#trans hcs

Robert (no matter what assigned-at-birth):

Hyper, bordering on toxic masculinity in childhood.

Teenhood of forgoing personal identity for public identity.

Crisis of masculine vs feminine identity in 20s but too busy to confront it.

+ bigender flora angst and yapping below cut

okay so i hc that when Volt appeared he identified as male but he always felt something was sort of off until he’s in the club one night talking to Lux, Kopi and some of the other ladies and Kopi is taking about her transition and how she is a woman and always felt like one. Lux then talks about themselves and how they prefer they/them pronouns and how they feel they’re just Lux. These conversations really resonated with Volt and later that night he asked Eddie.

“Do you think i’d be a pretty woman.” Eddie was taken aback and stared at Volt momentarily. Without missing a beat, he shrugged.

“Yeah, Volt. You would.”

(Note: Still new to tumblr so formatting might be weird! Sorry! + projecting a bit of my own experiences onto him oopsies)

Azul is a trans man, but doesn't go about it in the very traditional sense. Transness isn't uncommon or seen as outside the norm among merfolk, esp since I believe merfolk follow closer to fish society and anatomy—where gender changes are normal (eg. clownfish)

However, since Azul is an octopus merman, he cannot change his gender at will, and has to rely on potions for gender affirming care. Eg. lowering his voice, reducing breast mass, etc. (I do like to think that he did get top surgery somehow because in his octoform it fits perfectly and I've always thought the scars were pretty)

He never struggled much with gender dysphoria, mostly feeling out of place because of body dysmorphia. Esp when puberty hit and he felt his chest developing. It only increased his body dysmorphia, where even if he wasn't trans, I feel he would find a way to get some kind of breast reduction.

Additionally, it would also make sense why he was pudgier when he was younger, esp his human half being human where women store more fat than men. His tentacles have remained the same size as he grew and only his human half has changed in weight

I also imagine Azul in his octo form is twice the length and probably triple the size of the twins, which makes sense if he was AFAB since female octopi are much larger than male. But, he's shorter in human form since women are usually shorter than men biologically

On land, whenever he's asked if he is trans or not he won't directly answer. If he were asked if he was a trans man, he would reply that he was a man. Same thing if he was asked if he was a cis man, where he would reply that he is a man.

Really only the Leech twins know about his past and neither one really bring it up because it falls in line with the NDA abt his past. + Azul only hides this part of him because it relates to him being bigger when he was younger which is the main reason he hides it //Warning: Genitalia Talk

I've always HCed merfolk as hermaphroditic. That being said, they still have a sex, male or female, where only 1 part technically functions. (Eg. only male merfolk can produce sperm / only female merfolk can lay eggs.)

On land, since he only takes potions that provide care but not necessarily change his gender (he didn't feel there was a point in the sea since merfolk have both parts) he would have female anatomy

I don't think this bothered him, since merfolk store their genitalia in slits anyway. It was probably a bigger shock for the twins just having their thang hanging out LOL.

I do think it's kind funny to think about him experiencing a period for the first time on land and that's when he decided to take a potion to change to male because it was just impractical. (Plus I hate periods kill kill kill die die die)

Welcome to “Shattered Legacies”; an AU that primarily takes place during and after DSAF 3

As implied by the title, this is a Legacy/Evil Ending AU. Sorry no fluff for you!

(Brief image description is under each artwork, read if you’d like!)

Jack’s inner monologue about Henry’s presence haunting the restaurants.

Refs:

Jack Kennedy in his DSAF 3 suit

Dave Miller in her work uniform pre-davetrap

Davetrap!!

The Apparition/Soul of Dr. Henry Miller

Dr. Henry Miller but more solid

Shirtless refs of Jack and Dave under the cut, for scar map reasons <3

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I realized a bit ago, that I've always TOLD you guys that I hc the mercs as trans in their own rights, but I've never told you guys WHY I headcanon them each as trans or HOW they express their transness. So hey, why not do it now? I gotta get back into writing for you guys at some point.

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Also...we'll just...pretend they live in a world where trans healthcare is super easy and accessible, please and thank you 😭🙏🏼

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Demo- I headcanon Demo as a trans man who uses he/him pronouns, and has decided not to pursue medical transition besides HRT.

