#trbinnyc

TRBinNYC - Airport - Fan Acc

TRBinNYC - Pre-Concert - Fan Acc

TRBinNYC - Concert - Fan Acc 

TRBinNYC - Set List/Fan Cams

TRBinNYC - Post Concert/After Thoughts - Fan Acc

TRBinNYC - Airport - Fan Acc 

TRBinNYC - Pre-Concert - Fan Acc  

TRBinNYC - Concert - Fan Acc

TRBinNYC - Set List/Fan Cams

Since I knew that the concert was cut short because of a death threat, the first thing I did was post to tumblr because I didn’t want false rumors going out that the concert was cancelled for other reasons than what it truly was and I wanted to highlight the seriousness of the issue. It was a horrible thing to bring myself to post but very necessary for people to know WHAT happened and how the actions of one person on social media ruined it for everyone. As expected many people sent me asks questioning if what I posted was true and I apologize for not answering them but yes, it was. clearly. I didn't have the best internet and I was surprised that it had even posted then and there and that everything around me was actually happening tbh. 

Everything happened so fast, the excitement, the concert, bangtan, the disappointment, the anger, the confusion, I felt like my world was spinning and I needed to sit down. So I did. and I was messaging the squad to try and sort out my thoughts when I realized... I didn't know how to contact my friends (who were still inside)...I didn’t know where I was and what to do and I was hyperventilating like crazy and hoping everyone was okay bc at that time I had no idea if the perpetrator was inside or if the people I knew were safe and if bangtan was safe. Shoutout to #yoonminsquad for helping me through that. Eventually my VIP+ friends who I was sharing a hotel with found me and when they did they burst into tears. I wasn't sure why? had bangtan been that amazing? it wouldn't be the first time I heard someone cried after hi-touch.. or had something bad happened in there??? She was so distressed and she was telling me that hi-touch was cancelled, which made sense after what security told me, but at the same time it was admitting that in fact, things had took such a serious turn for the worse...and I really just wanted to cry. Unfortunately though I don’t cry easy so all these emotions were running wild and I didn't know what to feel. 

I mostly just felt like shit. 1) I was disappointed and upset. Why did the concert have to end so early? Why didn't I get to hear heungtan live, why didn't all these people get hi-touch when they paid for it? how could SubkultureEnt allow such a thing? 

2) I was worried. I was scared. So damn scared. For BTS, for Namjoon, for the fans and the fandom. For the upcoming concerts. For the highlight tour (which was still in the works atm) Were they really in danger? I could not imagine a life where one of them doesnt exist. I cant even imagine how I would deal with anything else...A death threat is nothing to scoff at. To think that someone out there would rather you did NOT exist can cause serious psychological damage. and of all people towards Namjoon, someone we know who takes anti-comments seriously and reads good and bad critic on twitter all the time in hopes of self improvement. Not only Namjoon though, but the rest of BTS. Their mental and emotional state, their careers, what this makes them think about international fans. What they were feeling and how they were dealing. the mood was NOT good when the left and got into their van (so I hear, and there's a recording too). 

3) Lastly I was angry. At the one person who ruined it for everyone. At the fact that we as a fandom let it escalate to this extent. I am not defending Namjoon’s comment it was indeed colourist af and maybe he should have apologized but that DID NOT warrant a death threat. Nothing warrants a death threat. and more so, just because he is human and made a mistake doesn't mean that you should blame him and DEMAND an apology and what not. TWO WRONGS DONT MAKE A RIGHT. Just because he made a mistake that doesn't mean you can choose to single him out or what not. You can choose not to stan him or even bts if you felt like it, that's all on you, but PLEASE realize that adding oil to the fire by insulting him, ignoring him, embarrassing him or even planning to on social media (making jokes about it) makes you a horrible person, not him. I was angry at the fandom for a lot more than that too. The pit conditions, the fact that people let it get that bad that Namjoon had to warn y’all to fucking stop. The fact that people ruthlessly pushed their way to the front even though they didn't line up early really angered me esp when they are people I recognized as Tumblr-er’s....like yes, this kinda thing happens in concerts but never have I seen it to this extent. Also there was rumors that one fan followed them to their hotel and that's just fucking saesang shit don't do that when they go out of their way to visit your city.

I met up with some others from the trbinnyc fb group and we went for korean food for dinner and we were all so phased and feeling emotions of all kind. When we got to the restaurant we drank to much water we were so dehydrated because of the concert and the security did a terrible job of keeping us hydrated omg someone made a "the thirst for bts is too real" comment and I think that was the first time I smiled post concert. I got to meet some really cool people (including @vikooks​ haha the real Taehyung) and we decided to go karaoke on a later day.

Walking back to the hotel with (A) who was a vip+ ticket holder we just couldn't get over the fact that all that happened. It was her first concert and she was so shocked and I was just really terrified for the boys tbh. I wanted so badly for them to be okay. and then they started posting on Twitter, thanking us. They fucking thanked us after that. and I think to me that was a red light that either 1) bts are fucking angels 2) bts are not what they portray on twitter...

