#trauamcore

This is me trying is for the girls with middle child syndrome, the one who always got misunderstood, the blacksheep of the family, the one who act a lot mature than their age, the one with family issues, the one who cannot breathe without escaping through poetry, books, songs and movies, the dead poets society lovers, who wants to achieve a lot things but don't know how, who act cold, distant and always walk around with 'Idgaf' attitude because they think that if people knew that their action and words are affecting them so badly they would lose some kind of inner war, the found family lovers. For the girls who find peace in solitude, who still have an active account on tumblr or any fanpage which isn't doing great but where they can be themselves or post anything, who believes that being understood is a privilege they never had, the one who always assume the worst in every situation.

Sometimes I really just want to disappear. I want to be a ghost. Everything lately has been so intense and I just can’t seem to keep up. I really feel like everything would be better and easier if I wasn’t around. I just don’t want to hurt anymore. I can’t take this stress and emptiness. How can I be too much and not enough at the same time? I just want to be happy but I feel so trapped. Is there anyone out there who can help me? I’m so lonely.

i feel like no one talks about how harmful being forced to abuse or traumatize someone is.

ugh when you grow up you realize all the messed up shit that happened to you as a kid