#udhay

`கண்ணே கலைமானே’ படத்தைப் பார்த்து கண் கலங்கிய விஜய் சேதுபதி!

சென்னை: கண்ணே கலைமானே படத்தைப்பார்த்துவிட்டு நடிகர் விஜய் சேதுபதி கண்கலங்கியுள்ளார்.

`தென்மேற்கு பருவகாற்று’ படத்தில் விஜய் சேதுபதியை ஹீரோவாக அறிமுகப்படுத்தியவர் இயக்குநர் சீனு ராமசாமி. இவர் விஜய் சேதுபதியை வைத்து `மாமனிதன்’ படத்தையும் எடுத்து வருகிறார். இப்படத்துக்கு யுவன்ஷங்கர் ராஜா இசையமைக்கிறார். அவரே தயாரிக்கிறார்.

தேனியில் பரபரப்பாகப் படத்தின் ஷூட்டிங் நடக்கிறது. இதற்கிடையில் சீனு…

Mary,

For my entire life, I have been broken. The light you saw in me, were mere reflections from the broken pieces of glass that used to be me. I didn’t really get to tell you any of this because you would always make it a pissing contest when talking about families, but I was severely abused as a child: emotionally, mentally, and physically. I would be beaten severely for getting anything under a 3.7 or even returning library books late. Yes, my “parents” were my fiscal backers my entire life, but I never really had parents. I never really had a family. You were at least ignored. Not only was I ignored, but I was abused and denied any sense of autonomy. None if this is meant as a comparison or competition of who’s life is shittier, but it is meant to be a window into my person. I am trying to explain to you why you met the man you met, instead of the man I wanted to be. I realize now that I met you because I needed to start down the path of self-healing and self-love, ironically for the first time in my 23 year old life. I will write to you in my blog more, but I just wanted to apologize sincerely. You will never see this, but I just want it to be out there, that I am beyond sorry for who I was. I didn’t want to have an unhealthy relationship, but I was afraid of being alone. I was afraid of doing the hard work I had to do on my own, because I never cared about myself. I only cared about other people, which is good, except if you don’t care about yourself too. Everything in life will be a balancing act, and I’ve been too extreme. I need to take time to be alone, so I can learn to actually care about myself, instead of doing things to please my parents or society. After that, I must learn to integrate other people around my own goals, because nothing in life really matters aside from relationships with others and the relationship with the self. I was a lier because I didn’t feel like I deserved to be with you and needed to make up stories to boost myself confidence. I was the psychotic, clingy, idiot after our breakup because my ego was shattered and I was afraid of being alone, aside from being emotionally distraught. I wasn’t able to handle my emotions well at all, to the point where everything in me was extremely clouded. I hope you know that I do love you and am working on changing my greedy, romantic love to a love that wants nothing but your happiness and wishing you the best. I am bitter still, but I realize that I need to validate myself and love myself first. Although I’m glad you were able to learn these lessons while being in your relationship with Nick, honestly, I am bitter about that too. I understand I cannot control much of anything outside of myself, and truthfully, I probably shouldn’t be in a relationship for a long time. 

I’m sorry for hurting you through my psychosis and lies.

I love you, Mary.

❣ இந்த ஒரு நாள் வருமாஇல்லை ஒடிந்தே விழுமாஎன பல நாள் பல நாள் பாதி கனாவில் எழுந்தேன் தகுமா ❣