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“That’s atonement. Atoning isn’t about being a hero or even always doing what’s deemed the right thing, it’s just making sure you’re making up for the things you did.” She explained, she didn’t see herself as a hero, but she knew some did and that was fine she supposed. “I’m just trying to be a good person when I can and like I said, someone gave me a second chance once so.” She shrugged and smiled a little at him. “But thank you.” 

“With… me?” She blinked a little surprised by that. “Okay.” Still despite her surprise it made her smile softly. “But I’m not a hero.” He had been right, all those things he said to her before on the Helicarrier, he was so right in a way. She would never be able erase the stain, but she was trying to make up for it at least. “You want to wipe it out.” She used his words. “Atonement is a long, hard and endless road.”

“I know.” She gave his hand a small squeeze. “Anywhere you’d like to do that in particular?”

A more genuine, true smile slipped across the redhead’s lips as he decided to take up her suggestion. “We’ll need to figure out a last name as well for identification purposes and it might in time do you good to come up with multiple aliases.” She suggested and then laughed lightly realizing she had gone into work mode a bit. “Excuse me, I was thinking a little too much like a spy.”

“Hmm.” She thought a moment. Lucas was too obvious somehow to her. “What about Loren?” She suggest. “Kind of suits you.” 

“Well I picked the westernized or Americanized version of my actual name.” She explained. “My true name, it’s Natalia. Natasha means the same thing it does. You could pick something with the same first letter and amount of letters or whatever sounds good to you.”

“If you want.” She said with a shrug. “I sort of changed my name too, when I joined SHIELD.” 

“Well it’s a start.” She chuckled a bit and stuck her tongue right back out at him. “But in all seriousness consider this a new start? It’s easy to disappear on this planet for that reason, trust me.”