#twa labs!rainbow

AR:

Mark, before receiving his new glaive, would usually fiddle with sharp rocks and his bandages when lost in thought (in an attempt to ignore the urge to pick at his skin) - now, he's often stretching and practicing with his weapon, feeling useful for once, and making jokes like he always does - otherwise, he's usually wandering, taking in all the sights on his fantastic journey.

Azrael can usually be seen trying to spiffy himself up as best he can, of course much more hesitant about all.of this than the undead guard, trying to stick with the people he's known the longest and follow their lead (he's trying to take a bit of a break from advising tbh) - but when he's not freaking out over something, he can appreciate a bit of a breeze once in a while.

Janet and Bridgette (the old lady mentors) usually prefer to gossip between one another, but they (surprise surprise) are not just catty old women - if they're not sneaking in a few observational notes of their teammates, they're often sewing or knitting, slowly making blankets, bandages, and other fabric gear that might become necessary.

(New) Gemma, in the Spiritless World, honestly was going on a Princess Bride style adventure, getting into all sorts of hijinks and attacking anything that dares get in her way, when she's not biting shit she often is hiding in one of the forests, collecting food and the fungi - once reunited with her beloveds, she ofc is gonna take them on equally insane sidequests, but also with plenty of cuddles and calm too (she can't risk losing them so soon...)

Trapped:

Sabre, when he isn't overthinking, he likes to try to practice stuff, keeping to himself more than usual and just kind of....letting the moment wash over him, if he's not yapping with Galaxy or one of his friends - he likes keeping things quiet when he can - especially as he's struggling to come to terms with this new life of his.

Francis, though still uncomfortable with his...everything, does find some solace in dark caves, often being found napping against cold hard stone and examining the underground fauna and flora - rarely, he enjoys climbing up into trees to watch the stars, contemplating life and what it means to be alive when he's half-demon now.

Ivy, after waking up, is taught how to make flower crowns by Francis, becoming her new favorite thing - she especially loves making them with sunflowers - and though she's still confused by the...everything, she enjoys talking with the Steves and learning about their world and Sabre's adventures there.

Other:

Daycare Sabre, ironically, kind of enjoys ToT's adventures in Doors - they remind him of some of the spookier games the daycare would have, death impermanence and all - but he also just enjoys being a little shit to his temporary guardians, especially with the leftover glitter and materials Mal had given him - sometimes he just stomps and runs around with his little hooves kicking up dirt everywhere.

Labs!Rainbow loves to make flower crowns and gift stuff to friends, and also is deeply touch starved, so he finds himself often cuddled up with his nearest close friend when he gets tired and lonely - if he'd gotten to live a normal life, he would've had a flower shop he ran in his spare time as the hero.

Labs!Sabre/Assistant, truly, are only satisfied putting on grand, horrifically hilarious experiments and acts for their "viewers," the former having a laugh that only happens on camera, and the latter simply performing his duties as he was programmed, or so it would appear..

IGC just loves to travel through her created world, being able to guide people through something so mysterious that she understands like the back of her hand fulfills her so much - she'd do almost anything to keep going, in a way that she was never allowed to or capable of before....she hopes it will never end in bitter tears.

(Extra) Coconut the dog adores her owner IGC, but she loves eating sticks and rocks and pretty much anything she can get - she's obsessed with licking people's noses, ears, and toes, so she's quite a good distraction from anything and everything - she loves chewing on her stuffed panda bear in the dead of night.

Twisted Rainbow, SSO/BSS:

TR M is usually stitching and sewing, if he's not trying to keep an eye on Shadow and Sabre - but he also likes to carve while watching the sky (he's very very glad to be out of the Nightmare dimension, he missed seeing the stars) - having lived such an intense life, he's often trying to find busywork, but the quiet moments are something he still quietly savors.

TR Shadow Sabre, aka Elite, is much like M, being unsure what to do in peace, but he finds himself drawn to flowers, especially dandelions, as they remind him of the Yellow Steves that showed him mercy and kindness - though he's equally uncertain of caretaking, a small part of him finds a little fraction of pride as he sees Sabre and Shadow enjoying themselves and feeling safe around him.

