Missed Opportunity
I told my buddy the other night I'd go to a show with him. He had a VIP list, meaning free tickets and i said count me in. I really like this guy and want a closer relationship, and the distance makes that hard. Then today i feel so udderly crushed. I'm out of control with my emotions. Nothing caused it; nothing happened to make me feel this way. It's just my brain chemicals saying "YOU WILL SUFFER IN SADNESS" and i feel weak for giving in. I told him i couldn't make it but here's the thing I was HONEST about why. I told him my disorder was giving me a lot of trouble today. I didn't say "im not feeling well" or "im sick", like I do to so many ppl. I mean, they're both true statements as well but i decided I'm not going to hide my disorder anymore. I am sad that i wasnt strong enough today to push through it and tough it out but honestly, just making food for myself has been hard enough. The concert is at Danforth Music Hall and the band is Trust
