me . forgive me for not taking the very obvious hint of affection -- my mistake . » / @unluving ♡

     “ .. ––- i'm not being a brat , i just don't want to talk about it anymore . we're going in circles , it's pointless . ”

“  i  don’t  owe  you  shit .  ”

« i just don't get it -- why is it that first you break up with me , but then decide to make it nearly impossible for me to move on ? you've made it very clear that you don't want to be with me , so the least you can do is to leave me alone . » / @unluving ♡

     “ .. –– maybe i've got an attitude because i don't want you to leave . you just seem so eager to get back to him . ”

space     ———     she'd     done     everything     in     her     power     to     create     it     ,     maintain     it     ,     thrive     from     it     .     yet     ,     radio     silence     had     turned     out     to     be     anything     but     peaceful     ,     instead     a     haunting     and     painfully     obvious     reminder     of     the     ache     in     her     heart     that     became     more     and     more     impossible     to     ignore     by     the     hour     ,     the     same     ache     that     had     brought     her     to     his     doorsteps     that     very     night     and     with     the     pathetic     realization     that     she     was     willing     to     sacrifice     whatever     remaining     ounce     of     dignity     left     for     even     just     a     speck     of     his     attention     .     « hi     , »     embarrassment     makes     itself     known     in     the     way     cheeks     flushes     pink     as     she     looks     up     at     him     ,     « i     know     what     i     said     ,     i     just     . . . . .     can     we     forget     about     that     stuff     ———     just     for     tonight     ? » / @unluving ♡ .

« yeah     ,     okay     . . . fine , »     he     shrugs     as     if     they're     engaging     in     mere     idle     small     talk     ,     « we     fucked     . »     finally     gives     in     ,     admission     of     the     truth     tumbling     from     his     lips     ,     for     the     first     time     speaking     of     night     spent     with     her     friend     .     « it     wasn't     planned     ,     and     despite     what     i'm     sure you     believe     ,     i     didn't     do     it     to     piss     you     off     ,     but     yeah     . . . . .     it     happened     . »     speaks     in     partial     truths     ;     despite     not     motivated     by     the     need     for     vengeance     ,     he     had     at     least     hoped     that     such     act     would     make     it     hurt     less     ,     though     to     his     big     disappointment     it     had     left     him     feeling     emptier     than     to     begin     with     .     still     ,     can't     help     but     rub     it     in     to     prompt     a     reaction     now     .     « doesn't     feel     so     good     ,     now     ,     does     it     ? » / @unluving ♡ .