SSO chicken!Purple usually yaps with pickaxe!Rainbow, Rain really being his only friend at first - but as he gets comfortable with the others, he likes to squawk randomly to bother them, then teleport away so they can't reach him - he's also deeply fascinated by Galaxy and is constantly asking him questions.

(New) BSS Blue is often thinking deeply about Rainbow no matter where he is - once finally out of hell, easily his favorite thing is to just dive into water, letting his gills and scales soak as he watches the sky above, but he also just loves to take a deep breath and not feel dizzy for once - once he gets comfortable, he most certainly will yap with Hypno and the Lights about his best friend.

(New) BSS Light doesn't have a clue about Rainbow, but he does like listening to Blue and the others yap about him - when he's alone, he often enjoys collecting flowers, even though they usually turn white after awhile.

(New) BSS Guardian is very similar to regular Guardian, but he has much closer ties to his mortal life as an Orange Steve - whenever he takes a kind soul in, he often carves into their skull (moreso spiritually than physically) the same ritual patterns, as to ensure their body and soul will both rest in peace - he finds himself drawn to the local spiders whenever he visits the mortal plane, being very gentle with the varying-sized creatures.

(New) BSS Demon is usually bothering people for entertainment, yes, but he also likes to carve things in his free time, reminding him of home, or coating his wings and horns in gold again, trying to cover up the nasty wounds he'd gained so long ago - rarely, he will attempt a small prayer and sacrifice to the gods he once sacrificed for in life - though, he doubts they hear him anymore.

RQ:

Swaploop!Rainbow, aka Sabow, once he starts to get used to his body, finds quite a bit of freedom in being able to fly and create on the dot, his favorite thing to build being small teal and orange cabins just left behind for any poor, lost soul, as an attempt to make up for all the people he'd hurt in his human life - he also likes making goofy feathery accessories for Oranbre.

Swaploop!Sabre, aka Oranbre, is just happy to see Sabow start to feel comfortable, he loves the goofy accessories his companion makes, but also enjoys bothering Gerald Steve with increasingly silly questions when bored, usually carving dumb stuff into trees when alone.

Swaploop!Gerald Steve obliges to answer the questions, which give him an opportunity to distract himself from the existential nightmare they're in at the moment - when he's alone, he usually is journaling or meditating, trying to keep his connection with his kin strong - they're often the one thing keeping him sane, sometimes.

(Extra) Leaf the dog, of course, is obsessed with rolling in leaf piles - but when that's not available, she chews on leaves and hides in bushes when she's not running around with Coconut or jumping in puddles - like her original owner, she can be a bit intense, but she's much nicer than RQ Elemental, (usually) not having any grudges.

TSS:

Galaxy, having no physical body, usually is just yapping and making jokes, oftentimes trying to get Sabre out of his own head - though he does tease and goof around with the others, he is genuinely a very solid advice-giver and quite helpful to Sabre's practicing of Minecraft life (especially when it comes to cooking delicious meals).

Stone!Shadow Sabre truly isn't that aware of many things, but he knows one thing: that the people that found him are worth sticking around - he learned to laugh from D!Sabre, how to control his powers and stress from Elite, how to keep his balance and understand language from M - and while he might not know the word for it, he's so so very grateful for them.

Pickaxe!Rainbow, naturally, enjoys bothering and yelling at Galaxy/Sabre for not hurrying up and fixing him, but he does also try to help them in what little ways he can, usually involving biting or whacking shit and just yapping to get Sabre's mind off stuff - he likes hanging out with Chicken Purple and recounting his adventures, and exploring flower fields - he's just glad they're not stuck with Brain fried!Purple.

Guardian, of course, likes cuddling with his friends, finding freedom in his flights - in addition to his BSS counterpart's interests, he would often be seen chatting with some of the more "morally gray" spirits, making sure they're doing okay - with the rest of the team, he often tries his best to listen to what's on their mind, and much like Mark, take in all the sights.

Time's love language is cooking, easily, and it shows with the role he's taken on in the team, but he also enjoys making little gear-based gadgets and gathering new culinary materials to test out - experimenting with cooking is easily his favorite pastime.