I think Demo's masculinity isn't tied to his body. He knows he's a man, through and through, regardless of if how he was born. He's still a man. He loves his body. (Minus his uterus, he HATES that thing. [Hcs him with PCOS/Endo </3])

I think when he came out it was to...moderate support in his late teens and he went on HRT around his early twenties. I'd like to think he was always a very masculine person, even before he came out, so his transition went very smoothly.

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Engie- I headcanon Engie as trans man who uses he/him pronouns, who can take or leave medial transition, he's decided to take his time in figuring out how he wants his body to look, but also takes HRT

Engineer, similar to Demo, I think Engie feels comfortable in his body. He knows he's a man, and regardless of his body, he'll always feel like a man. But he does occasionally get bouts of very strong dysphoria that make him question if he'd be happier if he medically transitioned. I think even from childhood he knew he was more masculine, always fitting in with the "tomboy" label, rejecting all things feminine, it was very clear throughout his life. He was met with mixed support upon coming out in his early teens, and eventually got on HRT in his late teens. And similar to Demo, due to his masculine nature, the transition went relatively smoothly.

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Heavy- I headcanon Heavy as a trans man who uses he/him pronouns, who has pursued medical transition (thanks to Medic) and has fully medically transitioned.

I don't think Heavy really ever thought too much about himself growing up. He just never found himself having time to focus on him. So he didn't really question any of the feelings that surrounded his gender. They, much like other things, got pushed down. Eventually though, he had to confront it. I think he definitely came out later. His family, of course was very supportive, and love him regardless. They don't care how he identifies, they just care about him. I think he started looking into medically transitioning after he joined the other mercs, and after Medic offered to do it for free. And was fully okay with Medic preforming the operation. Now he loves his body, and is very happy being the man he always knew he was.

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Medic- I headcanon Medic as an intersex and trans masc, specially, I headcanon him as having Klinefelter syndrome. He uses he/him pronouns.

I think Medic growing up had a lot of issues that he didn't quite understand. He wasn't like the other boys. A lot of it was attributed to him being a late bloomer. But, in reality, it all came back to him being intersex. He learned he was intersex in his mid twenties, and kept it a well guarded secret. He refused to acknowledge it for a long time. Almost feeling ashamed. He struggled with his masculinity all throughout his childhood, being bullied for it relentlessly, and now here was proof, in his mind at least, that he wasn't really a man. He didn't really get over these misplaced feelings until he met the other mercs. It was always a dull ache, or something gnawing at him constantly. But now, on a team surrounded by other men, all expressing their masculinity in different ways, it made him feel more comfortable with himself. After he joined the team, he came out, to overwhelming support from the others, and learned more about himself, and the intersex and trans masc labels.

[Also side note, as he grew more comfortable with expressing his gender, he has changed his anatomy at will to whatever makes him more comfortable at any given moment, his feelings about his gender identity aren't inherently tied to his genitalia anymore.]

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Scout- I headcanon Scout as a trans man who uses he/him pronouns and has fully medically transitioned (also thanks to Medic) but sometime he does wonder if he could have been happy without bottom surgery.

Scout was born the only girl out of all his brothers, but from the moment he could walk and talk, his mother knew she was rasing another boy, regardless of what it said on the birth certificate. She tried to fight it, always wanting a daughter, but after she found him at the age of five, in tears over having to wear a dress, she finally gave in, and welcomed another son to her family, even if it took Scout a few more years to put the right words to the way he was feeling inside. I think Scout finally put names to words in his early teens, and was actually really scared to come out to his family. Millions of thoughts and doubts rushing through his mind. But his Mom just smiled, and hugged him, accepting him almost instantly. He's her baby, and nothing in this world would change that. I honestly think Scout is one of the only mercs to have access to puberty blockers, and he started his transition at around 14. He had never really had the means to medically transitioned, but once he joined the team, Medic was all too happy to perform the surgeries. He was really happy once they were done, and he still is. Though, sometimes he wonders if he could have been just as happy without bottom surgery. He doesn't regret it, but he wonders if he could have a different experience without it.

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Sniper- I headcanon Sniper as falling somewhere under the trans umbrella, and as using all pronouns. He doesn't quite call himself any trans lables, but doesn't quite align with cisgender lables either. He just knows he's a human, and he doesn't care what you call him or what his body looks like. He's perfect existing without any lables or societal expectations. He hasn't had any surgeries and probably won't either. He never had to come out, never had to explain anything.

