#tornwillmend

What was torn you mend again. You redesign the tattered thread by thread. Does anyone get that feeling that you can actually do normal things like have a steady boyfriend, perhaps get married, have children, go to the doctor without a mentally preparing for weeks? You know. Normal. Then the next day someone comes up to you with the potential to do something normal and you just shut down. Like. Full on nope. And you get totally disappointed in yourself because the opportunity arose and you just stood there and watch it drive past. I know God exchanges old for new. I guess I’m just not ready to give him the old quite yet.