#tsbu4

i opened my google doc today to keep writing part 4 of the space between us and i am already at 15k words. FIFTEEN THOUSAND WORDS. this is officially the longest chapter in the entire b-side series and i still have three scenes left to write 😭

also there is something very weird happening where every time i open the doc it starts getting blurry and i genuinely could not figure out why for like ten minutes

... it's because i keep crying

i open the document and i start writing and then it gets blurry and i have to stop and collect myself because these two people are doing things to me that i was not prepared for when i started this story and i created them so that says a lot

i hate them so much. i love them so much. both things are equally true at all times

the bad news is that because of tumblr's new word limit situation i'm probably going to have to cut the chapter at some point which i hate with my whole heart but what can you do 🍞😤

the good news is that what's in here is so warm and so real and so them and i genuinely cannot wait for you to read it

okay back to writing before the doc gets blurry again