I see a lot of posts about being more "kinlike" and about things to end physical (species) dysphoria. While it isn't exactly my experience, I would love to say that I am actually more bothered by the way people perceive me (a human) than by my own body.
I can summarize it to "being holothere-y/holothere-like"; the way I see myself in the mirror. My face feels weird a lot of times, but the rest of my body just isn't human in any way and I am completly aware that I am a dog and this is a dog's body. Tbh, I don't have much problems with it — actually, I really like it and it feels good to remind myself of that.
The real problem is the way people see me.
I am not human and any nonhuman being (for me, there is no difference between a "physically identifiable" [animals, plants, objects etc] and a "physically unidentifiable" [...animals, plants, objects etc that SEEM like they are human] nonhuman and both...) could easily tell the difference between me and a regular human. Or a human. I'm not one, in any way at all.
I feel trapped in the way other people around me see and treat me.
I hate wearing clothes and shoes, having to interact with people, having to study almost 24/7 about topics I don't care about; I hate pretending I am human, and whenever I hear some generalist speech like "us, humans" or "we as a society" or even "like the sentient people that we are, differently from animals", I feel dysphoric.
I feel like my body isn't enough. Like my identity and all the signs I show and tell them...
I feel like it isn't enough at all.
I am not dysphoric by my body. I love it. I love my fur, my paws, my ears and all parts of it. I like seeing my body and I am proud of having a body like this...
I just wish people could see it the way I see it.