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Spy- I headcanon Spy as a genderfluid person who uses all pronouns.

Spy is...a spy, shockingly enough, and that means he had to get used to putting on different personalities and identities. So when he had to dress as a woman once or twice, he did what he had to do. Liking it wasn't part of that, but he found himself liking it anyway. I don't think Spy was really a masculine guy to begin with. I definitely think in his childhood he was more feminine, taking more after his mother, and then when he was put in a position, where he oddly enough could explore dressing as a woman, and presenting as a woman, and even LIVING as a woman, with little to no shame, because, hey, it's just a job right? It was actually pretty freeing for him, well, as freeing as it could be. He didn't really ever come out. He didn't have to. Being a spy also helped with that! When he wanted to be seen as a woman, he'd present feminine. When he wanted to be seen as a man, he'd present masc. And when he didn't want to be seen at all, he'd just disappear.

[All shapeshifters are trans, what else do you want me to say???]

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Soldier- I headcanon Soldier as a trans man who uses he/him pronouns who has only pursued HRT but has not fully medically transitioned.

I think Soldier, from the MINUTE he could talk, knew he was a boy. No question about it. Always fought ANY attempts by others to make him feminine, and always wholeheartedly believed he WAS born a man, but there was some mix up... (I personally love this hc by ColdSpiccy and quote "they took your WHOLE penis in the curcumsicion!?" Regularly.) I do also like the headcanons that Soldier just...blasted his tits off but GUYS you don't understand how much I love the idea of Soldier learning to love his body and come to terms with what masculinity means to him! Because I could really see him knowing he was a man throughout his childhood, and his body not reflecting it, and him over compensating with toxic masculinity over that, and him meeting the other mercs and learning how he can learn to love and accept himself and be happy. Do you SEE the vision-

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Pyro- I headcanon Pyro as an agender, mtf, and a xenogender user who uses it/they pronouns along with other neopronouns.

Okay, complex queer identity time! Alright! So, I believe that Pyro was born male, but it always felt...weird. They felt like they wanted to have no gender at all, but also...they wanted a woman's body??? These feelings made no sense to them. How could someone else understand these feelings if it couldn't? Well, surprising no one, the rest of the mercs understood just fine. Medic (and Spy) surprisingly so. Medic was more than happy to offer his services and give Pyro the body they wanted while having no trouble respecting it's pronouns. It took a little while for Pyro to learn the exact lables for itself. Especially after they learned about xenogenders (i actually think they identify with xenogenders relating to fire, voids, stars, eldritch horrors, cats, and also the xenogender hoarder identity) and while they use it/they primarily they've occasionally tired other neopronouns and use fire themed ones on and off.

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Miss Pauling- I headcanon Miss Pauling as a transgender woman who uses she/her pronouns and has fully medically transitioned.

I think Miss Pauling had a lot of feelings for a very long time. I think she was raised in a household they focused so much on her being perfect and by extension being the perfect son. I think she was always under a LOT of stress. She always knew who she was inside but she was TERRIFIED to let anyone know, or to even think about it too long. I think she even took her current job while still living as a man, and presenting as a man. I actually think her first meeting Medic would have been what really helped her come out of her shell. I honestly think her and Medic have a great friendship with each other, and when they first met I could totally see Medic immediately being able to tell all the anxieties and worries that just radiated off of her. I don't think she'd instantly breakdown and tell him everything. But after a while of becoming friends I think she would confide in him, and he would support her through discovering herself and becoming the woman she wants to be. He'd help her with her medical transition and provide her with estrogen, of course. The other mercs IMMEDIATELY supported her as well. As for her family? I think the support from there would be...less than ideal. But I do also think, in time, the mercs DO become like a second family to her.

[Also, a side note! I could also see her being a demigirl, and think they're are interesting ideas and stuff to explore with that!]

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Thank you all for being understanding of my very long, unofficial hiatus. I'm sorry it's been so long, and I'm sorry I've kinda let the blog die. I promise I'm coming back, it's just taken a hot minute.

Thank you guys for sticking around, and thanks for reading, and as always, I hope you enjoyed :)