jake's sexuality has always been something he hadn't ever thought about. i mean, it was obvious he liked girls. for as long as he could remember, it had always been just girls. so he never really had a reason to even consider the possibility he may like boys too.
even if he did like boys, it wasn't something that he could ever see himself being publicly open with. he wasn't opposed to same-sex relationships. how could he be? after all, his best friend was gay. and he still likes drew all the same. it changes nothing. at least not for him.
for others, outside of the jomies, it's hard for them to accept that people can feel romantic or sexual attraction to their own gender. any outed homosexuals are usually singled out and ridiculed just because of their preferences. and despite being picked on his whole life, jake doesn't think he can handle any of that.
so no, he hasn't really taken the time to figure out his own sexuality. he's never had a reason to.
but lately, he just can't help but notice how attractive the men are in the movies his mom watches, or the posters his sister has hung up on the wall. or how jake finds broad shoulders more alluring as compared to a small and delicate frame like most girls have.
but what makes him question himself most is how he's entranced by every little thing drew does. he's coated with goosebumps every time drew accidentally brushes against him. how his stomach flips whenever drew says jake's name while holding his gaze. how he finds his train of thought constantly going to anything related to drew.
does he like drew like that? he doesn't think so. he isn't even gay. he's dated girls before. not boys. plus, drew’s his best friend. he couldn’t like him like that. if he did, he would just feel guilty about it. like he’s taking advantage of drew just because he knows that he likes boys and jake’s feeling a little confused. he wouldn’t want to play with drews feelings like that just because he’s lost.
jake thinks that he's just attracted to the idea of something different. when he was with hailey, he never felt the thrill he did when he hung out with drew. maybe jake really did like him, who knows? everything's so new to him.
jake and drew had been hanging out a lot more than they had been. after hailey broke up with jake, he realized just how much he had neglected their friendship by ditching the jomies for the music club. jake apologized profusely, and drew forgave him. now they're inseparable.
one afternoon while hanging out in drew’s room, jake decides to pursue the answers to the dwelling questions that have been nagging at him ever since he first started to notice people who weren’t girls.Â
"drew?" jake asks, solemnly.
"yeah?" drew turns his head to look at jake, who is sitting next to him on the bed. drew has been reading an old copy of one of their favorite comic books: something from the spider-man series.
"how... how did you know that you were..." jake trailed off, the word 'gay' feeling taboo and insincere. "...how'd you know
you liked boys?" he finishes.
"oh. uh well, it was just something that i've always kind of known, you know? like i just dated zoey so i could feel like someone would love me in some kind of way." drew answers plainly.
although drew had technically answered jake’s question, he was hoping for something a little more. something that would give him any sign of the clarification he needed to describe how he felt.Â
"i..," jake starts, unsure of himself. "i really don't know. i guess i was just wondering."
they fall back into a comfortable silence. drew is lost deep in thought for a moment before he asks, "but like how did you know know?" he asks, pushing the subject further.Â
drew looks confused. "what do you mean?"
"like you've only ever been with one girl before, so how would you know that you're not into it?" he asks.
"i've never had a crush on a girl before, jake. never.”
"yeah." jake knows he must sound like a babbling idiot at this point, but he just can't help but ask, "have you ever been with a guy?"
"i mean, no. i haven't, not a real relationship...," drew responds looking at jake with a very puzzled look painted across his face.
"so you just know? that's it? what if you don't know?" jake asks, running his
"where is this even coming from, jake? i thought you said you were cool with it? that it didn't change anything?"
"it doesn't!" jake says, matter of factly. "it seriously doesn't matter, drew. this is.. this is different, alright?” jake hesitates before just ripping off the band-aid, “i think i like boys too. i.. i don't know. it's just that i know how to feel about girls, i know when i have a crush on them, but i can't tell if i feel the same way towards guys."
drew looks taken back. "oh. really?"
"yeah and i just... you know what? sorry for asking, it’s stupid. forget I said anything," jake answers, waving his hand trying to drop the subject, regretting he even brought it up.