Illusion, of course, sticks to being on his own, but he does take great pleasure in being able to show off a little, especially when it's something he created with no relation to anybody else - he obviously likes to complain a lot, and will grumble about being forced into this adventure, but he secretly appreciates that this team isn't actively grinding him into dust with how annoying they are.

Hypno obviously loves to freak out and annoy people, especially the ladies, but he does try to make some semblance of friends, for Rainbow's sake, even if it's usually through mutual pettiness and other such activities - he genuinely enjoys Zero's presence, both as a partner in crime and just as a person - when the two of them aren't scheming, he's often thinking ahead of everyone or thinking of Rainbow, as to be expected.

Fax!Light, being in such a weak state, usually spends most of his time sleeping, so he likes to cuddle - but when he does have the energy, he likes making flower crowns or writing to communicate (though his handwriting is messier than usual), he also doesn't actually mind Hypno all that much, enjoying being able to communicate through his mind reading about Rainbow.

Emerald, nowadays, spends his time carefully examining samples of the local flora and fauna, trying to understand the universe-mixing through the soil - when he isn't halfway to insanity or working, he's usually just sitting quietly on the sandy hills, unable to really calm his thoughts otherwise.

SL:

Ocean Leader, once things settled down (and when he's not getting sent to random places-) finds some peace in resting in a pond a bit away from the kingdoms, where he can take a deep breath and watch the stars without interruption - in his kingdom, when not helping about, he likes to spend his time caring for the local fish and corals.

AR:

Mark is terrified of not being accepted at Cozen, or, more specifically, by Petro, for being well...undead. Even if Azrael manages to pull some strings for him, he feels he doesnt deserve his forgiveness due to him being the reason Azzy was imprisoned. He's terrified he's not human anymore, and that he'll never get his old life back. He's desperate to protect and "fix" Petro, but he doesn't know what to do with his complicated feelings for him and his complicated thoughts on his own humanity. He doesn't know if he's enough anymore for anyone but the worms in the dirt...

Azrael is easily the most terrified of losing everything, especially when he found Cozen had been...relocated. Especially with the death of Elric years after Gemma's assassination, he fears he'll lose himself in this strange new world, become something he's not just to survive, letting go of rules and prim and proper style and such. He feels the weight of the entire kingdom on his shoulders, and yet too little to even care properly for himself.. He fears he failed them all, and there's nothing left to return to, and even if so, he'll just lose them again.

Janet and Bridgette (the old lady mentors) are struggling to control things and feel at peace. Their ornery personalities are exaggerated by the intense strangeness of TWA, and they keep finding themselves pushing away others. They know full well they're dead weight; most people are unwilling to stick around someone like them. But they're still trying to just make it out alive with however many years they have left, and they aren't too sure how to change to ensure that. If Azzy and Mark are scared of changing too much, these two are terrified they will be unable to, and get left behind for good...

Trapped:

I've discussed Sabre enough. We're doing the others now! :)

Francis is very similar to Mark, in that he's not quite sure how much of his humanity is left. He wanted to collect that demon bounty to make money to feed his wife and son (in my headcanon at least), and how is he supposed to do that now? He neither knows WHERE home is, nor if they'll accept him, and he can't help but feel he's already died and come back wrong (even though he never has - he's very much alive from the start). He feels both weak in his clumsiness and too dangerous to be around, having innate instincts and abilities he doesn't understand or want.

Ivy, once she wakes from her statue-NPC state, is deeply concerned for everyone's well-being - but as Sabre gets worse, she gets more worried. She's just a normal woman, not any stronger, and she has never practiced these survival skills she needs. How is she supposed to fix and comfort her friends if she doesn't know how? Much later on, when she learns she was programmed specifically to help Sabre, her feelings are.....complicated. Her loyalty stays, and she can't help but wonder if Sabre is right when he mourns for her freedom...does she have free will at all? Or are these thoughts of affectionate worry not her own?

