you had obligations to god, did you not? and you grew lackadaisical in them and apathetic about everything else, did you not? your apathy started to infect your obligations, that’s all you remember before hell. truly, you do not think you deserved what you received. apathy falls onto anyone whose job lasts eternities. hell wasn’t the place for you, so you escaped upon finding the first gateway in your path. in truth, you hold no ambitions for earth but it is better than suffering and better than laboring so you take it nonetheless.