I love my body because she is so capable. She is strong and sturdy and she can do so many things. She can lift heavy packages for her friends and family. She can keep an even pace for endurance races. She can stand and move and dance and jump and walk up stairs. She can't always regulate temperature well, but we're working on that. She even looks pretty dad gum cute in some of those outfits that just ๐work๐, you know?
So, yeah, I do love my body, because she can do so many things and she's so very capable.
...but when the clothes come off? She feels too off-colored. Kinda splotchy and veiny...rolls in weird places, dips in other weird places...lines that COULD be considered elegant if they put in just a little bit more effort...asymmetrical. Not thin, not thicc, or even really thick. Just kinda....here?
And I often find myself worrying...could someone who I find attractive, funny, lovely, gorgeous, interesting...also somehow find all this appealing as well? Even if they could look past the things I worry about in my personality, in my intellect, could they find my body appealing or interesting?
Ugh... this is probably something a lot of people struggle with, I understand...but man...I think I'm feeling lonely and kinda scared. I love love so very much...but I want it.
I'm not saying this to fish for compliments... I'm just talking.