Non RQ/TSS/SL:

Daycare Sabre is just a young kid that goes to a daycare with some silly magic, he's not used to high stakes. He's just a scared kid, maybe 7-10 years old max, and he doesn't understand why he can't go home, why the magic corrupted and...sent him here. Why it caused him to stay as a centaur, it was never supposed to be permanent! Life has become deeply confusing, and he's just trying to find a little comfort in this terrifying world.

TR M was apathetic by the time the end of his world came about, injured and exhausted in every way. But he's alive, and he's stuck with his former enemy, again, at what seems to be a different end of the world as they know it. He's only about 18, and his life has already been so rough... sometimes, he wishes he did die. Those thoughts terrify him, because...he might just have a second chance, and he doesn't want to destroy it, no matter how exhausting and weird it is. He desperately wants to find Assistant/Prof. Red, at least...He feels like a wilted flower, trying to desperately reach the nutrients left in the soil, meager as it is.

TR Shadow Sabre thought he lost everything, all the attempts at being better, at somehow trying to fix his horrible deeds and mistakes, and he's genuinely surprised to be alive. Due to being the only mostly-functional person of his group, despite his injuries, he's unsure how to protect and care for people. He's trying not to hurt them, but that was all he'd known for a long time...He didn't even know he WAS Sabre's shadow until the last moments before death. He can't help but feel intense guilt and self-hate, and fears he will become so clouded by it he'll become a monster again...

Labs!Rainbow is terrified of forever being the strange critter he's become, permanently scarred and unable to grow beyond his trauma. Because he was freshly created, he can't help but feel like he's already been denied his own life for something he never asked for. With his bitey tendencies, he's terrified of somehow, some way, accidentally becoming just like those that did this to him... he feels like an empty shell that doesn't even resemble the person he was going to be one day.

Labs!Sabre did not know it could be so horrifying, or in fact, that Rainbow was conscious in the process. He knows exactly what he did. But at the same time, he feels coerced by...almost a force possessing him. His actions are his own, but...there are horrible visions and ideas inserted into his mind. He can't help but wonder if Assistant Steve is behind this, and if there's really anything behind the cameras but some sort of empty viscera. Something untangible, that isn't the good people, the viewers he thought he was doing ALL of this for. ...is he really a monster? A puppet for something greater? Is this laugh his own? He will likely never find the answer, not before the consequences catch up to him... So, he'll just laugh and laugh, until he can finally succumb to whatever it is that he's become.

And IGC? She just hopes no one finds out this freakish world is her comfort space, that she created intentionally to be the way it is. She yearns to create a life for herself that she wants to live, hurt when she chooses, instead of having no control over it. She's been lying this whole time, and yet, she'll probably drop the disguise if she must. She does not know that part very well...

SSO chicken!Purple is deeply confused by everything, and has no idea what to do when he's in such a fragile chicken body now. He's not sure if he can use his powers, much less protect his weird new friends, and keep Rainbow safe when he, too, has become incapacitated as a pickaxe... All in all, he feels useless and stupid for trusting Prof. Red with the potion and he doesn't trust Sabre or really any of Rainbow's friends much, especially upon learning Rain is from the future. He's scared that he'll just up and vanish again for years, not noticed or missed, being too small to be worth anything.

RQ:

Swaploop!Rainbow, aka Sabow, is having a 24/7 identity crisis living in a body that isn't his. He was sent into the timeloop by Time Steve, and the solution was in trusting Gerald. And he did, he did escape! But then he went on to witness his Rainbow die....only to wind up HERE, back in this....almost uncanny version of his friend. Is this cosmic justice for it all? To become the very person he mourns for, with his "real" self having his friend's voice? He's frankly on the verge of a delusional breakdown, unable to tell what is and isn't reality. Thanks to him being more bird-looking than dragon-like, he feels like an imposter, and fears this is what RQ Orange himself had gone through, and he is so so very afraid of becoming the same - having his life taken by Void after trying to become normal, become...not Rainbow. Anyone but The Hero, Rainbow Steve.

