#tripoems

a lifetime of memories

I am not the first taste of forever

but

I’m the one doing all this overthinking

While you’re just movin’ on

And While I’m here barely breathing counting each second that you’re gone

You’ve got your plans and you’ve got them

While I’m stuck in the past that promised the future

I lost the most important piece of myself

How to be me without you

When you don’t even need to learn

How to keep on keeping on

There was never a time when I thought I’d regret being tangled up in you

And even if the good times were gold

Now that gold is worth nothing but fleeting thoughts and time once passed and still

Now I don’t know how to be me without you

Now I don’t know how to see a tomorrow without you

Now I need to accept I was just a passing phase

I believed you thought that I was beautiful

Because the words that poured from your mouth spelt it out line by line

And the way you touched my skin -

Spoke endlessly how you loved every curve

The way your eyes would flow

And yet

I’ve come to learn that

Beauty is in the eye of beholder

And while you were proving that to me- you shed light in the end

That I was never beautiful