#tylerado

You know when your younger you look at yourself in the future doing things with your life. Having a steady job. Getting married having kids. Then when your finally about that age and you realize just how wrong you actually were. Everyone around me is moving on. Being succesful. Friends and family. Im 24 years old going on 25. I work a terrible job making even worse pay. I live in my moms basement. Single. I have nothing to show for. Everything i own is garbage. Including my 2 piece of shit cars. Then i look at my family. My cousins that the rest of my family are so proud of. My grandparents always tell me how well they are doing. They did this. They are doing that. Blah blah. Rub it in why dont you. They ask me what ive done. I tell then oh i did nothing. My friends... Oh man. I look at them all and realize man. Im a fucking loser. One of my friends works a good job. Has a wife a kid. And anything he wants he just happens to come across. My other good friend happens to be living his dream. Going off and being on a team with pro formula drift driver. Im super proud of him for going out and doing it. Then i have other friends who arent friends at all really. Just pieces of shit that keep me around to make fun of. And of course i happen to always give in and hang around them. Even after i tell myself i wont be around them cause they make me feel terrible. Its just everywhere i look i see people succeeding. While i sit in the same spot ive been since i turned 18. Everything i do to try to make myself feel better just bites me in the ass. Fuck! I understand none of you give a shit and none of this is event a big deal. But i needed to vent. End rant.