Swaploop!Sabre, aka Oranbre, is just regular ass RQ Sabre. He didn't know about the timeloop, nor saw his Rainbow die, and everything was...normal, until it wasn't. Suddenly, Rainbow isn't Rainbow, but a version of himself, with complicated, messy feelings and experiences. He doesn't know how to handle any of this information. He misses his Rainbow, but he can't help but feel like he has to make himself smaller for his poor friend, trying to make up for something he can't control (being reminiscent of regular Orange Steve). He refuses to leave Sabow's side, but he's so overwhelmed and so scared he WILL lose his friend, completely and totally, if he doesn't try.

Swaploop!Gerald Steve is very much like SL Judge, existing to keep the timelines in order and such. His entire race exists for that purpose, himself being the first. When he arrives in TWA and finds the swaploop duo, he quickly realizes....there is no way to fix this. He can't fix their fates, none of them are able to be set on track now, and despite all his efforts, he feels now as helpless as everyone else, even with his fellow Gerald Steves, there's nothing that can be repaired, just...adjusted. To maybe learn to survive like this, in a perpetual state of chaos...

TSS:

I've already told you Galaxy's, but I'll post his excerpt here for everyone else. Galaxy's main two fears both have to do with him being labeled "the funny one." If he's not joking, making the situation lighter, being a warm presence, what is he? And if being the silly one makes everyone annoyed, if he's too much, then how can he be a person at all? His fear shows up as being physically and vocally Void Steve, his voice and presence being distorted and cold. Sometimes his real voice comes back, but it's too loud. What little he has left of himself physically is dreary and quiet, or too loud and bright. His body is thin, his hair messy and tangled, he can't think of jokes anymore.

Stone!Shadow Sabre is barely a conscious being and doesn't quite know anything at all but his instincts. Easily, he's the most terrified of any version of Sabre, but TSS Sabre he hates the most. If only, because he feels compelled to mimic them... In the time he's been alone in the nightmare dimension, he started to become a person. He desperately doesn't want to lose it, even though he barely understands what it is. All he knows, is he wants to be something else. His inability to speak, or, frankly, to communicate or understand others at all, makes it incredibly difficult for him to bloom into an actual person. He needs practice, but at the same time, he can't help but feel he should be alone...but he also doesn't want to be alone...He's clung onto TR Shadow in an attempt to mimic someone other than Sabre.

Pickaxe!Rainbow is incredibly angry with Sabre for his sheer inability to fix his current state, but he's also uncomfortable with how weak he is. His old friend Purple barely recognizes him, and with Sabre/Galaxy's...everything, it's so hard to feel like he'll ever be the same hero he once was. He doesn't want to become a tool, meant to attack and fix rather than to speak and hurt. He's pissed at Sabre, yes, but he can also see how genuinely horrified he is, and so he's also furious with the universe too. He's terrified of being perceived as a useless object, something whose screams of refusal are unheard.

Guardian had spent a week in TWA alone, combing over empty ruins. He is also currently being forced to confront his worst fear as it is - the fact that BSS Demon Steve scarred him forever (I'll DM you the images heheh). Because of all his failures to protect and warn in the past (BSS Blue and Light getting got by Demon, the spirit world's ruin bc of the infection, Sabre not listening to his warnings) he feels very useless, and the reason he hides beneath a cloak is largely bc of Demon's effects, and his own shame. He tends to spread himself thin in overcompensation, repeating this cycle...if only he could see his very presence is enough sometimes.

Time severely misses his family, and their influence is in his every action - his every attempt to comfort and protect. He's the group's cook, making delicious meals out of strange things, following in his dad's footsteps. He's trying to be kind to Illusion, because he reminds him so much of El in his later mindset, after...Memory and Void had destroyed his sense of peace. In many ways, he's quietly haunted by his family, by Void and Memory, by his past. But he is determined to give the group a baseline sense of normalcy and comfort, to do the little things they can't do. But can he keep up with the demand...? A broken clock is only right twice a day, after all.

Illusion just wants his freedom, to try to become his own person and get away from everything he once knew. Much like Stone!Shabre, he doesn't want to become a puppet for someone else's will. He's essentially a 20-something trying to heal after horrid teenage years spent doing things under his parents' choices, and frankly, he only regrets trying to escape the server, because he's still traumatized from that. In his nightmares, he can feel his body vanishing, Sabre taunting him from his failures, Galaxy's nonsensical words becoming truth, forced to conform to their wills... He doesn't have the energy to placate others anymore, he just wants answers to why he has to keep going, why he can't just LIVE, and he receives none.

