#tptbp

but the answer is that yes Simon loves Johnny, but he doesn't love reader now. That answer will change over the course of the fic b/c personally while I don't like, want to yuck anyone's yum i just personally am not interested when both parties aren't as obsessed with the target? At least in the inevitable sense.

Simon is point blank only interested in Johnny at the point in the story we're at. Johnny is Simon's, and although Simon gets reader for Johnny that does by extension make reader his. But to Simon, reader's not just a chew toy, reader is a pet, kind of like getting a dog for a horse or in this case kind of like getting a smaller dog for your big dog because you already have to deal with one big dog and you don't want two.

this will be more developed on in later chapters in what i HOPE comes through well or has at least been hinted at but Simon's whole deal with reader is kind of sunk cost fallacy mixing with his own obsessive/compulsive tendencies, even by the point that Johnny is pulled into the story proper.

I did debate on, in the newest chapter, Simon just. Choking Johnny out right before he came and then making Johnny come like. as many times as possible until he woke up while making reader watch through an open door but not letting Johnny see reader. (I explain it later but basically "reader can still be a surprise if johnny just doesn't see them/talk to them" is the line of logic)

But then I was like. mmmm it defeats the point of what I'm doing by makjng Simon narrate what he's doing to make it more like he's forcing two animals to sniff each other through a door by pressing reader/johnny to each side and fucking them where the other can hear.

Which yeah that's exactly what he's doing/why he was twice as talkative as normal!

I also talked about Ghost getting Johnny painkillers, water, and a blanket before doing what he did and that's because at the end of the day he still LOVES johnny and doesn't want to do him crippling harm (without purpose. I think if Johnny tried to run he might consider it) and its enough of a punishment that Ghost isn't holding Johnny, when that tends to be a huge part of their aftercare when Johnny's good for Simon.