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There is something about you. I am always wanting your attention. Maybe because I am a women. But it is so hard to get you attention but when I get it I want it more then a couple hours. I hate spending nights by myself. We have a time zone difference so it is harder. When you go to bed I am still awake. He always seem to be working. When he is at home he throws his phone a side and he just forgets about me. I need your attention. My dear I need you more then ever. I just need your time. I don't like ten messages from you all day. I don't like how you forget about me. 

I'm not going to lie. I like these kinds of men. They are cute. Funny. Maybe I think that smartness is hot. Both ways. I pick them all the time. c; Oh hot. I don't care for the bad boy type I really don't really get attracted to the bad boy time at all. Maybe in my mind. I know they are going to leave me for someone better and I don't want that. 

Regret 

                                                       REGRET 

Perfection 

I realize that if you watch it on youtube or online. It nothing like the real thing. I love the feeling of being out there and watching fireworks. It is just breathtaking. I Love it with a passion. The smell. The sights. The sounds. c: Gah~! Excited.  

I always hated the feeling. Waiting for THAT guy to text or to call you back. I refused to wait for THAT guy to make the first move. For all that I know they don’t know how to use a phone right. c: But sadly I been waiting all day from 12 till now almost a full 6 hours. I believe I waited long enough. c: To damn bad that I no longer have his number D< and he has mine. FOR all that I know He didn’t find the note and here I am on tumblr talking about it and not doing anything about it. I hate the feeling that I am, yet again helpless. c:

i love the moment when I look back at what use to be and realize that he was something I never want to go back to anymore.  c; Pedo much!? It is okay I am thankful for what i have. and what I have is something You can never count up to be. ANd I promise that you will never be the guy that he was ever. I love him a tad too much to let him go. And the thing is I dont ted on on letting him slip though my fingers. I hate what you have became. I hate what you have turned in to. I stop caring about what you do with you life now a days. And I stop carring about how stupid you made me feel. Yet there is one more person that I can’t get out of my mind when I do. you just break my wall down again. Keep out of my dreams. Keep out of my life. You still care if you logged on to your second accout to wish me happy birthday. But I promise life is so much better now that you are gone. I just wish you were gone for good. I just wish that was the way life turned out to be. c: Can you promise never to come back if I promise to stop thinking about you. And you got to promise to forget about me too. c: Because I dont need you in my life anymore. I dont need to reget you everymoment I get you changed me . c: you made life easier