Hypno is very confident in himself, especially after learning so much from other variants of himself. His greatest goal is to return to the afterlife, hand in hand with Rainbow. Even with all of his power, he can't parse through the massive, strange world around him to find Rain, and he's refusing to let go of an ounce of confidence that he's out there somewhere.. He is unapologetic in his unusual personality and body, but he is indeed trying to protect those he knows. The only thing is, that IGC seems....odd...she knows something, doesn't she...?

Fax!Light can't help but feel fundamentally broken, which...he kind of is. His core code is incompatible with an old version of his body, making his body's weak state worse. When he heard Hypno was looking for Rainbow, he refused to stay behind, even as his body is in ruins - he MUST find his brother. It might be the only thing that saves him... Due to how his "sickness" works, he's having essentially seizures as he glitches out, his voice backwards and too loud.. In his own way, he feels a severe disconnect from his healthy form and now, and can't help but wonder if it's indefinite - will he one day just fade completely...?

Emerald is just trying to get by, and understand this strange world. When the others welcomed themselves into his home, he felt utterly betrayed and unsafe in his own place (which he was, because Hypno shoved him down the stairs and broke him twice). Though a couple people were a little nicer to him, it made him realize just how alone he really is - his homeworld is decimated, the universe as he knew it is gone, replaced with something....unusual. He's now struggling to come to terms with his insane state of mind and all that he's sacrificed.

SL:

Ocean Leader's anxieties were confirmed by Void's Biome-wide extinction event. If things get too quiet, he swears he can feel Dread's infection creep up into his eyes, the darkness' cold tendrils leaching every drop of water from his body... Being so young, he feels like he's seen centuries of despair - and it doesn't help that the Ocean/Winter kingdoms are merged now. The cold water mimics their deaths in the opposite effect, cold so extreme it burns and dries their lungs out. His lack of confidence makes it so difficult to know what's best, and he frankly was horrified by the idea of lava-based water heaters...But he tried to trust the group, and trust himself. He's scared a lot of the time, and worries that his own doubt killed his people.

My body was dragged along like a corpse, but my eyes were practically glued open.

I was barely conscious; everything flew past me in a blur. My now TWO fused friends pulled me away, desperately, from the lab which shall surely haunt us all.

All I can remember now from that time was nausea and a weight on my chest and searing pain at every joint.

The sight of Him standing over me, victorious.

A gray mass suddenly flung at Him. Shouts of panic.

Two glowing red eyes in an orange metal shell staring me down.

It stood eerily still, as if aware we would one day return..

The motion sickness from a magic-induced sprint, the taste and feeling of blood that wasn't my own.

More shouting.

Hair pulling.

I remember his gloves were slick and smooth against my skin.

Like a rubbery snake trying to recapture its prey, the smell and that grip of his will never leave my mind.

Somehow, we found her. Or, she found us. Ivy caught us just as their powers waned. Her soft, naturally perfumed hands were such a relief from the cold, harsh touch of the lab members, it brought tears to my eyes.

...

The stairs were a death trap, to say the least.

I remember Him yelling angrily as He freed Himself from the stone.

Vines, a tail, an arm saving me from falls, even chunks of stone were used while trying to get us three to safety.

It was slow, dangerous. But we got to the bottom.

She pulled me closer, even as I looked like an utter freak of nature (or some kind of horror entity, if you think about it...eugh.) I was still too out of it to remember anything more than her sky blue dress and fiery auburn hair, so I'm writing this with the additions of the others.

"S-Sabre-! How...o-oh my god..."

"He's not re-responding Ivy, he- we- barely g-got out a-alive-!"

I was still completely out of it, too weak to do anything but hold onto her. A prisoner in my own body.

"Th-the others are just o-over here, ho-hold on-!"

"I atta-attacked that S-Sabre, he's at...at least in-injured n-now..."

"G-good..Sabre, st-stay with me please!"