"no, no. . you can talk to me about it. please talk to me about it," drew says earnestly, wishing jake would let him in. he had trusted jake when he was discovering himself, so jake shouldn’t feel like he has to be alone with his confusing feelings.Â
"i...," jake wasn't sure how to even begin to describe what he means about how he feels.
"seriously, jake. i'm not going to laugh, or judge you. you can trust me. i won't say anything to anyone if you don't want me to. hell, if you tell me and never want to talk about it again, we won't. just talk to me, i'm here for you," drew says sincerely.
"okay," jake smiles at drew, knowing he means every word. "i don't even really know how to put it. i mean, i know when i like girls, but when it comes to guys... i just don't know how to feel. i think i've had crushes on boys in the past, but i don't think I ever put it together that i liked them like that. and I know that it's okay to like guys,” he continues, “but it's just I'm scared. i... i don't mean that in a bad way, i swear, it's just.. different."
"i get what you mean," drew speaks when jake goes quiet. "it is scary. being different, i mean. but it's okay to be different sometimes."
"i know that. i just don't know if it would feel right."
"if what would feel right?"
"being with a boy," jake says, his gaze drifting down to his hands in his lap, feeling a bit embarrassed of what he's admitting.
"do you want to find out?" drew asks. jake lifts his head to look drew in his eyes.
"do you want to know if it feels right being with a guy?" drew asks again, warily.
"i..," jake's sentence trails, unsure.
"it's okay if you don't want to. i just thought you might have wanted to explore with someone you're comfortable around, like me. your friend."
"friend," jake repeats, thinking of the countless times he's told himself that's all he and drew were whenever rogue thoughts roamed to the boy sitting next to
him. that's all they were after all. right?
"yeah. i... you know what? forget i said it, it was a stupid thing to say anyways. sorry–," drew starts when jake cuts him off by saying,
"no, it's okay. yeah, yeah, i want to know."
"you're sure?" drew asks, fearing he's pressured jake into something he doesn’t really want to do.
"okay. i know you've kissed a girl before," drew states and jake nods, "and i'm guessing you've never kissed a boy?" jake shakes his head no. "then I guess we start with that..."
drew waits for jake to come closer, and when neither of them show any signs of movement, drew scoots over, rearranging the pillows, so he's only inches from jake.
jake's heart is beating fast in his throat as he stares at drew's slightly parted lips. he's frozen in place with nervousness and excitement both as he waits for the other boy to close the space between them.
when jake notices the slight hesitation as drew leans in closer, he recollects himself and meets him halfway. their lips meet, touching lightly, as if they were treating one another as very fragile.
jake melts into the kiss. drew starts to take charge, leading it with a silent passion. jake, lost in the kiss, parts his mouth slightly to take in a breath, which is immediately taken advantage of by his partner who shoves his tongue into jake's mouth, deepening the kiss. jake lets out a groan in surprise, and drew smiles against his lips.
they pull apart to catch their breath. they stare at each other silently for a moment.
"was that okay?" drew questions.
"yeah. more than okay," jake answers, his slightly swollen lips tugging up into a grin.
"so it felt right? kissing a boy?"
"i think so," jake replies, vaguely thinking of how it was more than okay, especially since the boy he was kissing was drew.
"if I tried to kiss you again, would you let me?"
at that, the space between them closes yet again, lips reconnecting. jake loves the way drew's lips feel: soft and smooth. his tongue glides easily over them.
