My life is filled with negativity.
My brain alone is enough to keep me miserable.. Let alone the addition of a job I hate, a family I cant get through to, being stuck in the wrong bodg and being bullied.. I need you to be my good.. Even when im at my worst.. Im starting to think you cant handle me. you over analyze everything. You take everything the wrong way and its impossible to keep you happy... youre so high strung now.. One of the things I fell in love with was how easy going you were.. You were so chill and not over bearing and not insecure.. It was easy to love you.. Its honestly like you turned into someone else entirely from stressing this whole tanya thing.. I love you.. That hasnt changed and never will change.. I just need you to chill.. I need you to relax and really take my mentality and feelings into account right now.. Im vulnerable.. Im broken.. And its like you dont even care.. You got angry at chase and threaten to do all this shit and when I sit and tried to open up, you just.. Get selfish with it.. Make it about you.. Like you think I lost site of you so youre making everything about you again and its not cute.. I got beat the fuck up on saturday.. No my mood isn't gonna be great for a minute.. Stop taking offense to it and maybe open yourears when im trying to talk to you.. Having been abused most of my life, this has fucked me more mentally than physically.. I need an easy going chill atmosphere.. Stop trying to fight with me... Stop over analyzing shit.. Let me be and deal , without rubbing it in my face..