I....guess it's best if I do explain it now, before things escalate. Despite how little I'd like to, it....just won't make sense otherwise. And you deserve the complete and total truth from me, my Sky People.

...

Well, here goes.

When Victor used the dismemberment machine on me, it did not properly separate me and Galaxy. Instead, it...further separated him into the body parts that were visible on me. The two halves of my arms were separate pieces.

The....easily the worst part, though, was that our faces were...ripped apart.

My head, of course, was mostly intact.

Galaxy was....unlucky, to say the least.

...

God, I wish I stopped Him. I wish none of this happened, not just for my sake but for Rainbow and Galaxy. I of course was able to keep.......most of myself intact. They......they weren't...

I regret that fact every day.

No one, none of my friends, not even my enemies, deserve to live like that. Only a face, just a...FUCKING pickaxe, I...God, why did I do it THREE whole times...??!

Anyways....off-track there, sorry.

Thankfully, I think the machine caused Galaxy to pass out, as when we were in the chest, he was totally unconscious. ....I think the second worst part was that his antenna had been ripped off of my forehead, and it was just.....just LAYING there, softly glowing like a child's toy wand.

He..Galaxy looked totally dead. If I still had vocal chords at the time, I would've screamed.

Instead, just...just like Rainbow, I was paralyzed. Forced to witness as Rainbow, restrained by Assistant Steve, was fused with my left arm.

I don't think I can ever forgive myself for failing to protect him, for letting them use him AGAIN...

God, you don't want to know what the screams were like. The pain that HE was probably in, far more than me. I was...just the peddler, the inspiration for the torture.

...

It feels like it was designed to torture him specifically. To be reduced to an arm....God, I'm so sorry.

Well....

Yeah.

The thing about all of this, was...what Victor managed to accomplish. To reveal.

When they fused the rest of me, and Galaxy, back together, Victor changed me irreparably.

Previously, I'd been barely scraping by with blending in and looking "normal" to all my...Minecraft friends. The NPCs, Steves, everyone. Apparently, I looked almost like I was supposed to, being...blocky and all. But things had been changing leading up to that day, and I was...starting to become a bit uncanny.

My proportions were off, my eyes...eugh, God, my eyes were uncomfortable to look at even to me. That's what I...meant by the horror entity comment. Victor took all of that, and turned it up to 100.

...

It affected Gal and Rain too. Made them barely recognizable, especially with all the teeth..God, I know I keep repeating it, but FUCK, THEY DON'T DESERVE THIS! I know I DO, but THEY don't!

But uh.....yeah.

It basically made me into a full-on, legit, real, ACTUAL human being stuck inside of Minecraft. Everything, everything that was in the real world on Earth, was possible and real and happening to me, with none of the resources or care.

And I do mean everything, yes even that one thing you might be thinking about. It was...embarrassing, horrifying to everyone including me, and deeply DEEPLY uncomfortable. And boy oh boy, did it only get worse the longer we were stuck like that!

...After Labs!Sabre and Assistant, alongside Victor, came to us and forced me to try giving myself up to save the others...They didn't keep their word. They snooped around and kidnapped Labs!Rainbow alongside myself (and Galaxy).

Then those...fucking assholes of my own making shoved me into the machine, Victor running the whole grotesque show. Apparently, Rainbow was the key to our miraculous escape, with him attacking that evil, evil version of me with amazing velocity and precision.

Wish I was aware enough to describe it better, honestly.

Galaxy, somehow, was able to encase Victor in cobblestone. AND then managed to use his powers to basically move me like a puppet, which is insane and I'm so glad he's on my side despite everything. Between the two of them, they were able to maneuver me into escaping that awful, dreadful lab.

...

And so, we return back with Ivy, taking us to the others. And where I made the first embarrassing and disgusting mistake of many, riiiiiiight in front of everybody.

Their gasps were audible even to me, as I dry-heaved in Ivy's arms, my senses starting to come to me in all the worst ways.

"I-Is...that....Sabre....?"

"Yes-! He's...not very a-awake right now, b-but..."I was suddenly VERY aware of what was happening. The way everyone stared at me...I couldn't help it anymore. I started sobbing, still woozy and delirious after having been literally ripped to pieces and reformed.

