Mac Millerâs death was a real turning point for Ariana Grande. In a strange way, it made her realize that she doesnât have her sh*t together either. She spent years trying to get Miller clean. She spent years trying to be his girlfriend and his caretaker at the same time.
And when she couldnât do it anymore, she jumped into another relationship with Pete Davidson. Sheâs always been in a relationship, and she didnât realize that was a problem until Millerâs death.
During an emotional interview with Vogue, Grande admitted she doesnât remember the months after Millerâs death. She was so drunk and so sad that she doesnât even really remembering recording the Thank U, Next album.
If Iâm completely honest, I donât remember those months of my life because I was (a) so drunk and (b) so sad. I donât really remember how it started or how it finished, or how all of a sudden there were 10 songs on the board. I think that this is the first album and also the first year of my life where Iâm realizing that I can no longer put off spending time with myself, just as me.
Iâve been booâd up my entire adult life. Iâve always had someone to say goodnight to. So âThank U, Nextâ was this moment of self-realization. It was this scary moment of âWow, you have to face all this stuff now. No more distractions. You have to heal all this shit.â
She called Miller the âbest person everâ during the interview and stated he didnât deserve to have the demons he had, âI was the glue for such a long time, and I found myself becoming . . . less and less sticky. The pieces just started to float away.â
After breaking up with Miller, Grande jumped into a relationship with Davidson. She admits it was an unrealistic relationship, but also says it was an amazing distractionâŚ
And then I met Pete, and it was an amazing distraction. It was frivolous and fun and insane and highly unrealistic, and I loved him, and I didnât know him. Iâm like an infant when it comes to real life and this old soul, been-around-the-block-a-million-times artist. I still donât trust myself with the life stuff.
Grande is working on herself and hopes to become a âstronger, amazing, fearless versionâ of herself soon. She said she needs to start putting in the work by actually going to therapy, which is something she has put off for too long.