the kiss becomes faster and messier as it continues. teeth start to bite gently at bottom lips urging the kiss further. hands roam across one another's bodies, entwined in the other's hair, running down their side to rest on their hips.Â
jake lets his hand venture under drew’s shirt, feeling his bare skin against his hands. He explores every part of drew’s back under the material before moving his hands to the other boy’s chest. jake is absolutely entranced by how soft drew’s skin is against his touch.Â
just like jake, drew is equally as handsy. he cups jake’s face intimately for a while, before they sink down to his neck, resting with fingers laced together. They continue to drop, running down the sides of the blonde’s body. drew runs his fingers along the insides of jake’s thighs for a moment before they move once again to grab at the boy’s hips, pulling him impossibly closer until jake is seated on his lap. drew’s hands toy with the hem of jake’s shirt, lifting it up a bit, a silent want for the material to be discarded.Â
“you can take it off,” jake says, not needing drew to voice the question. at this, jake leans back just enough so that his shirt could easily be stripped off of him.Â
without the shirt to cover his torso, jake becomes aware of just how real this is getting. he’s growing flustered when he moves to pull at drew’s shirt, in desperation of contact with the other boy’s bare skin.Â
once drew’s shirt is removed and tossed aimlessly aside, jake gapes at the alabaster skin in front of him. his hands immediately start to touch at every part of drew, wanting more.Â
drew reaches out to touch just under jake’s chin, gently raising his head so jake’s gaze reaches his own. He licks his lips before resuming the kiss.Â
this time, the kiss is fueled by mutual desperation. a shared desire to taste every part of their partner’s mouth, reeling them in with every glide of the tongue against the other’s lips. drew bites jake’s lip gently. it didn’t hurt. instead, it only made him want more.Â
the two are chest to chest, breaths almost perfectly in sync, marking this moment as something they both want. sighs are breathed into the kiss, enhancing it. once more, needy hands start to wander.
drew tugs at jake's hair, which earns a sharp moan from the blonde. jake feels his dick pulse as a result from the sudden tug. everything else leading him up to this moment was already building him up, but this really set him off the most.Â
drew pulls away from jake, looking down at jake's growing erection.
"i could help with that, too," drew says softly, treading carefully, not wanting to push jake. "only if you want though."
“i do. want you to, i mean,” jake replies, after a moment.Â
“you’re sure? we don’t have to…,” drew trails.Â
“i’m sure,” jake whispers in response.Â
drew moves to unbutton jake’s jeans, taking it slow. jake readjusts himself by moving off of drew’s lap so he can remove his pants. drew simultaneously removes his own before jake climbs back onto his lap.Â
jake’s boner was even more visible now that the only thing constricting it was the thin piece of cloth making up his boxers. drew hesitates before gingerly placing his hand on jake’s erection. jake groans and bucks up into the touch.Â
“more,” jake whines. drew smirks at just how desperate the boy on top of him was. barely a single touch, and he’s begging for more.
“you need to take off your boxers for that, jake,” drew says, casually, a newfound confidence stirring inside him.Â
“oh. right,” jake utters, turning a light pink shade. once again, he moves off drew. fingers reach at the elastic waistband and slowly pull them off. his dick springs up, content with the removal of its constriction. jake takes his place once more on top of drew. he shyly waits for drew to say or do something feeling exposed with him now having not a trace of clothing on.Â
drew stares down at jake’s length in awe. his dick was quite frankly very large for someone of his age. drew knew his own to be thicker than jake’s, but the length of it was in no comparison to the other boy’s. he figures this is only natural for someone
as long and gangly as jake.Â
“drew,” jake urges, snapping drew out of his trance. he reaches forward to take jake’s dick into his hand. starting at the base, he slowly starts to pump his hand.Â
the sound jake lets out is a reward to drew’s ears itself. he makes it his goal to bring more noises out of the other boy. jake whimpers and whines as the pace quickens.Â
drew feels his own dick in his underwear in desperate need of friction. he’d been so caught up in making jake feel good that he had neglected his own aching erection.Â
he reluctantly releases his grip from Mike. the blonde whines at the loss of contact before he realizes the motive of it. he watches intently as drew slips out of his underwear.Â
he sees that drew is just as painfully hard as jake. he almost feels sorry for him because it had to hurt, going that long without any sensual relief. alongside this, he comes to a realization that he made drew have this reaction. his dick pulses, missing drew’s palms clasping his base and fingers wrapped around it.Â
luckily, drew quickly resumes their previous actions, this time palming his own cock as well. breaths become more labored as the pumping quickens. groans and inaudible slutty moans that vaguely sounded like drew’s name were released from jake’s mouth.Â
drew quickens his hand movements is a desperate attempt to draw out more sounds from jake.Â
“Ah.. fuck, drew. I’m.. I’m close,” jake says, in between moans.Â
“cum for me, jake. you’ve done so good for me,” drew urges. almost instantly, at the sound of praise, jake releases, cum spilling out all over drew’s hand and his own stomach. drew continues to gently stroke jake, letting him ride out his high, until he feels the other boy grow soft.Â
“holy fuck,” jake sighs, feeling blissful. drew finds his previously discarded shirt and wipes up the mess jake had made.Â
“how was it?” drew asks, already having an idea of the answer, but he felt obligated
to let jake voice his own opinion.Â
“good. really good,” jake replies with a smile. he turns to look at drew, becoming aware that he still was incredibly hard. He felt selfish. drew hasn't been able to tend to the erection. Â
“drew..,” jake trails, staring down at the other boy's length. “can i… can i help you with that now?”
