#trans af

Hell Followed With Us by AJ White taught me there's more than one way to be trans, and provided a wonderful outlet for this new feeling I was having called trans rage.

Prince of Sorrows by @skellygraves opened my eyes, and writing horizons with such a beautiful queer normative world that it made me question everything.

The Witch King by H.E Edgmon taught me to never accept less than what I deserve.

Cemetery Boys by @aidenschmaiden taught me how family and friends should treat you, and that they should learn if they don't know how.

The Sunbearer Trials taught me that standing as you are can make others stand up too. It also taught me that being trans isn't your whole identity, just part of who you are.

The Sex Wizard Series by Alethea Faust has such a diverse cast of queer characters, and it opened my eyes to how creative queer kinky seggs can be.

Odder Still by DN Bryn made me realize that we don't have to fight against the parts of ourselves we deem parasitic or bad.

A Taste Of Gold And Iron by Alexander Rowland was the first time I felt truly seen as a person with anxiety. (Rereading now via audio)

A Strange And Stubborn Endurance by @fozmeadows impacted me in several ways and for several personal reasons, but I will say this. I have borrowed this from my library. Bought the ebook. Bought the audio. And someday I'll own a print copy.

Kinship and Kindness by @authorkarajorgensen was another book that being trans was just part of the characters life, and it warmed my heart in all the right places.

The Wolf In The Whale. This. I have no words that can accurately describe the wonder that is this book. It is dark, real, visceral and full of emotion. It is one of those books that forever changes you.

So I made myself go out anyway.

Fuck you Dysphoria.

The Roland they made for Fate is an egg noodle so I made my own better Roland with black jack and hookers

Durandal isn’t Berserkers’ real Noble Phantasm-it’s the Oliphant horn. Upon being blown, Berserker self destructs. It’s an angsty sad anti-army Noble Phantasm. 

Roland makes SO much sense as a Berseker to me-mostly because in the Chanson de Roland he died fighting rather than dishonor himself calling for aid, and only blows his horn when there’s only a handful of his men left, and then he tries to break his sword Durandal (supposed to be the sharpest sword in the world) as a last resort to keep his enemies from having it.

Roland was betrayed by Ganelon, his brothter in law, and saw his friend Olivier died because of it, and Roland’s wife Aude dies of sadness hearing about his death so I can imagine Roland as a Berserker drowning in regret and bitterness for he betrayal that he suffered and his own foolishness that ended with the death of so many of his men and loved ones. So yeah. 300% pure concentrated Berserker angst juice right there.