#unknown drive

The best part about online dating is you have a much wider range of kinds of people to choose from. Drive isn’t like anyone I’ve ever met in school. He likes the same things as me. We both use Tumblr. Elsword is how we met. We’re huge space ninja nerds. No one I ever met in person was like that, so you’re more likely to meet someone very similar to you if you met them online via similar interests.

At the same time, it sucks. I’m never able to give him the physical contact he needs when he’s feeling really upset, and he can’t do the same for me. We can’t kiss each other or lean on each other or hold each other. I think most humans have a need for physical contact..? And it sucks not having that. My family sucks and I can’t hug them. I’m deprived of it.

Generally feeling, it’s great, and I’ll take the bad with the good. Considering I get to be with someone who shares so many interests and moral standings as me (and I can’t get that with someone in my city), I’ll take the distance any day.

We’re pretty lucky, actually. He lives 8 hours away from me, so it’s a short trip. (The problem is we just can’t afford it.) There are people dating from across the globe who have been together for maybe 4 years and haven’t met yet because it’s just so expensive.

The upside to living so far apart… when you see each other for the first time, you’ll experience a sort of euphoria that you’ll never experience dating someone that you can see every day. Couples who get to see each other every day, well… I don’t think you scream each other’s name and make a dash to hug them every time you see them.

Not everyone can handle the pain of being so far apart. Drive and I make it work. We do calls every day and we talk on the phone while we’re sitting in bed. Sometimes we fall asleep on the phone. Sometimes I’ll randomly start crying because it sucks that we can’t lie next to each other.

That’s lucky too, because there are people who will go days or weeks or months without hearing from their lover across the globe. Extreme props to them, because I don’t think I could handle it. Drive and I talk every day…