“it’s fine, jake. you don’t have to,” drew says apologetically.Â
“i want to,” he insists.Â
“okay..,” drew looks unsure. he waits for jake to take his dick into his hand like he did for him a few moments ago, but instead is guided to the edge of the bed and instructed to sit.Â
drew watches in fascination as jake lowers himself off of the bed and sinks onto his knees in between drew’s legs.Â
“jake…,” drew growls lustfully, in anticipation for what is yet to come.Â
jake grabs hold of drew’s base as he licks a strip up the underside of drew’s dick. drew hisses in admirable pleasure.Â
jake makes his way up to the head before licking circles around it. teasing drew, he barely pushes his head down onto drew’s cock before coming off of it again. he strokes drew just a touch before he grows impatient.Â
“get on with it, sterling,” he half growls in desperation.Â
jake smirks before taking drew back into his mouth. once he sinks down and reaches the hilt, he hollows out his cheeks, sucking harshly. drew moans in pure ecstasy and laces his fingers through jake’s hair, tugging lightly. same as before, this draws a groan from jake. however, this time, it’s even more enjoyable because it’s let out against drew’s dick, intensifying the pleasure.
jake slowly drags up the length of his dick, tongue pressed flat to the underside of it. jake bobs his head up and down, moans growing louder each time the pace accelerates.Â
after a moment, jake’s jaw grows sore, and threatens to go lax. accidentally, his teeth run against drew’s cock. drew bucks his hips up into jake’s mouth, surprised by the sudden new stimulation.
“fuck,” drew breaths out.Â
jake pulls off before apologizing, “sorry.”
“no, it’s okay. god, it’s more than okay, jake.”
drew pushes jake’s head down, encouraging him to take him back in his mouth, which jake does.Â
with the newfound knowledge of drew liking gentle strokes with teeth, he uses this to his advantage. every now and then, after four or five bobs of the head, he adds teeth, and every time, he’s greeted with a sharp moan from drew.Â
he continues this motion for a little while before drew tightens his grip in jake’s hair.Â
“i’m close, jake,” he gasps. jake smiles, the pace of his bobbing head quickening impossibly. he lightly drags his teeth with intent on making drew feel good. drew starts to thrust upward in sync with jake’s mouth. he lets out a deep groan before he is overcome with immeasurable pleasure. white cum paints the inside of jake’s
drew sighs, loosening his grip on jake’s hair so he can pull off. once free, jake spits out the excess cum that was still in his mouth.Â
“fucking hell, jake,” drew says, exasperated. he leans back, so he’s now laying on the bed looking up at the ceiling. jake joins him, and drew wraps one of his arms around his torso.Â
“wow…,” was all jake could say in return, and not just because his jaw was sore from sucking drew off, but because he was genuinely at a loss for words.Â
“did any of this help you clear anything up?” drew asks.Â
“yeah, of course. i think i definitely like boys,” jake responds.Â
“i’m glad you told me.”