"S-Sabre-?!"

"I-I think he's crying now... :("

Ivy brought us under a tree, trying her best to comfort me. I blubbered delirious nonsense and apologies, grabbing at my face with my remaining hand.

...I think everyone except her was incredibly grossed out. My face was covered in runny, goopy mucus and dirty tears, scrunching up into a grimace, the way my eyes saw nothing and everything at the same time.... They swear they weren't, but...I felt it. I don't blame them, it's......not a pretty sight.

Yeah! So basically everything's fucked and I'm pretty sure death is coming for all of us!

But that wasn't my first mistake. At least, not the worst. That came next, once my body started sending a million signals of distress to my brain.

...

See, the thing about fusion, especially with me of all people, is that it's very...permanent. It doesn't just slap some googly eyes down and call it a day. Nope, it very much totally alters my body, right down to the damn skeleton.

Which is to say, I've recently learned that there's now a very small, featureless skull right next to my heart. Rainbow's brain is just...inside a ball of bone, with his whole eye nerves or whateverthefuck being the only thing keeping his eye from popping out of my shoulder.

Which! By the way! Is apparently incredibly dangerous due to the arm being able to rotate freely! So this WHOLE TIME HE COULD'VE GONE FUCKING BLIND! Awesome, awesome, totally fine!

...

And with that information now permanently beamed into your brain, let's talk about how I fucking vomited and made myself look like a total fool.

So I'm sitting there, half curled up in Ivy's lap spouting absolute nonsense, when a stabbing pain shot through my head. All I can do is whimper as I rub my eyes, which makes it worse.

And I've already made a mess of myself, but I sink deeper into her lap, rubbing my head against her like a gross cat. Galaxy is feeling the headache coming on too now, but unlike me he can actually use his words like a real person. The longer we're laying there, the worse the pain gets, traveling into my jaw which absolutely cannot hold all of Galaxy's teeth.

By this point, there's this jolt of energy that keeps on telling me to get up, but it just makes me restless thanks to the Pain and Suffering™. But every time I move, there's a sensation of a burning liquid coming up my throat, making my stomach churn. But I'm sweating like crazy, so I need to get water in me somehow, but the one time I managed to sip a water bottle I immediately choked which made Everything Worse.

I'm already weak as shit, can barely sit up on my own, and now I'm overheating like crazy. Ivy rubs my head, realizing just how much I'm burning up. I just whine like an idiot, my eyes fully shut because everything makes me dizzy. Because of course it does.

Every inch of my body felt both dry and sticky, a sensation I did not know was possible but is somehow the worst thing I've ever felt because it just. Won't. Leave!

Rainbow is suffering from this too, and now all our joints are stiff and tense and everything started feeling far away again. I turned the wrong way, and-

"Hrkkk-!"

I suddenly sat up, crawling a tiny bit away from Ivy, holding my mouth shut.

"R-Rin, close..mmmth-"

He did as told. Kneeled over, Rainbow probably holding most of my weight up by the arm, I proceeded to vomit.

Loudly. And. Wetly.

I was so shaky, I nearly tipped over into it, if Ivy hadn't grabbed me.

Now, this time I can confirm no one lied about not being grossed out by this. Even Ivy, and again, I don't blame 'em.

Eugh...

After another I don't know how long, pretty much just laying listlessly like...a foot away from the muck, I suddenly was able to speak again. Weakly, I asked for them to start moving.

"What?! But- Sabre, you're-"

"We n-need to run, be-before they find us..."

A short debate ensued, which I wasn't part of because I was practically a haunted doll of a person. It didn't take long for them to agree with me. And so I was put on the Overseer's back and we were back on the move again, trying to get as far away from the lab as possible. The huge hills surrounding the place made progress slow, but we somehow weren't caught.

...

I hope you know that since then, this scenario has played out several more times. Not...okay, really just the feeling sick portion.

Thankfully I have not vomited since then, though..uh... It coming out the other end is not any more pleasant, if you catch my drift.

Mostly it happens when I'm alone, which..is definitely less awkward, which is great. But also not, because....yeah. It's exhausting, goddamn..