#tw?

ZARA McDermott and Louis Tomlinson have been pictured looking loved up as they held hands on their Californian holiday. The couple - whose relationship is going from strength to strength - were spotted on a romantic stroll in Malibu. [...] Looking happy and relaxed in each other's company, Zara and Louis wore casual clothes to head to Soho Beach House where they enjoyed a late lunch by the ocean. The twosome looked deep in conversation as they shared a laugh and sweetly walked hand in hand together.

I disappoint everyone 

I never fulfill expectations 

And the problem is that I’m seemingly selfish but I’m not even happy

I’m not happy with what I am

What I do

How I do it

I’m not satisfied with any results that I get because I thrive for an approval and validation that I never get

I crave for someone to say they’re  proud of me and mean it

For someone to say I’m enough 

I yearn for a time where for once i could be seen for who I am and not who I could be

I’m sick of being told I have potential 

Because having potential means you’re never enough 

It means you could never be “the best”

People say I’m “imperfectly perfect” but i can never see the perfect part of it all

I only see what’s broken so maybe I am the issue 

People claim they love me so why do I feel so god damn unlovable?

Is it egoistic to run from my feelings?

Is it unfair to people that u cannot accept their kindness?

Is it arrogant to not show them my true self?

Is it selfish to try to please everybody around so badly that I only end up disappointing them?

Is it selfish that I’m not happy?

Is it ungrateful that I’m sad?

Is not having only positive feelings so bad that I have to be punished for it?

Does feeling good about being great at something make me a narcissist?