I really wanted to believe #2 wasn't true...I was really fucked up with the things I read on tumblr about how they were overworked and didn't want to sight see and how Jimin posted to the fancafe instead of twitter... I felt like I was being dismissed by bts... that to them we weren't "fans" but rather just schedules they had to complete...as an international fan I didn't think I counted as an "ARMY”...and I stayed up till 5 am crying by the poolside in the cold because with such negativity surrounding the concert I didn't feel like I could ever be part of this fandom again. I didnt have the heart to go through my concert footage or even talk to people regarding it (sorry @cowjimin​ @luckyjimin who had messaged me about it/ wanted to know what happened). I felt like it was all a lie, a false pretense and by seeing them in person it smashed the crystal ball that was bangtan. Which didnt make sense because I have seen them before and they were tired even then but still really kind and genuine.  

(thankfully) Recently with the Soompi interview and long winded conversations with @dangnamja​ I think I can finally conclude it was the first one. They are just so giving and caring and I really wish them happiness. I'm sorry they had to go through that, and I'm sorry to the fandom to. I want so badly for BTS to enjoy their promotions and get enough rest and food and to be healthy and happy with thier bodies and their music.  

I truly hope we all can learn from this. Idols are human too. Please remember that. Don’t charge at them, respect their space and privacy.  Be careful what you tweet to them and about them. Before you see them as idols see them as people. That is all. if you read all that, you're a hell of a trooper, but thank you.

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As a small note this was written months ago, shortly after TRBinNYC actually happened... my falling out with the fandom/bts didn’t last long but it felt so serious and I learned a lot about myself and how deep my love is for those seven boys. 

TRBinNYC - Airport - Fan Acc

TRBinNYC - Pre-Concert - Fan Acc  

They roughly checked our bags and let us inside the theatre shortly after the boys went in themselves. At that point people were beyond hyped, and before the concert even started, people were pushing like crazy, trying to move their way to the front and centre. Honestly, this isn’t unexpected, it happens at every concert. But tbh I expected better ? Not sure why. And then it actually started. And the small smidgen of order/sanity that remained, was gone.

The setlist was as listed here (with VIDEOS!) 

What can I even say about the performances themselves. I am not worthy to comment on them. Having seen bangtan before, the expectations were SO HIGH because they are just AMAZING performers and they never let me down. They gave each and every performance their all and seemed to be having such a great time performing. Screeches there were also cute lil Taegi, Jihope, YOONMIN moments. Many more even. I can’t recall it all now but they play off one another so well that seeing them perform is just so entertaining. With BTS in Berlin I had noted that Suga has extraordinary stage presence. AND YET AGAIN I AM AMAZED. How does he do it. HOW. and goddamnit don’t even get me started on Jimin’s raw vocals. AND ALL HIS ADLIBS. or on Cypher pt. 3. I was born again. Why is Born Again ARMY not a religion, I’d preach for that. Ugh I am painfully yoonmin biased I can’t comment much on the other members :(. J-hope spoke alot of english but the fans screeching always drowned him out OTL Namjoon at one point told the crowd to stop pushing and I was like bless you bc fuck that pit was insane. Tae came really close to the centre/front crowd and threw us hearts it was grOss. and Jungkook. by god Jungkook you talented little brat. Jin’s vocals are so crisP like are you even singing live??? ALL of them we’re so so good okay. I can imagine how hard they practice to execute that flawlessly and I am so proud of them. My children. ;u; After performing Path the boys thanked us and waved goodbye. It was sad but all good things come to an end. And of course we expected an encore/them to bow before they left. We expected we’d get to see Dope. and Heungtan. and Attack on Bangtan. But it never came. The concert ended so abruptly. One minute BTS was there performing and the next they closed the curtains and ushered everyone out except for the VIPs/people who had hi-touch.   It was strange but I had heard people say that they ran out of stage time (that they had only booked the theatre until 10pm, and went over). It didn’t make any sense but I accepted it…Until I met up with my friend (B). She was talking to security and they told us that the concert was cut short because of a death threat. And I felt so weak right there and then. I’d like to note that my friend, B, was talking to security because she was standing near them during the concert. She was near me in the pit when it started out but ended up at the back by security…how? Well she lost her balance when people started pushing and fell. No one helped her up. She got trampled on. They had to pull her out to the back. B left to catch a bus back home to Toronto so she could check if all of that caused her a broken ankle or if it was just sprained. Aint nobody paying for american healthcare. If you were part of the people that caused that, or by affiliation didn’t help her up I don’t think you deserve to go to concerts. There is etiquette and manners. and RESPECT. Please don’t be that concert go-er who ignores all that. She was really upset and so was I and it definitely did not make the situation better after we found out how the concert ended…The rest of my friend had hi-touch so I was left alone and at that point in time I felt so upset and nothing made sense.

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This is a better fan acc than anything I will write if you’re interested in the specifics about members and their interactions. 

I really wanted to post this months ago but was too lazy to edit it… atleast it’s up before Highlight in Toronto LOL ? I fucking did not LMFAO